people change, priorities change and life changes. And for some people that means you get over it.
I used to live for the next rave, would think about it and make sure i did anything to get there, doesnt matter if i was straight or not. when i was a raver i lived for the rave. Then the chems took over and i lived for them, a rave was just somewhere i went to hang out with other fucked-up individuals. I thought i had made lots of friends but looking back now, i didnt.
I have always prefered doofs. I have made lots of true friends at doofs and spend most of my time at doofs straight. After getting really fuckedup and sick from all the chemies, i got a real reality check and decided that there are more important things in life than your next pill. Got healthy, went back to work, went back to study. so yes, i got over it. Im really quite happy that i did. I'll go to a good local doof if i can, but usually save up for a summer season of doofing!
People who dont know me consider me a raver, and i have mixed feelings about that. On one hand you know what they are thinking (i.e fucked up and off with the fairies) and on the other hand you feel insulted because you know thats not what your life is about anymore and you wish people would not see you that way.
I havent had a pill for almost a year, i dont really feel the need to have one at all in the near future. life is just more interesting without pills and meth.
(life is even more interesting with LSD but thats another story) Bluelight is more interesting to me now because im NOT a weekend dialer, and i like to be able to understand everyones opinions and feelings in a non-biased fashion!
would write more, but work calls!!
Andromeda
