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Cheers smoky! Bloody good site to, everyone has been very good to me from the get go, am shocked I haven't heard of the site sooner!
 
Welcome JohnnyB,

all the way from Aus Lol..

im originally from the Uk moved to the states Florida and have pals in Brisbane from my military service, small work uhh.

Same boat as you, just joined after years of lurking, I'm currently addicted to opiates the devils pill from the drug dealers in white coats.

stay strong..
 
Ha ha, yes all the way from good old Aus! You poor bugger, I know they are just doin their job, but quacks are the worst drug dealers of the lot, I don't know a single person prescribed opiates that hasn't had their life changed ( mostly for the worst), in so many ways, all from drugs prescribed by a doctor....Would you mind if I asked what your on em for? No judgement bro, just curious. Hang in there tho mate, any questions you got or any way I can support ya just give us a yell alright?
 
Hey buddy,
well you can ask whatever you want Lol..

i was was involved in a serious motorcycle accident in 2009, fucked up my leg picked up infections etc had previous trauma to the same leg in the military, a number of years before the accident.

So started on all the weak opiates and gradually moved onto morphine, first 3 years not an issue took as prescribed no cravings, then it became a crutch PTSD materialised from active duty and yes I had pain but I began to self medicate to escape the mental aspect of PTSD.
roll forward to current day kept my addiction a secret and eat through Diludid prescription which is Hydromorphone x5stronger than morphine within 10 days, it shit bro, I've withdrawn god knows how many times, and now I'm starting to medicate the withdrawals with alcohol which is so destructive to your health, all addicts will say yea this voice says give it up and you'll be good, then the other voice says fuck it just this once.
Well we all know where that ends up Lol..
 
Hey buddy I would really like to hear your story of how you began your journey and how the hell you keep it together on methadone, not sure if you watch You Tube, but a guy on there called Ryan Donnelly , kinda the god father of advice he posts stuff every day, well Monday through Friday Lol, he speaks from experience of opiate addiction, look him up bro, it's good stuff.

im not prying but everyone's life is different and reasons they use and how we keep it together given all the odds stacked against us, did you ever consider Suboxone or Subutex instead of Methadone?.
 
I believe that both meds will always make us so dependent. It's tough to get away from such imprisonment imho.
 
Ah yeah cool, I'll look the bloke up. My story...well I come from a very poor background, so I moved outta home when I was sixteen, got an apprenticeship, but as u could imagine I had nobody to fall back on but apprentice wages on your own don't cover the bills, so I started selling drugs, mostly prescription, uppers and downers, but pot and meth as well. Got into a blue with a couple blokes on day (due to my line of buisness), end result of that, all three of us were wounded and there was no fucking way I was going to a hospital so, so I decided to help myself to some of the shit I was selling...rule number fucking one Johnny u fuck wit. ..anyway, I realized that oxy morph, benzos, dexies and Ritalin all made me feel a lot better and I was able to keep going to work all day and dealing all night on a cocktail of all that shit, couple of 80mg oxy 4 times a day, around 10 dexy for breakfast, 10 for lunch and then benzos with the oxy to grab a bit of shut eye at night before work the next day...oh and I was a piss head by the age of 13 so add that in too. Anyway one thing led to another and I packed up and moved for a better job and a different lifestyle, found the better job but not the lifestyle, same old dog, same old fuckin tricks..financially I was ok, I gave my missus my bank card, never touched that coin that was for her and my kids ( forgot to mention I got 5 kids, not all to the same woman unfortunately) but problem was she didn't deserve waiting up all night so I could come home and she would have to burn my clothes ( other people's blood) or picking me up from emergency or the cop shop. My kids didnt ever see me, so I made the choice to quit. Moved towns, got another good job, bought a house and jumped on the program, that was two years ago, haven't looked back, don't drink don't do nothing now, changed my whole lifestyle, expecting another daughter in Feb. I will explain shortly how I last on the methadone, it ain't easy. Did try the suboxone bit it didn't help at all, lasted 4 days on that and went back to using...there u go mate, war and peace lol.
 
As for lasting on methadone..well for one it is a brilliant pain killer, and my body is fucked, ( wrote off 5 cars myself but been in 9 right offs, had my knee bashed in with a brick, jaw broken with a bat, knuckles are all permanently swollen beyond repair...list goes on) so it helps me a lot in that aspect, only difficulty is the actual opiate high only lasts maybe four hours for me and I'm on the highest presvribable does for Australia...so kicking that urge to take more pills is fucking hard, however I would over dose and die before I felt any kind of a high from the pills. Methadone is basically one of the strongest painkillers and it cancels all the others out, better than hydromorph, (I used to eat 32mg jurnistas like skittles, crush n swallow three at a go no worries and go to work), it's half life us around 30 hours, depends on individual but I got a stupidly fast metabolism as well, so less for me. But u only have to dose once a day, never sick, fuck all pain, just no float away with all your senses stone. Although it does still make me feel pretty good. My doc is good too, understands I work, I'm only 26, I hit a tribe of kids, my jobs important, so he gives me take away doses whenever I need em. Is a good bloke really. Definitely something I recommend. Suboxone is SHIT..will explain more on my experience with that another time..
 
Probably nothing compared to you, my hat goes off to you mate, had family and friends in military from WW1- Iraq war, don't know how you blokes do it but have the utmost respect for u and can't thank you enough for what you all go through , but I do understand the PTSD, I been diagnosed with it from shit in my life and that was one of the many reasons I hooked into it so hard, I was able to be happy and sleep at night..nobody other than my missus knew I was on it neither, all just thought I was a dealer. It's a difficult cross to carry tho isn't it..
 
Hey bro, that's one hell of a story for such a young age, kudos to how you have turned your life around and moved forward.

Im sure when your new child's born it will be a great memory and life's all about the legacy we leave behind for our children, your story of where you were to where you are now is inspiring...

Stay strong keep your head above water and know what you have accomplished is something very few live to tell.
 
Thanks mate. Yeah not many people I started out with are alive now, if they are, most are locked up, some doin a life stretch, guess I dodged a few bullets hey. I gotta keep me head above water, no choice, I don't want any one of my 5 kids growing up like I did or choosing the paths I have, one of my biggest fears was my kids seeing me on the piss or off me guts on gear. Last straw was sitting down with my daughter one day and she brought up about the time I was carried into the car by a couple mates covered in blood after a fight..I felt that bad she even has a memory of that, quit drinking not long after that.
 
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