Day two off heroin. Up with hope, down with dope! Tired of living that double life. It's exhausting.
welcome petevenkmann and Mf_Mayhem and congratulations to both of you. it really is exhausting, isn't it? good for you
i am almost at 2 weeks clean, not quite. even though my insomnia is still horrible and i am exhausted, i am also starting to feel more energized and a wee bit stronger. still getting frequent panic attacks and anxiety sweats, but gradually learning how to self-soothe again. finally took out the pillow and meditated today for 5 minutes. i was scared to do it but i am glad i did. one day at a time.
Hi everyone. I've lurked around blue light for so long and now I'm finally ready to post. Last night I took my last oxy's before bed and am ready to start living sober. Right now I'm scared of what things will look like in my life, isn't that awful? I have a beautiful family to live for. I'm not sure how bad withdrawal is going to be. I have gabapentin, suboxone, and benzo's if I need them. Right now I'm gonna play it by ear. I've been on opiates for about 5 years. I'm a chronic pain patient for my back, however I don't think I truly needed all the meds they would prescribe to me, I gladly took them though. I'm an addict, I now realize & accept that, but I don't have to accept this addiction anymore. Anyway, I hope to gain some support & hopefully I can be supportive to someone else in the future.
What's up sober crew.. I now have 6 months completely drug and alcohol free after 17yrs of heroin, methadone and benzo addiction. My friends, family and wife kind of had an intervention for me after I started selling dope again and then subsequently overdosed. The first 2 months were extremely difficult due to the methadone and clonazapam(been on for the better part of the last 12yrs) withdrawal. I had uncontrollable hand tremors, would forget how to talk and always felt tired but wired and anxious at the same time. I have been feeling a lot better physically and now get 4-6 hrs of sleep a night but lately I have been feeling extremely withdrawn and lonely. My relationship with my wife isn't so well at the moment(unofficially seperated) and I live in a sober house. I just feel like I don't belong anywhere.. I have been working 50-60hrs a week just because I don't know what else to do with myself(also because I find validation in money). Overall I am happy and love being sober but I have this lurking emptiness. I have a sponser and I work the program but these feelings still persists. Is this normal? I know about PAWS and I have all the symptoms. Could this be the cause of my meloncholly brainfog? Sorry about the long paragraph.. I'm on my phone and can't seem to break it into paragraphs.
21 months off heroin, no looking back