..yeah forgot to mention those mushrooms yeterday..got a bit of a buzz off them yesterday but defo not what you'd expect...i guess i should have taken the entire contents in one shot, i still have another sealed package of 'mexicana truffles' and also of 'dragon truffles' those i shall keep sealed until next week...next week i shall also extract some more mimosa and smoke it with this 'legal weed' as its good for nothing by itself, shame as it has the right smell...still bunched up like it is its perfect to scrape around the extraction jars when i cipher the colmans out from the crystals....still not heard anything off dad as to whether he's managed to get me anything to post over ...hey, my own father trying to buy me drugs....and no, he is no ex-hippy...the extent of his drug taking was a couple of pulls on a spliff in his 20s with his travelling work buddies, he has no contacts, he's never seen a drug dealer (not knowingly anyway...theoretically i was once a drug dealer in that i used to sell my own personal bulk purchase of speed so i could also buy crack)....
.....bought some powder off an online 'headshop' pile of shit...i might as well snort modafinil and phenibut together (thats one to try tomorrow)
if there is anyone reading this thinking all i need is to stop thinking about drugs and live a normal healthy life, well i tried that for 3 years and have ended up in hell....so no...that does not work for me and i'm on the brink of suicide here, yes i am that fucking desperate...and no its not that i have a problem..the only problem i have is that i am not being given the drugs that i need to be well so i need illegal ones as they will make me better than i am right now...and don't anybody DARE suggest otherwise as i am the expert on me...i know what it is like to live my life nd i know what does and does not work so go fuck yourselves if you think yoga or a bit of meditation and postive mindfulness is the answer FUCK YOPU AND STAF FUCKED as you know as much as a head splattered ant
.....bought some powder off an online 'headshop' pile of shit...i might as well snort modafinil and phenibut together (thats one to try tomorrow)
if there is anyone reading this thinking all i need is to stop thinking about drugs and live a normal healthy life, well i tried that for 3 years and have ended up in hell....so no...that does not work for me and i'm on the brink of suicide here, yes i am that fucking desperate...and no its not that i have a problem..the only problem i have is that i am not being given the drugs that i need to be well so i need illegal ones as they will make me better than i am right now...and don't anybody DARE suggest otherwise as i am the expert on me...i know what it is like to live my life nd i know what does and does not work so go fuck yourselves if you think yoga or a bit of meditation and postive mindfulness is the answer FUCK YOPU AND STAF FUCKED as you know as much as a head splattered ant