No ifs no buts just lies.

[mashead testing]

You dont even think what you did was wrong,
it was,
Now I cant even listen to any of the songs
for fear.
If you really meant what you said,
i'd die,
but because what you did shows you didnt,
you lie.
Everything caused one big chain reaction,
it hurts,
every smile I gave and tear you made,
without thinking.
Things are gone and I feel im sinking,
even though,
im conciously aware of the state I am in,
doesnt help.
I doubt there is anything you could do or say,
make difference,
there fore all the pleasure I thought I gave,
is pointless.
Im not a person for regrets its been said,
but now,
im hurt and wasted and you fill me with hatred,
all change.
Time and distance causes me to evaluate,
to misunderstand,
but from your point of view its ignored,
forever forgotten.
I guess the whole dynamics changed,
my position,
but witheld information makes a change,
failed recognition.
Im waiting for something that will never occur,
its you,
but in my hazy daze I cant help thinking,
its true.

 

[Noodle]

I know you will get through this time.
Good luck, and much love.
Sincerely,
( me )

 

[Sambo]

[No message]

 

[Hemlock]

Such a hard time, and so painful. We can hope it makes you stronger, but we know that for now it just hurts. You've expressed it well, I hope it gets better from here.