-Take a shower
-Do a pedicure
-Read BL
-Read some actual news
-Watch TV
-Clean
-do laundry
-organize useless shit (mp3 files, rainbow order my sharpie marker set, etc)
-change sheets on the bed and make it up
-burn CD's
-Make playlists
-Draw
-Write
-text people
-call people
-make plans
-perfect my dope kit
-clean out old sets with bleach n alcohol
-find hidden stashes of old empty bags and put all in one place so they stop appearing on my floor
-clean off mirror top table so making up shots is more fun to watch
-Throw out garbage laying around
-go on encyclopedia dramatica and read endlessly mindless stupid shit
-Do eyebrows
-Braid my hair
-Do deep cleaning facial with steam
-make mini toiletry bag for runnin out the door at a minutes notice
-delete old text messages
-sort thru my voicemail
-watch a movie on youtube
-set up speakers and listen to music
-get drunk (time warp speed)
-take dirty dishes to the sink
-clean incent ashes off the incent burner
-fold laundry
-do something that i been procrastinating doing
-get important info together (birth certificate, SS card, medical records, prescriptions, etc)
-do my makeup
-get a list of NA meetings to tell the judge wat ones i will b attending
-look up guitar tabs
-sing somethin
-make a list
-Walk to the bodega
-Drink coffee
-Call one of my girls
-Walk down the block and watch a movie with my girl
-go on line to look up sites that give you free samples of shit and sign up for all of them
-research a random thing I am curious about
-Design tattoos
-Dream about gettin high.....
Today I can do this shit. I am makin this list here not becuz it could possibly be interestin to anybody around me, but just to remind my self that there is plenty of shit to do other than shoot up and smoke weed. I am in awake mode not zombie want to be sleeping but cant mode. I am startin to love the day time becuz at least thats a time that it feels OK to be awake, that im allowed to be awake, instead of the torture of knowin everyone else is all sleepy cozy toasty warm in their bed visions of needles dance in their head. wait thats my head. But anyways. Just check down the list girl. find somethin to entertain you. It aint supposed to be easy. if it was easy it wouldnt be a fuckin addiction, it would be called a funndiction or somethin. lol. Be good. not much longer to hold out. good things come to those who wait and god helps those who help themselfes.
-Do a pedicure
-Read BL
-Read some actual news
-Watch TV
-Clean
-do laundry
-organize useless shit (mp3 files, rainbow order my sharpie marker set, etc)
-change sheets on the bed and make it up
-burn CD's
-Make playlists
-Draw
-Write
-text people
-call people
-make plans
-perfect my dope kit
-clean out old sets with bleach n alcohol
-find hidden stashes of old empty bags and put all in one place so they stop appearing on my floor
-clean off mirror top table so making up shots is more fun to watch
-Throw out garbage laying around
-go on encyclopedia dramatica and read endlessly mindless stupid shit
-Do eyebrows
-Braid my hair
-Do deep cleaning facial with steam
-make mini toiletry bag for runnin out the door at a minutes notice
-delete old text messages
-sort thru my voicemail
-watch a movie on youtube
-set up speakers and listen to music
-get drunk (time warp speed)
-take dirty dishes to the sink
-clean incent ashes off the incent burner
-fold laundry
-do something that i been procrastinating doing
-get important info together (birth certificate, SS card, medical records, prescriptions, etc)
-do my makeup
-get a list of NA meetings to tell the judge wat ones i will b attending
-look up guitar tabs
-sing somethin
-make a list
-Walk to the bodega
-Drink coffee
-Call one of my girls
-Walk down the block and watch a movie with my girl
-go on line to look up sites that give you free samples of shit and sign up for all of them
-research a random thing I am curious about
-Design tattoos
-Dream about gettin high.....
Today I can do this shit. I am makin this list here not becuz it could possibly be interestin to anybody around me, but just to remind my self that there is plenty of shit to do other than shoot up and smoke weed. I am in awake mode not zombie want to be sleeping but cant mode. I am startin to love the day time becuz at least thats a time that it feels OK to be awake, that im allowed to be awake, instead of the torture of knowin everyone else is all sleepy cozy toasty warm in their bed visions of needles dance in their head. wait thats my head. But anyways. Just check down the list girl. find somethin to entertain you. It aint supposed to be easy. if it was easy it wouldnt be a fuckin addiction, it would be called a funndiction or somethin. lol. Be good. not much longer to hold out. good things come to those who wait and god helps those who help themselfes.
