Ok. So it has come to this.

[Thou]

I'm facing prison. Possibly a long time.

The whole thing's a clusterfuck of a misunderstanding, but regardless, I can't afford proper representation.

The Public Defender strikes me as one with a double digit IQ and a triple digit income, he's no help.

I send him long, concise, well thought out questions which he ignores.

I'm being charged with aggravated harassment in New York state. I wrote some cryptic, vague and poetic words to a cunt that fucked me over. She took it as a threat. I should have cut my losses. I should have known better. Oh well.

He wants to know if I want a jury trial. He's a wimp full of fear. If anything this is a freedom of speech issue. If there was no intent to cause alarm, and there certainly wasn't, they shouldn't be allowed to take hearsay and conjecture and threaten my fucking freedom. It's an outrage, but I"m not surprised. This rotten planet profits from the pain, suffering, misery, and bondage of its human inhabitants.


Some get rich, others eat shit and die.

He Who Goes to Law Takes a Wolf by the Ears

Here's the charge:

Section 240.30 Aggravated harassment in the second degree.

A person is guilty of aggravated harassment in the second degree when, with intent to harass, annoy, threaten or alarm another person, he or she:

1. Either (a) communicates with a person, anonymously or otherwise by telephone, or by telegraph, mail or any other form of written communication, in a manner likely to cause annoyance or alarm; or (b) causes a communication to be initiated by mechanical or electronic means or otherwise, with a person, anonymously or otherwise, by telephone, or by telegraph, mail or any other form of written communication, in a manner likely to cause annoyance or alarm; or

2. Makes a telephone call, whether or not a conversation ensues, with no purpose of legitimate communication; or

3. Strikes, shoves, kicks, or otherwise subjects another person to physical contact, or attempts or threatens to do the same because of a belief or perception regarding such person's race, color, national origin, ancestry, gender, religion, religious practice, age, disability or sexual orientation, regardless of whether the belief or perception is correct; or

4. Commits the crime of harassment in the first degree and has previously been convicted of the crime of harassment in the first degree as defined by section 240.25 of this article within the preceding ten years.

Aggravated harassment in the second degree is a class A misdemeanor.

Have you ever such vague nonsense in your life?

Regardless. They're profiting from my slip-up and have good reason to.

There are approximately 2 million inmates in state, federal and private prisons throughout the country. According to California Prison Focus, "no other society in human history has imprisoned so many of its own citizens." The figures show that the United States has locked up more people than any other country: a half million more than China, which has a population five times greater than the U.S. Statistics reveal that the United States holds 25% of the world's prison population, but only 5% of the world's people. From less than 300,000 inmates in 1972, the jail population grew to 2 million by the year 2000. In 1990 it was one million. Ten years ago there were only five private prisons in the country, with a population of 2,000 inmates; now, there are 100, with 62,000 inmates. It is expected that by the coming decade, the number will hit 360,000, according to reports.

What has happened over the last 10 years? Why are there so many prisoners?

"The private contracting of prisoners for work fosters incentives to lock people up. Prisons depend on this income. Corporate stockholders who make money off prisoners' work lobby for longer sentences, in order to expand their workforce. The system feeds itself," says a study by the Progressive Labor Party, which accuses the prison industry of being "an imitation of Nazi Germany with respect to forced slave labor and concentration camps."

I'm a very pessimistic man, and have come to accept that the worst case scenario isn't a mere possibility but a likelihood.

I feel stronger than I've ever felt in my life. Maybe it's a Martyr complex. I don't know. Maybe it's the sobriety, the fasting, the introspective thought that's gone into realizing just how shit the planet is and how slothful I've been in my activism.

I just wish I had the money to fight these assholes properly and "beat them to death with their own rules," as a wiser man than me has once said.

Art is long and life is short and success is very far off.

One day I'll have the money to make these cocksucker pay for what they've done. But for now I can only be true to myself and to those that treat me decently.

That's todays word. Decency. When was the last time you've seen it? It's certainly no longer a commonplace staple in today's god-fearing, down-trodden, valueless culturally bankrupt nightmare.

I'll have to look for it when my worries are gone.

P.S.

Thanks for listening. I really do love and respect my freinds here, far more than I've respected anyone I've ever met in the "real world." This planets full of nitwits and assholes. Bluelight hase over 100,000 members. That's what, .02 percent of the world population. You'd think I'd feel more alone, but I don't. I'm glad I have that .02 percent. It's all that keeps me hanging on and fighting this evil shit I deal with everyday.

I don't know why I'm posting this here, I suppose I'm just lonely. I know it's suited for more of a blog post, but I still would like anyones response, advice, wisdom, camaraderie, or whatever may be offered. Selah.

 

[aerie]

I agree with a lot of what you wrote. But, calling someone a 'cunt' is not the way to start out asking for help. I imagine that attitude is a large part of what got you into this sort of trouble in the first damn place.

And no doubt the reason you're 'lonely'.

Side note: When my court appointed attorney showed up to court with his shirttail hanging out of his open fly....I knew I was fucked.

 

[panic in paradise]

i thought that in some NA states - you can get a new attorney if you feel, and can explain or show why you feel you are being misrepresented - this means different things though if it happens; one of course is the trial starts over - this is only an option once or twice i believe.

 

[theartofwar]

i thought that in some NA states - you can get a new attorney if you feel, and can explain or show why you feel you are being misrepresented - this means different things though if it happens; one of course is the trial starts over - this is only an option once or twice i believe.

took the words out of my mouth - also if you are to late and say the trial lands you doing a bid , look at filing an appeal under the same reasoning. Appeals court can be better depending on your case , in yours , sounds like trial ada is gonna go to town on the heart strings of jurors. Fact / reason could easily be smushed into emotional games. Good luck man.

 

[Thou]

I agree with a lot of what you wrote. But, calling someone a 'cunt' is not the way to start out asking for help. I imagine that attitude is a large part of what got you into this sort of trouble in the first damn place.

And no doubt the reason you're 'lonely'.

Side note: When my court appointed attorney showed up to court with his shirttail hanging out of his open fly....I knew I was fucked.

Are you fucking serious dude?


Do you have any idea where you are? This is the dark side.

No doubt you were fucked. You were fucked straight out of the womb is what you were. You're mother cursed you with a genome and DNA set rife with callous stupidity and a serious deficiency in tact and good manners.

Read the BLUA and the Darkside guidelines. Ugh.

I posted this in the lounge and they were ten times nicer than anything you've burdened me with. That says a lot about your personality, and maybe you should think before you speak.


I actually never used the word 'cunt.' It was an exaggeration to make a point. I'm really resisting the urge to be nastier and I know better, and I'm ashamed, but people like you really bring out the worse in me.

It's people like you who give Dobermans bad names.



Thanks for the advice everybody. This lawyer claimed he needed to get "more information." He seems clueless but for now I'll give him the benefit of the doubt, because I have time. I'm going to the library tomorrow and going to spend 9 hours reading about the law.

Any practicing or student lawyers please contact me. I know of one and I may contact her, but only if need be. I hate to be a burden.

Thanks guys.

 

[Swerlz]

Damn scott.. this makes me

I you brother and I hope this goes a different way.. You're a brilliant soul and deserve nothing but the best in life. Prison is no place for a kind person like you..

btw, that bitch sucks for all this

 

[aerie]

I deserved that.

...Do you have any idea where you are? This is the dark side.

No doubt you were fucked. You were fucked straight out of the womb is what you were. You're mother cursed you with a genome and DNA set rife with callous stupidity and a serious deficiency in tact and good manners.

Read the BLUA and the Darkside guidelines. Ugh...

My apologies; you're right dude, my comments were fucked up. I'm not normally such an anal retentive, uppity bitch - truthfully I'm the opposite of that. I'm not sure where my reactionary bullshit came from today and I'm sorry you got the brunt of it. I'm a noob here, but that's no excuse.

Again, I'm sorry for the kneejerk. I know better. But, it's always a good reality check for me when I get bitch-slapped for doing something thoughtless & stupid; so for that, I thank you.

I hope things work out for you.

 

[Thou]

Thank you. Sorry I rebuked with such venom. Old habits die hard.

Thanks guys, we'll see.

Like I mentioned I'm a pessimist and have no faith in justice or the courts. For this reason I've already came to terms with a year jail sentence. That's the maximum.

I've no prior charges and I think I have a decent case if the jurors are decent. I have no faith in people, and the judge is a prick so it's a hard decision.

I pled my case to the judge and by my words and demeanor alone he reduced my bail to 500 instead of 1000. This gives me faith in my words and my testimony.

I'm going to have to load up on a lot of Wild Turkey to woo these assholes. Like I said I'm going to the library tomorrow to read up on the law, which has given me trouble recently. I'm hoping not to be brought within the system, but we'll see,

Funny thing is I'd gladly take a year in jail over the record it denotes, just so I could get a JOB afterward.

I wasn't happy working as a Nurse Aide in a nursing home, but at least I could make a living that way. I've lost a job over this (no-call no show) and if I'm convicted I'm gauranteed never to work in that industry again. It's absurd.

I hope this bitch has kids and dies with them in a carfire. Is karma real? I hope so. I was never anything but sweet and giving and loving to this naive little sot. There's now in place a restraining order against me. I find this laughable but I guess these laws are in place for a reasonn.

I've never hurt a woman. I was stabbed in the back with a surgical scalpel, beaten, bloodied, and abused by a former girlfriend. At no point did I either: press charges, or return in kind. At no point did I find it an option to physically fight back. It's not who I am.

That's why this is so absurd. It goes against everything I stand for.

I could see being nabbed for chemicals, but this? I didn't see it coming.

 

[the necropolitan]

Unfortunately the way most state's legal systems are set up, you can get nailed even for the vaguest bullshit. My friend is just now completing his 2 year probation for a DV charge from sending a vaguely poetic (but constituted as threatening) text message to a lady that reported it to the cops. I don't really think you'll be doing time if you don't have a felony, but I do think they'll probably offer you a plea of probation.

I'd take it. It sucks having things on your record, but it beats prison/jail.

 

[TheLostBoys]

Good luck with your ordeal bro, sometimes life seems so unfair & this is one of those times it seems. Stay positive & work along with your lawyer & hopefully everything works out for you.

 

[DeLee]

I'm facing prison. Possibly a long time.

Hey man, I don't think so..
I am not really that up to date with your countrys laws but wherever you are from -
Aggravated harassment -
will not lend you in prison, at least not "for a long time".

Maybe you should work on your temper before you actually happen to do something that comes with a heafty prison sentence.

 

[Thou]

I don't have a temper.

I got drunk and said a few things.

If anything I should work on my impulsivity. If that's what you meant, I agree with you.

If you knew me in real life you'd know that I'm very timid and kind and polite. I can be very brash online, but that's my writing. It has nothing to do with real interpersonal relations.

This woman the night before broke bottles, a television, and a computer monitor. I didn't get angry at the time, but became impulsive the next day in my messages. I hardly see this as me having a "temper," but to each his own.

The penalty is up to a year in jail and 1000 dollar fine.

It's a class A misdemeanor in NY state. It will be very hard for me to find a job with this on my record, and I've already lost my position as a Nurse Aide because of my incarceration. Healthcare industry is very picky about this shit.

 

[muvolution]

I highly doubt that you will get anything but probation if you take a plea. Even if yo go to trial and lose, i doubt that they will hit you with more than a fine/ court fees/ and a little more probation. maybe 1-2 years at the worst.
I have been around lawyers and the law all my life - I recommend that you go to the PD and try to talk to a senior defender about picking up your case. If you do talk to anyone about this...

I would highly recommend that you change your attitude. It will help when you interact with people during this whole ordeal in a very subtle but powerful way. As I'm sure you know, people only hear a small percentage of what you are saying, most of communication is about body language and physical cues, and if you stay angry (I know, the system fucking sucks, it's totally twisted and corrupted, everyone lies about everything, and it basically a circus) you will telegraph those feelings in your interactions with the DA/ Judge/ your attorney/ The Jury.
You gotta do this, if only to help yourself. Be positive. Focus on the positive things that you can do if you are not convicted. Talk about your skills, your family, your wife, girlfriend, whatever, and make yourself as human as possible to these people.
If you go in with the same attitude as your original post was written in, no matter how justified it is, it will not garner you sympathy, and people are likely to think you feel above them which will make it easier for the judge to be hard on you, and for the jury to hand down a harsher sentence.

Additionally, as far as a defense goes - are you an artist? Do you write alot/ and or professionally. I think framing this as an issue of art or self expression that was not directed specifically at her might be a really successful defense if the facts are kind to it. I don't know the details though.

I wish you the best of luck.

 

[n3ophy7e]

Holy shit man, this is awful news
I sincerely hope that you can get out of this terrible mix-up without any jail time. Sending all my luck and good vibes your way Keep us updated yeah? *hugs*

 

[Thou]

Hahaha yeah I deserved that.

Like I said, with topics like these concerning justice etc I dig using illustrative and emotionally charged language.

I'm very quaint and kind in real life. A real gentleman. Ask any BLer's I've met, I'm very kind and well-spoke.

Yes I'm a writer. I was thinking that the only thing I'm gulity of is poorly thought out material and some light plagierism.


Here's my orignal email to the PD:

Mr. Blahblahblah-



I could potentially see where this could have been misconstrued to constitute a threat, but frankly the intent was not there. I'm not a violent person nor have I ever been, especially in matters concerning women. I clearly showed this by keeping a calm and level head when this person became violent in my home just the night before the incident.



The transcript of the conversation was essentially a mishmash of vague and and emotionally charged language, some of it citing literary works.



The 200 dollar remark was in reference to damage that she caused in my apartment the night before, breaking an expensive computer monitor, causing an irate scene, breaking bottles etc. There was a witness to this particular incident and if need be I'll contact him and get a statement, if we'll be needing to portray a character profile of the accuser.



Also, the message was sent via an Internet client, namely Skype. I don't see how it can be traced back to me without some kind of subpoena from that particular international company. I'm not sure whether this is pertinent or not. Nonetheless I'm sure she may have saved the original conversation, but I have no idea. She came to my house 3 days after I got out of prison, with a state trooper, collected her things (I had them boxed up and ready for her) and left without incident. I didn't get the badge number although in retrospect it may have been wise to do so. I have an anxiety problem and frankly was terrified at the sight of these people on my doorstep. Communication has not been made whatsoever since the incident, and I fully intend to keep it that way. Like I mentioned I'm currently staying hundreds of miles away on Long Island New York, and intend to move in with my sister in Lawrence Kansas to find employment there. I cannot do that until this is resolved, and I'd like to seek a diversion of some sort.



Please contact me concerning any updates or progress that you've made. Let it be known I misplaced the original documentation, I don't know whether that matters or not. I really do appreciate your help in these trying times.



Sincerely,

 

[Captain.Heroin]

Can't you press charges against her for what she did to you?

I think it's worth it if she's going to get pissy over something you merely wrote to her...

 

[Thou]

I think it's too late.

Maybe I can file a police report, we'll see.

Like I said I'm still learning about this nonsense. I had only prepared myself for drug charges, and of course being aware of such things, never got caught.

"In order to live outside the law, one must be honest."

Bob Dylan.

Indeed.

 

[**hAyzzZZ**]

Wow. As a Law student in Australia, U.S law baffles me.

That is fucked up. I hope you are able to get some decent representation dude.

 

[Captain.Heroin]

I think it's too late.

Maybe I can file a police report, we'll see.

Please do; even if it doesn't help you out with the current legal battle you are in, I don't think anyone deserves to stab someone in the back with scalpel (for seemingly no justifiable reason whatsoever) and get away with it.

I hope that you get through this unscathed but nonetheless, we will all still be here a year or two or longer down the road - so never give up hope that your life is still worth living.

 

[Thou]

Oh that was like 4 years ago.


It's in my best interests not to think about that woman ever again. I thought you meant the current girl who destroyed personal property.


But yeah, if ever I'm physically asaulted again, first thing I'll do is call the coppers.