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No more drug tests - - Now decision time

Marijuana cures cancer it doesn't cause it!!!

what's wrong with you? stop spreading bullshit


mrflowers00 said:
pot is a dangerous drug because it can easily get you into other drugs or feeling like you can use it more and more often to feel "normal/right" and it can cause cancer easier than cigarettes
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So the Universe really does have nothing but love for me. As I perused in this thread my DCFS case (read: drug tests) would come to an end in December and I could proceed with substance dependency.

Alas, the case stayed open for 90 days beyond my estimate. Thank you precious stars, galaxy, and everything expansive.....

My case is closed today, 2 years later. On New Year's night was the culmination of final DISSOLVING desire for substances. A few drinks on a few dates but nothing obsessive or compulsive, no cravings(!) since December. It passes my mind that I can TAKE ANYTHING I WANT right now. But oh dear Evolution! You are my heart.

I'm not going to allow myself to invite those thoughts in for tea. My inclination is to try and match substances to my current mind-state and think about how they would affect me. In fact I'm teasing myself right now so I'm outta here. Thoughts=actions, and there is too much to do.
 
I'm happy things worked out for you. I'm in a similar boat as next week I will be off drug court so no more minimum once a week drops anymore. I could go back, but today I don't feel like it. Best of luck to you :D
 
I'm back.

Spent the last 6 or so weeks (since I've been back from India) puffing pot all day every day, really getting into this stoner lifestyle as it's one of my original states. "Ah welcome home" is the sense, and the worst part is there is almost no guilt. Just a subtle sense of emptiness and missing out on real life, but this feeling can easily be passed by with a good website or chocolate bar. And I even look beautiful in this stony state; it feels like it IS my nature. The problem is, my sober nature is also calling me. The self I've been all year, and striving toward for all these years. My most successful year yet.

I went all year without alcohol, last week bought some IPAs for the house, even met a friend for a drink(!), but alcohol was still wholly unimpressive.

I'm moving to India in 4 months and scared! So I feel like I have to smoke so much now! Unrelated happenings but I am subduing my fear with substance. Smoking will be MUCH harder to negotiate in India around my husband and I'd rather do without. Lately have been smoking out of habit (spiritual stagnancy) and fear of the future.

I'm one of you many who is ready to "take a break" but need alternative coping mechanisms. I have heard some funny ones. When the urge to obtain/smoke comes:
Immediately do 20 pushups
Put on a good playlist and do nothing until it's over
Keep distracting

I'm gonna head over to the Cannabis forum and review this quitting thing..
 
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Why so you smoke all day everyday... also why do you let life pass you by because you are High. Have you ever considered changing your habits while you are high.. I mean I just dont understand why sitting around and not participating in life while you are on grass is in any way more enjoyable than getting out and doing amazing things at the same time. What is it that you do while you are lit that makes life pass you by? If you choose to do nothing while you are baked maybe you should just limit your smoking until an hour or two before bed. An easy way to deal with craving is just say Im not not going to get high but I'm going to wait until tonight or I'm just not going to smoke until its dark.
 
I have no idea.. the road to unhappiness and insanity lies down caring what others think.. fuck them (not the people you love) the peanut gallery.. ha ha ha fuk them.. good for you!!!!!!! identify were its a pluss and where it a minus.. adhere to that. and drop that crazy shame and guilt as it insane. =D
 
Cohesion, if you don't mind me asking, where is your daughter in all of this? I am not saying that motherhood and smoking weed are mutually exclusive....until recently, I smoked a bowl almost every night, albeit after my child went to bed. Sometimes I would have to smoke a little when I was having bad pain during the day, and at those times I did not feel like the best mom in the world.

Are you finding that staying in a haze most of the time changes the way you spend time with your daughter? I imagine it might.

Just something to think about. You worked so hard to get her back with you, and I know you are a fabulous mom no matter what, but as a mom myself I wonder if it is best left for times when the kid is asleep or somewhere else...
 
<3

Yeah

I feel guilty when I think that she smells it. It feels lame actually. It does change the way we spend time together. You see me right on here in this respect and I thank you for that.

I feel like I die a little inside every time I smoke. It's been this feeling also before she was in the picture.

It's soo easy to stay in the hook and cycle of smoking when my home system and life is easy and simple, smoke away. I think, "What worry, what difficulty? Be comfortable in this freedom (my husband doesn't know I'm smoking now) and you are moving to India soon. So have it up."

Changing the tune takes what? The list of alternative behaviors and distractors includes:

-First, a commitment.
-Music
-Spiritual practices (meditation and yoga)
-Movie/TV series
-Coffee or sleep
-Walk/to the park

Simply...

This is what I want, so in tune with the thread title, is this a decision or what. Easy complacency or fight that bitch.
 
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