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Bluelight Crew
Guest blog written by my lovely wife
So....as I sit here and sweat it out for a couple more hours, I take the time to mourn.. here's to the ones that have gone before me. The lucky ones, the ones who are remembered through rose colored lenses. This post is for them, and although I didn't physically die...there are still the many versions of myself I haphazardly give day in and day out to this "miracle" drug..but you want to know the truth? They knew what they were doing, they willingly went to their graves. Ive seen some of the biggest baddest strongest of individuals give themselves over to the pine box, to reckless behaviors. To the needle in their arms. How i see it? They were the lucky ones. The rest of us? The poor souls who are still around sitting in those same parking lots by the dealers, chasing that same dragon? We are the ones who suffer mercilessly..Who needs to physically die when every day you die? you give all the could have been, would have been versions of yourself to just put a little more in the spoon. Too just feel normal for a few more hours
So....as I sit here and sweat it out for a couple more hours, I take the time to mourn.. here's to the ones that have gone before me. The lucky ones, the ones who are remembered through rose colored lenses. This post is for them, and although I didn't physically die...there are still the many versions of myself I haphazardly give day in and day out to this "miracle" drug..but you want to know the truth? They knew what they were doing, they willingly went to their graves. Ive seen some of the biggest baddest strongest of individuals give themselves over to the pine box, to reckless behaviors. To the needle in their arms. How i see it? They were the lucky ones. The rest of us? The poor souls who are still around sitting in those same parking lots by the dealers, chasing that same dragon? We are the ones who suffer mercilessly..Who needs to physically die when every day you die? you give all the could have been, would have been versions of yourself to just put a little more in the spoon. Too just feel normal for a few more hours
