I totally glamorized the entire thing. All my musical idols were junkies, I heard stories about the NYC heroin scene, etc.. It was all just so enticing.
Hah, yeah man.. unfortunately when I was a kid I took that to heart. I was obsessed with the junkie rockstar bullshit... then I finally became one minus the rockstar part..

Hah. But, I'll tell you... my music has gotten 10x better since I got sober. I mean, I'm grateful for the inspiration for the songs and shit but I mean as far as my ability to play it well, sing it well, and put on a good show... being sober beats being strung out by a landslide.
(read my blog about me face planting during a show for more info on playing high) Hah.