Well done to you. I'm sure it was not easy.
Now, I admit I don't 'get' meth but H understand. Was offered some last summer but turned it down. If I take something, a horrible depression takes hold, stronger than the drugs.
But it's never say never. my favourite poet John Cooper Clarke spend almost 20 years using 2-3g of H a day but he quit and he is BACK.
His advice is don't try it, even once...
BUT he did reveal that when he reaches 80 (5 years time) he fully expects to spend some of his income in getting a tame doctor to provide him with dry amps of diamorphine (medical heroin). He's clear that he owns his own house, he has money in the bank to look after wife and daughter and if at 80 he still want's it, he want's the option.
But once again - well done to YOU, good sir.