Hi i am new here..and i am in NEED OF ADVICE, please!!
Background: i have used opiates for about 20 yrs-im ashamed of that timeframe.
But anyhow I started with vicodin, percs, norco, advanced to old oxys, H-smoked & iv'd, also went on a speedball binge for a cpl yrs, iv demerol, iv morphine, dilaudid iv/pills, roxys, and for the last 4.5 yrs i was on roxy blues 4x day & started at 80 mg methadone scripted by my pm doc.
I have severe migraines to which i have used to the hilt to get lots of great meds..only problem is that in the last year or so, as you know, the damn FDA & DEA have scared the crap out of my pm doc & 95% of other docs to severely drop patient dosages of opiates or even just cut them off!! Soulless creeps!!!
I would lauch into some great curse words for them all, but im new here, so i'll try to maintain. But of course u all know what i mean.
So LONG STORY LONGER...I AM HERE SUFFERING & NEED INPUT PLEASE!!!
Last thurs, 5/19/2016, i got my methadone dose down to 20mg/day & last took it late morning..
Then bc everyone knows done w/d's are EVIL, i smartly thought i'd take a short acting opiate for 5 days then switch to the 5 Subutex 8mg pills & 2 suboxone strips (8mg) I got to ride out the remainder w/d's & jump after that so i'd avoid most of the rest of the w/d's w/o getting used to the subs.
So here i am almost a whole 7 days later since my last methadone dose & i feel horrible!!
But it wasnt supposed to go this way...bc when i stopped the done, i took 9 8mg dilaudid pills a day for 5 days, waited in hell for about 27 hrs till i was a score of 28 on the COWS scale then started taking the subutex...i broke up 2 pills into 2mg pieces bc i wanted to take the lowest dose possible. So far ive taken about 14mgs & im still hurting bad.

Im also taking kolonpin-ive taken it for cpl yrs & Xanax-I've been on 4mg/day of that for 10 years...both are barely making me feel sleepy...oh & I'm taking 600mg ibuprofen-I've taken four. Those are from my elderly mom..boy i feel great all around!!
PLEASE SOMEONE HELP ME OUT. Do i need to take some more Subutex? Maybe i need an induction of 16mgs or more?
I only have limited resources for the subs, so i want to be able to conserve. It sounds silly, but i haven't thought about my amount of drug use in a long time, and typing it here makes me feel pretty lousy. I've wasted alot of time high & chasing my high..
Oh boy here comes the depression too!!
*SIGH*