Day two off heroin. Up with hope, down with dope! Tired of living that double life. It's exhausting.
welcome petevenkmann and Mf_Mayhem and congratulations to both of you. it really is exhausting, isn't it? good for you
i am almost at 2 weeks clean, not quite. even though my insomnia is still horrible and i am exhausted, i am also starting to feel more energized and a wee bit stronger. still getting frequent panic attacks and anxiety sweats, but gradually learning how to self-soothe again. finally took out the pillow and meditated today for 5 minutes. i was scared to do it but i am glad i did. one day at a time.
Hi everyone. I've lurked around blue light for so long and now I'm finally ready to post. Last night I took my last oxy's before bed and am ready to start living sober. Right now I'm scared of what things will look like in my life, isn't that awful? I have a beautiful family to live for. I'm not sure how bad withdrawal is going to be. I have gabapentin, suboxone, and benzo's if I need them. Right now I'm gonna play it by ear. I've been on opiates for about 5 years. I'm a chronic pain patient for my back, however I don't think I truly needed all the meds they would prescribe to me, I gladly took them though. I'm an addict, I now realize & accept that, but I don't have to accept this addiction anymore. Anyway, I hope to gain some support & hopefully I can be supportive to someone else in the future.
What's up sober crew.. I now have 6 months completely drug and alcohol free after 17yrs of heroin, methadone and benzo addiction. My friends, family and wife kind of had an intervention for me after I started selling dope again and then subsequently overdosed. The first 2 months were extremely difficult due to the methadone and clonazapam(been on for the better part of the last 12yrs) withdrawal. I had uncontrollable hand tremors, would forget how to talk and always felt tired but wired and anxious at the same time. I have been feeling a lot better physically and now get 4-6 hrs of sleep a night but lately I have been feeling extremely withdrawn and lonely. My relationship with my wife isn't so well at the moment(unofficially seperated) and I live in a sober house. I just feel like I don't belong anywhere.. I have been working 50-60hrs a week just because I don't know what else to do with myself(also because I find validation in money). Overall I am happy and love being sober but I have this lurking emptiness. I have a sponser and I work the program but these feelings still persists. Is this normal? I know about PAWS and I have all the symptoms. Could this be the cause of my meloncholly brainfog? Sorry about the long paragraph.. I'm on my phone and can't seem to break it into paragraphs.