originally a opiate dependent person for pain due to a horrific military accident while on active duty in Afghanistan over-seas..
the true addictive behavior and thinking didn't start until much later on in the military.. and after being practically force fed narcotics in order to 'just' do basic daily work during this god awful war.. and the narcotics did exactly what they were supposed to over there.. numb myself 24 hours a day..
It wasn't until I returned home that I found myself lost and wondering how to deal with life and how to find a way to deal with the emotional, mental and physical pains from the war..
it wasn't until that time, that I started eatting every narcotic known to man without a care for morals, family, friends and everything else that prior meant anything to me..
and today I am spending everyday trying to make up for that period in my life and trying to deal with life on life's terms.. not my own terms..
1.) Pain Meds
2.) Hooked
3.) More Pain Meds
4.) Heroin
5.) Liar, Thief, POS, Worthless Asshole Junkie
6.) Suboxone
7.) Back to a Normal, Meaninful, Healthy, Positive life.. and chalking up the old lifestyle as one hell of a shitty learning experience..