Not really sure anymore

[Leopride17]

Heres the thing everyone, I did adderall about 100 mg each day, maybe more and drank this all happened for 2 days, day 1 i mixed a tiny bump of k with it as well as drank. took a pin and a serauquel to sleep. I felt really good day 1, and was mad speedy and high and overall great tweak, next day felt blah, took more adderall and ended up rolling later on that evening, still felt really good, took xanax to sleep. woke up around 5. for the last week now. i havent been feeling pleasure very well at all :/ i still am doing my regular routine, jerking off watching porn, having sex. chillin playing yugioh, but i dont feel the full extend of all the pleasure... to be honest i feel like its being blocked i read an article herehttp://www.bluelight.org/vb/archive/.../t-535170.htmlwhich seemed to fit to how ive been feeling. did the bump of K reset my ablity to feel pleasure, or did all that speed take away my pleasure senses, for someone who doesnt use often perhaps i did damage??currently taking 500 Mg of L tryosine and 5 HTP Im more clam and now having any cravings, im just kind of here doing stuff, with no real desires... :/ i really could use some perspectives, should i take dxm or K to reset my brain? should i just keep up with the vitamins hoping that my dopamine will eventually be where it needs to be? Another thing is i also notice air feels off and my head feels a bit different? idk maybe thats a bit off topic. but i notice im not myself, im a very implusive person, i dont like feeling a zombie or more so a focused zombie just doing shit without any rewards behind it... how did this happen, ive bindged before on addy and molly, not much alchohol has been included in those though or K... idk what to do

this happened easter week. My sense of touch is off too. Idk what to think. Just nothing feels that great

 

[TheLostBoys]

I know what you mean......I had this problem after doing years ago.......stims + rolling to me gave me weird effects for several months. Haven't touched stims or x ever since, & that was over 10 years ago.

I think it will take a few months until you get back to normal.

 

[Leopride17]

I honestly think it might of been that small bump of Ketamine I did. It was a wild card I never tried before and now I just feel so werid like my equilibrium is off and things just aren't as satisfying

 

[TheLostBoys]

Yeah, my equilibrium was off a bit as well back then for a month or so......had myself checked put at the doctors & everything was okay.

I think its just your mind & body trying to get back to normal/baseline.

 

[moyk]

Ive been a heavy stimulant user for roughly 5 years and I'll tell you right now high dosages of amphetamine salts, no matter how they are done they warp the physiological mind. Firstly, I'm not an anti drug activist. I'm just a 20 year old lad who wants to offer you a suggestion.
DONT USE HIGH DOSAGES OF STIMULANTS WITHOUT
TOLERANCE:
Amphetamines
Methlyphenidrate salts
Methamphetamine
Cocaine

I started off young with stimulants. Yes, I was that little punk ass 12 year old who walked out of convenience stores with an energy drink to get a rise out of it. And I digress, for those who don't know amphetamines and most other uppers, they cause the brain to release dopamine in much higher quantities than other narcotics. So when a stimulant that the body isnt prepared for will cause psychiatric complications. Especially in the case of add meds. Also keep in mind that they are practically impossible to OD on.
In 8th grade Swim remembers buying 10 concerta off a kid in school without the prior knowledge that you cannot sniff them. Aggravated and desperate to feel the focused rush and the pleasent tingling on the undersides of my legs, I just ate them all right in front of the kid who sold them to me. He attempted to stop me but he wasnt quick enough and he freaked out thinking that I was going to die from them. I got extremely speedy that day, so much so that I had to leave class multiple times because I was generously sweating. If I could give an analogy as to how I felt it was a bit similar to how my car used to run. There was something wrong with the od sensor and my fuel injector was was giving the engine too much gas causing abormal rise of temp. But in this case for me the gas is dopamine, the engine is my brain, the od sensor was my dealer, the fuel injector was my judgement, so I was basically prepared to run a marathon on those bouncy new stilts while hula hooping and maybe listen to an audiobook at the peak of my high. Oh and if you're wondering yes, I am high. DXM, cok,e mary, and 3 coors lights working on the fourth now.
Regardless, ever since that day 5 years ago I have deffinately been off. Whether it be sudden loss of balance or extremely short memory or a variety of other maldies. Heres the catch. If you do keep accidentally doing this it will only get worse. Good news? Over time without binging you can back to a place of natural euphoria similar to what you remember but you will never entirely have back. Its one thing tweakers just have to deal with.

 

[Leopride17]

But did the Ketamine bump change my brain or the amphetamines or taking the0.6 of molly all at once. My body feels colder and my emotions feel completely dull and my head feels different like a numbness and nothing is really giving me pleasure. Idk what to do.

 

[LilikoiMoon]

Yugioh is your issue, man....play some WOW, or something!

 

[Diamorphazepam]

I seen on this documentary once that when people took ecstasy it take take like 2 week for your serotonin to fully go back to normal.
u can only get better as time goes by even if u do take more drugs as long as it aint as many as u took before. lol.
try to stick with downers till u feel better if u must take something. a few good nights sleep and u'll be better

 

[TheLostBoys]

But did the Ketamine bump change my brain or the amphetamines or taking the0.6 of molly all at once. My body feels colder and my emotions feel completely dull and my head feels different like a numbness and nothing is really giving me pleasure. Idk what to do.

No one could tell you if it was the ketamine bump or whatever else.......stimulants along with other drugs can give you the effects you're getting.

Take a benzo.....like 5mgs of Valium & relax......eat fruits & light food & drink water & juices, & get some rest.

You're way over thinking your scenario......lots of people have gone thru what you're going thru.

 

[Seattle_Stranger]

Could have been the MDMA actually. You said you took .6 in one sitting, along with other drugs? That's it man, right there. A bad MDMA comedown is exactly as you describe, you feel kind of like a sail boat with no sails. The air feels different, your skin feels different, everything is different and off-putting. Add on top of that other stimulants, ketamine, alcohol, etc., then it's no surprise you feel the way you do.

As suggested above, chill on the drugs, eat and sleep well, take vitamins, and stop obsessing. Good luck!

 

[Leopride17]

Thanks a lot, yeah I was on about 60 mg of adderall and then took the 0.6 all at once I was feeling great this was the second day of the convention. The first day was 100 mg of adderall maybe and a tiny bump of ketamine with benzos and seraquel and Haldol to sleep. I did drink too on both days more friday than sat. My head feels werid still and I'm feeling a lack of pleasure as well as dimished senses. Perception of time seems off too.. I don't mean to overthink. I've rolled and took adderall plenty of times before and never have I felt like this. Was the first time I tried ketamine tho.. hence why I'm fixated on that. It was only about a bit bigger then a key bump tho and I was feeling good on sat..also did some whippits Friday too.. this whole thing is just puzzling. I'm taking 5 htp. L tyrosine and working out a little bit. I just hope that I get back to being 100 percent myself