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Opiates Suck... This is Tough

That's so fucking fantastic man keep it up! Seriously you are doing so amazingly well right now. Keep doing the next right thing and putting your best foot forward. :)
 
Keep it up man. You're past the point of no return, I fucking know it.

Stay strong brotha!
 
Finally hit my 30 day mark! I've been randomly drug tested twice and passed, not surprising to me as I've been kicking ass at sobriety so far.

My mom and I had a falling out a couple days ago. She was for some reason convinced I had relapsed and really came at me hard with accusations. She went as far as to tell my gf to kick me out of the house... now my dad wants to take over all of my finances for the forseeable future.

Lastly, I've felt smothered at home. If I want time away, a few hours tops, from my Gfs kids and the stress and boredom of the household, my gf automatically assumes I'm out doing something wrong and communicates to my parents that I left to go watch football or play video games with a friend. Then I get questioned about it from them.

I'm doing the things I should be doing to continue my sobriety, but everyone around me seems to think I'm full of shit. My gf thinks she's not good enough. My family doesn't understand addiction.

I'm just frustrated with all the shit going on around me and I hate feeling like I'm not trustworthy enough to do simple things I'm capable of doing.

I don't know what to do. But, hey, 30 days are down. Thing is I did all of it on my own, so why is everyone else in my life so damn doubtful? I don't think it's conducive to my continued recovery

Thoughts?

TTGB
 
It's a sad fact that addiction is a grievously misunderstood demon. The same people that care about you simply don't understand how to treat someone that they believe has betrayed their trust, through no true fault of the individual who has done the so called "betrayal" of becoming addicted to a substance they had no intention of abusing.

Just keep doing what you're doing, and take a firm stance that you're sick of their bullshit. Tell them straight up that this isn't a discussion, that you're doing your absolute best to quit, that you're doing a good job, and that their negativity and accusations do nothing more than to bring you down. That their judgemental and accusative viewpoints are toxic to you as an individual, and that if they truly love and wish the best for you, that they will stop it. And if they keep it up, I'd say cut them off for a while and just stay strong as an individual striving for sobriety.

Do the same with your girlfriend. You tell her the truth point blank, and you make sure to keep telling her the truth regardless of what happens in the future. A loving relationship is built on trust, and you have to be sure that your girlfriend is the kind of individual capable of that trust, not one who will doubt your every move and question your motivations and objectives in life. It's completely normal to feel smothered and bored in a relationship sometimes, not even mentioning the fact that you're going through one of the most difficult things a human being is capable of experiencing. If you love and know your girl, I'm positive she will be understanding enough to give you some room to be yourself.

Keep up the good work my friend. I'm ecstatic that you made it to the 30 day mark, and that you're staying strong. Remember that at the end of the day, you're doing this for you, not for the benefit of others.

I'm here for you if you need it man. Don't let the negativity of others obstruct your ability to be the best goddamn human being you are capable of being.
 
We're in very similar situations TTGB, besides the fact that I haven't been good. No one to blame but myself, but god it'd be nice if our loved ones at least understood. Keep it up homie, I'm rooting for you.
 
I just caught up on this thread, and I've got to say, TTGB, you are the man.

I especially sympathize with how some people, especially your parents, have wounded your ego with undeserved blame. I know that it makes recovery all the more challenging, but you are strong for it. The reward is not just getting past withdrawal, it's in every minute you live clean, strong, sharp -- sober. I'm sending you mad props from Midwest USA, bro. Keep on fighting.

Some days feel like the last stretch of a marathon: you may wanna give up and start walking to the finish line. But you don't HAVE to. And we're all cheering on the sidelines, we know what it's like, we appreciate your strength and recognize each day as the victory it is.
 
You guys are awesome. Thank you for your support and kind words of advice. I'm on Day 36, can't believe how well I've done. PAWS can really be a bitch but it's not bad enough to even give me urges. I recognize it has PAWS and move on.

Proud of how far I've come and how much better things have gotten and will continue to get.

Thanks for the Midwest love. Much love from south Carolina my friend! See everyone soon and remember if you're reading this, if I can do it so can you. Never give up on your goals or dreams.

With love and support TTGB.
 
^ Ditto!!!

You're doing so fantastic right now, seriously!! You are obviously very committed to this and I commend you for that. It's one of the most difficult things you will ever have to do, so take some comfort in knowing that if you stick with this, you can get through anything. :)
 
I finally got my first real taste of PAWS over the last couple of days. It was easy to recognize and I knew it would come so I was at least a little prepared. I made it out on the other side and never once thought to relapse. Altho I couldn't sleep my body ached and I felt like I was going through withdrawal all over again I just kept strong and steady. I took breaks at work and went to bed early. I love yall and hope everyone is doing well. 53 days today :)
 
TryingToGetBetter said:
I finally got my first real taste of PAWS over the last couple of days. It was easy to recognize and I knew it would come so I was at least a little prepared. I made it out on the other side and never once thought to relapse. Altho I couldn't sleep my body ached and I felt like I was going through withdrawal all over again I just kept strong and steady. I took breaks at work and went to bed early. I love yall and hope everyone is doing well. 53 days today :)
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Yeah PAWS is rough but it gets better. Just keep reminding yourself that everyday things will get easier and one day, it's going to end. 53 days is awesome. That's a huge achievement. You're at the end of the tunnel, man. Keep going.
 
7 and a half months in woohoo! So ive had my bouts with paws several times and am having crazy pains in my back right nos now. The best feeling is that I know why I'm hurting but the thought of pills don't cross my mind. It's been so much easier this time for me to leave it behind me. I've been in my relationship a year and have the best 3 boys ever... my life has changed completely in such a short amount of time and this is the happiest I've felt in a long time. I know I'm not done with my fight but I am confident in myself and my ability to say no. I don't surround myself with anyone associated to pills but that doesn't mean I haven't been tested by ppl along the way. Keep pushing folks and thanks to everyone for their support.
 
I just read your whole thread wow you have done an amazing job!!!! So inspirational!!!! This thread will certainly encourage others :)
 
I hope it can be an inspiration to those who need it. I'll try to get back on the boards more actively. I've come a long way, I have a long way to go, but damn is this the great feeling ever! :)
 
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