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Opioids/Heroin Helped my Mental Health, Libido etc.

wirkdy said:
cool story, what roa have you been using?
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Over the 11 years almost every opioid and almost every roa....I actually have multiple forms of severe chronic pain, so sometimes it's just dependant on my pain levels, but I've been on (as well as street heroin at times): Codeine, Pethidine, Tramadol, Dihydrocodeine, Morphine, Oxycodone, Diamorphine, Methadone, Hydromorphone, Methadone, Buprenorphine and Fentanyl.
Right now I mostly take Dihydrocodeine and Morphine.
 
En España es muy dificil conseguir oxi,Fentanil, petidina,hidrocodona,etc...
Solo si tienes varios dolores te dan
morfina Sólo puede obtenerlo de la
rojo oscuro. Metadona y buprenorfina
cuando eres adicto a H. podemos obtener opio pero su plan es muy dificil.
El metilfenidato es difícil de obtener si
lo necesita para trabajar o para una depresión.
Estoy en una depresión muy dura. Usuario IV para pareja o años. Y adicto al opio durante dos años, luego cambié a H. En mi último año de adicción, introduje coca. Y fue lo peor que pude hacer. Lo perdi todo. Fui a rehabilitación. Entonces me dieron metadona. En 3 meses estaba en 5 mg.
Pero mi pesadilla comenzó. Insomnio, depresión, sin trabajo, sin novia. Entonces el
el médico empezó con benzos, etumine, quetiapina, lyrica y antidepresivos. Nada funcionó. Después de 6-7 meses empiezo a inyectarme coca. Otra rehabilitación. Después de 7-8 meses sobrio empiezo a tomar coca por vía intravenosa.
Ahora, después de 5 o 6 años de rehabilitación, todavía tengo depresión. Estoy en Metadona 70mg,venlafaxina y para dormir 5mg lorazepam,40mg etumine,75mg lyrica y 50mg quetiapina. Tengo trabajo desde julio pero mi depresión continúa. Casa, trabajo, casa, trabajo. Esa es mi rutina. Tengo 43 años y vivo con mis padres. No hago nada en casa. Paso mis días en mi sofá. Duerme en mi sofá. Perdió mis sentimientos. Lo único que me hace sentir mejor es una gran dosis de metadona. Me dan 7 dosis de 70 mg y tomo 4 el mismo día y después de 3-4 días tomo las otras 3 dosis. Me siento bien 2-3 días a la semana. Bueno, no sé por qué terminé de contar mi historial de drogas.
Ayer trabajé de noche y me tomó un poco
un poco de velocidad llegué a casa y tomé una línea de mi pasta de anfetamina. Me acosté en mi sofá y comencé a leer bluelight.org. es realmente el mejor foro de reducción de daños con diferencia.
Discúlpame por mi inglés. Ahora tomo 210 mg de metadona, 1 mg de xanax y continúa leyendo bluelight.org. Siento el calor de la metadona y estoy esperando que xanax haga su trabajo. Tengo que dormir un poco porque estoy trabajando esta noche. No te preocupes tengo velocidad.jajaja

LOVE TO EVERYONE
 
te entiendo hermano, fuerza.
ps. si cada vez traduces tu texto en ingles con google translate y lo copias aqui todos pueden leherlo. es mejor.
 
How many years have you been on them? You sound like you're in the honeymoon phase.

Sure they make u feel happy, they are drugs, but it's a dead end and you'll hit a brick wall and all you'll know is withdrawal and misery. I find myself angry, hating others etc. When I get clean off opioids I feel happy again and these things disappear. There's even something commonly known as "opiate rage"...this is what I'm referring too.

Also destroyed my libido. I barley have sex in my marriage any more....this effect did take several years to manifest though.
 
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ChemicallyEnhanced said:
I do know that both opioids and amphetamines have success rates of over 90% in treating depression (which blows any anti-depressant out of the water)
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I have to strongly disagree. Yes powerful recreational drugs make a person happy when they are high. When you're 10 or 20 years into an addiction you'll find these drugs just made you worse and it will be very difficult to ever be happy again without taking them (and you'll even be miserable taking them because they don't work like they used to).
 
LucidSDreamr said:
I have to strongly disagree. Yes powerful recreational drugs make a person happy when they are high. When you're 10 or 20 years into an addiction you'll find these drugs just made you worse and it will be very difficult to ever be happy again without taking them (and you'll even be miserable taking them because they don't work like they used to).
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No, you misunderstood me completely there. I wasn't talking recreational use, I was talking about (mostly referring to amphetamine sulphate here) when prescribed or taking in low, controlled doses. I'm also saying exactly your point: they aren't USED for treating depression because of the side effects, addiction etc.
But when used in the past in trials and in small, controlled doses, they had extremely high success rates (in the short term).
 
My GP was ok prescribing me low dose oxycodone knowing I was using it to help my anxiety and depression. We can't get repeats (unless they do some serious paperwork) so I had to go back every month, same as benzos.


I'm keen to try MDMA for anxiety/depression/C-PTSD. SSRIs do nothing except give me head zaps when I don't take them.
 
AbbeyLee said:
My GP was ok prescribing me low dose oxycodone knowing I was using it to help my anxiety and depression. We can't get repeats (unless they do some serious paperwork) so I had to go back every month, same as benzos.


I'm keen to try MDMA for anxiety/depression/C-PTSD. SSRIs do nothing except give me head zaps when I don't take them.
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Your GP sounds amazing. You're very lucky.

I think with SSRIs/SNRIs, they work well for organic depression (where it is caused by a brain chemical imbalance) but not very well for situational/reactive depression (where it is caused thing happening - or that happened - in your life).
 
LucidSDreamr said:
How many years have you been on them? You sound like you're in the honeymoon phase.

Sure they make u feel happy, they are drugs, but it's a dead end and you'll hit a brick wall and all you'll know is withdrawal and misery. I find myself angry, hating others etc. When I get clean off opioids I feel happy again and these things disappear. There's even something commonly known as "opiate rage"...this is what I'm referring too.

Also destroyed my libido. I barley have sex in my marriage any more.
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been using them since dec. 21, it has been ups and downs but above all opioids (heroin and tramadol) helped the nerve pain when it was unbearable, now when there is no heroin I experience some withdrawals not strong though since I don't inject, I don't know...I plan to keep on using heroin for a few more months, honestly one of the best things I came across in my life and then I'll see, as for the libido well you got a wife that's totally another issue than not having her like me, so libido down is very good for me, another " need" I dispose of.

Also they help me be less "angry", I did somewhat much in life, traveled, experienced, learnt and so on but haven't met a second half to create something that I can live for so I got pretty much tired of life, have no goal left, I say it sincerely.
 
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ChemicallyEnhanced said:
Your GP sounds amazing. You're very lucky.

I think with SSRIs/SNRIs, they work well for organic depression (where it is caused by a brain chemical imbalance) but not very well for situational/reactive depression (where it is caused thing happening - or that happened - in your life).
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Well, I haven't been able to get them for a few years now because of government crackdowns on GPs. I'm lucky to even get diazepam and had to change clinics (to a private one) *and* find a doctor there who is "benzo friendly".

I gave up trying to get into a Psychiatrist (who have less restrictions) and read an article recently about someone who had to wait a YEAR to get in. Then it costs a small fortune.

In 1993 when I first had debilitating anxiety I was able to see a psychiatrist every week for 50 mins, for as long as I liked, for free 😐

Yeah, my depression is very much secondary to the anxiety. Doctors insist I be on SSRIs though. I'm actually selling my house (which I've been in for 10+ years) because the population growth in Melb has made my area unbearable. Hopefully some peace and quiet will help.
 
AbbeyLee said:
Hopefully some peace and quiet will help.
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It defenitely does and a lot, I unfortunately live in a terribly caothic area and it hurts me so much.

Seriously dreaming about moving to somewhere in SE asia, live with bare minimum, good h and that's it.
 
ISRS/ISRN NO FUNCIONAN PARA MI DEPRESIÓN. PROBÉ DE TODOS LOS TIPOS Y NO FUNCIONA. LO ÚNICO QUE FUNCIONA SON LOS OPIÁCEOS. TOMO METADONA DESDE 2017 Y TENGO QUE DECIR QUE NECESITO UNA DOSIS MAS ALTA. ME DAN 7 BOTELLAS CADA SEMANA. PERO COMO DIJE ANTES TOMO 4 AL MISMO TIEMPO ESPERO 4 DIAS Y TOMO LAS OTRAS 3 BOTELLAS JUNTAS. AHORA ME DOY CUENTA QUE ESTO NO FUNCIONA. ESTOY PREOCUPADO POR MI SITUACIÓN. ESTA SEMANA PROBÉ METADONA CON PREGABALINA Y ME MANDA A LA LUNA. 24H KNOCK OUT. PROBÉ CON PASTA DE ANFETAMINA Y ME DA UN POCO DE EUFORIA PERO NO ENERGÍA.
DESCANSO EN MI SOFÁ TODO EL DÍA.
ANYBODY COULD HELP ME?
 
kongoman said:
ISRS/ISRN NO FUNCIONAN PARA MI DEPRESIÓN. PROBÉ DE TODOS LOS TIPOS Y NO FUNCIONA. LO ÚNICO QUE FUNCIONA SON LOS OPIÁCEOS. TOMO METADONA DESDE 2017 Y TENGO QUE DECIR QUE NECESITO UNA DOSIS MAS ALTA. ME DAN 7 BOTELLAS CADA SEMANA. PERO COMO DIJE ANTES TOMO 4 AL MISMO TIEMPO ESPERO 4 DIAS Y TOMO LAS OTRAS 3 BOTELLAS JUNTAS. AHORA ME DOY CUENTA QUE ESTO NO FUNCIONA. ESTOY PREOCUPADO POR MI SITUACIÓN. ESTA SEMANA PROBÉ METADONA CON PREGABALINA Y ME MANDA A LA LUNA. 24H KNOCK OUT. PROBÉ CON PASTA DE ANFETAMINA Y ME DA UN POCO DE EUFORIA PERO NO ENERGÍA.
DESCANSO EN MI SOFÁ TODO EL DÍA.
ANYBODY COULD HELP ME?
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Claro yo puedo aiudo...But what help u wanna.U say u are in methadone program.theuy give u good dose and for days....snri don't work for y.possible.Never used amphetamine ,when was in Spain.theres more about coke..Think to mixed pregab with methadone&nodding a little bit.Does this type of maintance don't sattisfied u?U methadone programs aren't suit for somebody.You could replace it with bupre for example...or start tapperinf ur usage till 10mg daily&jump of... And it's bad to have double addiction...to sedatives along with painkiller....so ur situation can solve only u.If u specified somwthing that bothers u tell
 
wirkdy said:
been using them since dec. 21, it has been ups and downs but above all opioids (heroin and tramadol) helped the nerve pain when it was unbearable, now when there is no heroin I experience some withdrawals not strong though since I don't inject, I don't know...I plan to keep on using heroin for a few more months, honestly one of the best things I came across in my life and then I'll see, as for the libido well you got a wife that's totally another issue than not having her like me, so libido down is very good for me, another " need" I dispose of.

Also they help me be less "angry", I did somewhat much in life, traveled, experienced, learnt and so on but haven't met a second half to create something that I can live for so I got pretty much tired of life, have no goal left, I say it sincerely.
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Well you're talking about treating chronic pain with them which is far more miserable than being dependent on opioids....that's a whole different thing than treating depression or anxiety wjrh them. It's also what they are medically intended for so yea, in that case opioid dependency vs chronic pain...opioid dependency is the lesser of two evils.

And you are still very much in the honeymoon stage if it's been less than a year you've been on them
 
kongoman said:
PERO NO ENERGÍA.
DESCANSO EN MI SOFÁ TODO EL DÍA.
ANYBODY COULD HELP ME?
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Substances can only be effective to a certain degree, if you don't shake yourself strongly and tell yourself to really start moving it won't ever get better.
For example today I started doing physical exercises again, run, did squats, push ups, stretching, seen few people at the sport field, came home, ate, shaved head and beard and showered. I feel very good also mentally and I'm short of h also!
YOU HAVE TO MOVE YOURSELF!
 
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wirkdy said:
Las sustancias solo pueden ser efectivas hasta cierto punto, si no te sacudes con fuerza y te dices a ti mismo que realmente comiences a moverte, nunca mejorará.
Por ejemplo, hoy comencé a hacer ejercicios físicos nuevamente, corrí, hice sentadillas, flexiones, estiramientos, vi poca gente en el campo de deportes, llegué a casa, comí, me afeité la cabeza y la barba y me duché. ¡Me siento muy bien también mentalmente y estoy corto de h también!
¡TIENES QUE MOVERTE TU MISMO!
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Gracias por tu respuesta. yo se lo que tengo que hacer pero el problema es que no lo hago. El ejercicio es lo mejor que puedo hacer. Tengo que levantarme del sofá y salir a la calle. Hay muchas cosas que hacer.
Tengo un taller de joyería en casa y no trabajo en él. Yo tengo una bici y nunca la pruebo.
Esta semana voy al médico y voy a cambiar mi medicación. Otra cosa es que me tome la metadona de forma incorrecta.

PEACE AND LOVE
 
AbbeyLee said:
My GP was ok prescribing me low dose oxycodone knowing I was using it to help my anxiety and depression. We can't get repeats (unless they do some serious paperwork) so I had to go back every month, same as benzos.


I'm keen to try MDMA for anxiety/depression/C-PTSD. SSRIs do nothing except give me head zaps when I don't take them.
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What country are you in that doesn't allow benzo refills? That's pretty shitty and overkill.

Also you don't have to actually see them every month for opiates...but they make money off of you going in monthly so they make you do it.

At least in CA the law is every 3 months the patient must see the doctor...but the doctor must send in a new prescription every month.

Again most doctors make you come see them every month for opioids for $ and out of extreme fear of the DEA persecuting them. But my doctor explained the law to me and it doesn't require a monthly examination.

MDMA for depression sounds like a bad idea. The "revelations" are fleeting and disappear with the highand the drug leaves you far more depressed in the end. It is a very harsh drug on the CNS. Just check out all the long term comedown stories in the MDMA subforum....it is a very harsh methamphetamine on the brain.
 
I'd imagine that the treatment program involving MDMA would probably follow along the lines of others which use psychedelics to treat mental pain, so like dosing once every few months/6 months or something like that. In other words, irregular enough so that there probably isn't much of a risk regarding any real damage from MDMA.

I haven't looked into it at all (so I'm kind of talking out my butt right now lol) but I know that MDMA has shown some promise in treating certain mental illnesses, in conjunction with stuff like therapy etc.
 
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