chaying1313
Greenlighter
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- Feb 21, 2011
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Hello Everyone,
THis is my first post, ill try to keep it quick. I was addicted to opiates for about a year and was clean for 5 months after (with the helps of subs for 3 of those). Eventually i relapsed and started taking them occasionally.. and you know how the story goes from there.
The difference here is the first time i was addicted to oxys I will admit i was fucking up, losing friends and family and just generally only caring about geting that next pill.
After this relapse I felt almost like i was improving my life on these pills by taking them. I got a great job while taking them, I was always excited to wake up and go to work, Id work diligently at work, Id workout, and of course I'd have a great time going out with friends.
I recently realized it was time to stop doing this again cause of my last expierence. However I can help but think that i was a much better/more productive/likeable person on opiates. Now that I have decided to quit (with help of subs) i hate wakig up, going to work, and interacting with people. Is it possible i could live a better life on opiates, cause thats how i feel right now and may relapse for a 3rd time, cause i honestly think im a better person on them.
Just looking for anyone that aggrees/disagrees with me on this
Thanks for reading
THis is my first post, ill try to keep it quick. I was addicted to opiates for about a year and was clean for 5 months after (with the helps of subs for 3 of those). Eventually i relapsed and started taking them occasionally.. and you know how the story goes from there.
The difference here is the first time i was addicted to oxys I will admit i was fucking up, losing friends and family and just generally only caring about geting that next pill.
After this relapse I felt almost like i was improving my life on these pills by taking them. I got a great job while taking them, I was always excited to wake up and go to work, Id work diligently at work, Id workout, and of course I'd have a great time going out with friends.
I recently realized it was time to stop doing this again cause of my last expierence. However I can help but think that i was a much better/more productive/likeable person on opiates. Now that I have decided to quit (with help of subs) i hate wakig up, going to work, and interacting with people. Is it possible i could live a better life on opiates, cause thats how i feel right now and may relapse for a 3rd time, cause i honestly think im a better person on them.
Just looking for anyone that aggrees/disagrees with me on this
Thanks for reading