so how many of you regret picking up the needle?
and when was the point where you realized you messed up?
This is a good question, especially since I still sniff my dope but have used the needle at times when I only had a little bit of dope left. I don't think that I am going to use the needle again though. I go back away to school in less than a month, and don't do any dope there so my tolerance never gets crazy since I only use while home from college.
But part of me feels "tainted" since I have crossed that boundary a few times. I would say that since I started sniffing dope in 2006, I have shot up about 12 times. Even though I haven't IV'd much at all considering the amount of time that I have been using, it is still in the back of my head that I have done it.
I can't say that I fully regret it, since I am mainly a sniffer. I have only gotten high from IVing once or twice. I am too afraid of ODing, so I used such a small amount those few times that I did it. I never bought bags and went straight for the needle. I have sniffed them n they were garbage so I knew if I wanted to get high my only chance was if I shot up.
Also, my father is diabetic so has insulin syringes in my house at all times , so I didn't have to purchase them. If the needles were not already in my house, then I would have never IVd.
I guess it sucks that I crossed that line those few times, and never really got high from doing so. I felt pretty grimey when I had a little bruise from IVing. Having to hide that made me feel pretty low.