Ahh that's great for you, good that things are falling into place! 6 months is a real step, you should be proud that. I hope for you its a nice lady/lad, its true knowing you don't carry everything alone is a comfort
As depressed as i was last week, things are much much better now.
Today i went for my first day as a volunteer at an animal shelter, and its bullseye. All these animals made me feel so good, ive never before cleaned up shit with a smile on my face, if you what i mean xd
Walked several dogs, some who are really big and mean looking, but the joy i got out of them being out of the cage, the mutural respect without having to speak, its straight chemistry.
Some are abanded because they got mistreated or abused and were therefore dumped as a punishment for something they weren't responsible for, jumping on to me, enthousiastic, i just love it.
Walking these big, strong dogs, really beautiful but just misunderstood, gave me such a great feeling of pride and relaxation, its such a wonderful feeling to give them a little freedom again.
Great people there too, lots of psychiatric and addiction problems, so no stigma or prejudgements, really cool.
I can go there every day if i want and take one or two dogs to go to the forest and just enjoy eachothers company and being out in nature.
Im so exited about this, its really me.
And all these little, scared kittens, that after a couple of minutes of being scared and shy, crawling unto your lap and fall asleep right there..its amazing how good that feels...^^
96 days clean and sober now, really looking forward to tomorrow i cant wait to see the cats and dogs again :D! I guess im starting to love life again, slow but steady, ups and downs, smiles and cries...patience and faith, without it you're nowhere!