New Member needs guidence

[mixinvixen]

Hi Fellow Sub Sufferers & Recoverers,
I just signed up today. I've read lot's of posts, but never joined. I need some help! Seriously. I started using Sub in 2011. I was up to 1 8/2MG strip by 2012 and doing well. I had 4 surgeries and at one point was on 6 8/2MG's a day. I weaned down to 3 8/2MG a day and jumped off on June 19th. My MD has given me a whole host of opiates and Benzo's. In spite of taking them I'm in a world of hurt. How long is this going to last? I have another surgery on Aug 5th to fix the 3 that failed (spinal c-2 to t-8). I'm miserable and seem to get worse every day no matter how much of the other stuff I take for withdrawal. I need to make some friends and get some advice before I walk into the ocean until I'm far enough to drowned. Please again PLEASE help. Where is the glimmer of light? I know it was stupid to jump off at such a high dose. It's done and I don't want to go back on as the I'll have to wdraw again b4 my next surgery on Aug. 5. Got any ideas? TY. Your responses will be greatly appreciated! TY mixin vixen

 

[mixinvixen]

Hello Fellow Inquirers'!
I'm no techno fab so be a gentle guide. I have visited this site on many occasions. I need some help, so I joined.
I've had 4 surgeries over the last year and am looking @ number5 next month. I have been bouncing between Suboxone and an array of Benzo's with opiates since August of 2011. I've been as high as 5-8/2MG strips of Sub. I started with tiny bits of pills and was up to 8/2MG daily b4 my 1rst surgery. All of my surgeries have failed. 3 of 4 have been spinal. My MD should have his license revoked, but that's another story for another day. 3 weeks ago I jumped @ 3-8/2MG. Not my smartest drug experience. What's done is done and I don't plan on going back. Sub began working against me. I have complicated GI issues as well as spinal problems and chronic pain. My Sub MD is very sympathetic. He's provided me with goodies including controlled substances. My problem is no matter how many opiates, Benzo's etc. I take I still feel like sh_t! Can anyone advise me on how long until I feel human again? I hoping you will share your experiences, advice and friendship with me. I'm quite witty and well educated, just not techno savvy. I'm pretty much confined to my home. The internet is sometimes the only human interaction I have access to. I know there are people on here that are very witty and pretty and wise. And I pity any twitty who isn't as pretty as I. Hoping to interact with those who are willing to enlighten me and amuse me if willing
Until We Meet Again,
"The Mixin Vixen"

 

[_a_A_C_c_]

welcome to BL

i merged your thread from testing grounds with the one in new member introductions. it looks like you already found other drugs, so hopefully you are getting the help you need.

 

[bronson]

Welcome to bL. I'd highly recommend that you check out The Pain Management Mega Thread if you haven't already. If you find yourself with any questions at all about how the forums function, feel free to use the PM me link in my signature below.

 

[abzlove]

Welcome to BL. I'm new myself!

 

[MissZippy]

your doctor sounds terrible. Is he trying to give you an addiction or is he just stupid? That would be my first thing... finding a good doctor that isn't going to overmedicate you with very addictive drugs. and aren't you supposed to take 1 set dose of suboxone on a daily basis and only take the drug for a limited period of time? A lot of doctors don't stick to the time frame, but i really only know what my friend had told me about it. I am just thinking out loud right now, but I wonder if taking opiates with suboxone in your system has a negative affect on the body. Since suboxone is to treat opiate addiction, what are the consequences of taking an opiate while on the drug?? do you know? Some drugs made for addiction put you into instant withdrawl when mixed with the group of drugs it is used to treat for addiction. see what I mean? MAybe that explains feeling terrible or worse... Should read up on that.