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[Tomtom1984]

A bit about me, I first tried heroin in jail in 2006, I got 3 year for intent to supply 16gram coke at 12% but had a fair bit of mdma in it and also I had half ounce of cheap commercial green. I was padded up with an Afghan who had some nice H from his country, and it ran very clean and had a scabby beetle, I he called it 10out of 10 Afghan scabby, I I came out and never touched it as I did not know where or who to score and it never crossed my mind and I never had a rattle, I was more into selling green, and pills, sniff. 2009 I had bad tooth ache, I bumped into a lad I knew from jail he was rattling and had no money I didn't like seeing someone in a bad way and I had cash so I took him to score n had a smoke with him, and I planned to just smoke it till I got my teeth sorted, I I had 7 out and didn't stop.
2011 jail again 2 year for intent to supply 136.81grams cannabis. I had a subtext script before jail but I was just slying them away to save plus taking them properly with H in system was instant rattle no amount of gear would fix. I was getting took to cells under court after sentencing the screw said a taxi is coming to take me to hospital due to intel/suspicion of a package, and I quickly unplugged not far off 200ml of stubby crunched and swallowed with a drink, and surprise surprise no taxi they took me straight onto paddy wagon but sods law if I hadn't of unplugged knowing my look I'd be having 2 year added on for supplying hmp so I risked it swallowing all that.
At jail I was offered 60ml of methadone, I was on 8ml of subtext, I I asked the nurse and Dr is 60 the equivalent to 8ml without saying it sounded too much I never got an answer so I said no and did it bareback, I never rattled for 2week even then had a few sleepers n weed n I was OK, so came out clean, single, double missing my 2 kids but clean.
I worked hard until back end of 2013 I got hit head on by a man in a van doing 60 I was doing 30 I broke my femur, foot, both knees and my wrist, the air ambulance doctor came and gave me IV ketamine and morphine, I I was in hospital for 3 the weeks and a lot of pain relief my body's full of metal plates, bowls screws and a long rod down my the murder. I came off morphine with no reduction onto gabapentin and metrazepine 45mg and rattled badley, I after a while I got changed to pregablin 900mg daily. I got switched from mertrazepine to citalopram then sertraline then ducloexetine (was like pure wizz) the and back to mertrazepine.
I got back on the H again just before end of 2013 till about 2 week ago when I stopped due to anticipating a hairstrand test coming up which never happened but I have a court ordered weekly swab/urine test if I fail I don't see my kids. I'm struggling with the pain from my foot, and legs and hip from my crash though, the doctors are useless as they think druggie so no help, I'm on 30ml of methadone weekly pickup, I stopped the gabby and mertrazepine.
Drug test wise I blagged the last 2, cos I stopped then used, and stopped then used now I've stopped 4days and drug test tomorrow. I have been looking into AH-7921 W-18 U-47700 U-50488 MT-45 and similar. I have adhd and originally started smoking weed to cope and be able to process thoughts better, they didn't know what it was back then I was classed as a naughty child due to all the energy similar to why I sold drugs not for money that was a bonus it was because I enjoyed the fast pace I had several fast cars, a good head for figures and could happily clock up 1500/2000 miles week as I felt like my car was my comfort zone I could never sit still for 5mins at home.
That's my story anyway, I'm happy to help anyone or share my experiences. I have done all the jail drug, mentoring and listener courses.
Tom

 

[Devotee]

Sorry to hear about your pain and potentially failing your drug tests because of your past Use of Drugs. For your pain, have you tried Kratom? If no, then for a new user, it's is easiest taken in capsules - or tea (I prefer caps) easily purchased on line or from your local head-shop. I buy bulk powder and cap my own - a fraction of the price, and well worth it - to me at least. Kratom is amazing for pain, euphoria and dealing to withdrawals. But you must take it exactly as I lay out here. First thing in the morning - Empty stomach - no food whatsoever. (1) drink glass of 100% grapefruit juice, wait 15 minutes (2) wash down 8 capsules of Kratom - about 2 or 3 grams with more grapefruit juice - grape fruit juice potentiates it (3) do not eat anything .... Within 20 minutes you will feel it, and in 40 minutes you will be flying happy. Three or 4 hours later - repeat. Do not drive or operate equipment until you see how you go with it. If you eat, it does not work... Or not as well. When you have to eat... Eat at least 2 hours after taking. Don't take Kratom within two hours of eating. Yes, you do loose weight - because you don't want to turn off the effect with food. Try not to do Kratom more than two or three days in a row... Tolerance builds ... Unless you have other Kratom varieties to switch out. If you take it 7 days per week, week after week -- you will then be addicted to Kratom. Don't do that. There are plenty of other things you can add to your stack to avoid addiction and tolerance. PS if 8 caps does not hit you hard within an hour - take 4 more caps.... And next time start with 12. About 4 grams... That's a lot, trust me and not likely. Most people screw Kratom up by eating. Don't do that. Stay away from the illegal stuff, there is no reason to risk it when you have currently legal alternatives. Good luck.

 

[Tomtom1984]

I messed up, and he cancelled my test and I let myself down, and I used 20th to Friday 22nd then stopped sat sun he phoned me Monday and said come on Wed 4th so I used from Monday 25th till tomorrow which will be my last day so I have 6 days clean for test be it swab or urine. I I don't feel any effect from the H, I I wrote reminders in my phone for 4pm on my test day "DON'T WASTE MONEY ON THAT CRAP I'M SUPPOSED TO BE HIGH NOW AND FEEL NO DIFFERENT IT'S A TOTAL WASTE OF MONEY SO SAVE!" I have written similar reminders for following days, and even did list of pros and cons and a 10 min video so I can play it when Wednesday comes so I know I'm a fool.to.waste.my.money. I tried the kratom 20x resin diluted in Vape cig fluid, I smoke it in a joint and ate it, but obviously didn't have enough for effect. I it shows the H is CRAP as I take 60mlof methadone first 2 days split 30 morn 30 night then stay on my prescribed 30 ml daily. I can't justify spending £30/55 a day.
If I do a planned detox of methadone when I have had a month of H is there an implant I can have as a blocker or something that will make me I'll if I try H again as if my mum, dad and sister know I've got the implant and I'm clean of H and methadone I think it would reinstall some trust and confidence in plus save the embarrassment of going to teach for my methadone, going to drug meetings and number 1 no worrying about failing a drug test and not seeing my kids. They are 6 and 4 and I don't want them thinking their dad is weak my sons been through a lot been very poorly.
I'm a fully trained listener and mentor and I'm good at listening and giving good advice but CRAP at sorting my own problems out. I had thought of been hypnotised to stop drugs and smoking also I wanted the H testing somehow so I could prove to myself how poor quality it is.
I need to do it this time, and I've missed a few opportunities I have 4 weeks left before I go back to court and then I won't be under as much pressure and I don't want to slip back into the fold I need to be well off H by then.
Thanks for reading/listening