Hey, I'm new to posting here, been lurking for a while...I posted an MDMA trip report from last weekend but my issue at the moment is more pressing.
I had a line of strong (strongest I've ever had, I'm getting at the moment) speed today (about 10mgs) despite trying to abstain for a while then compounded the mistake by taking anorther 10 or so mgs orally about an hour and a half ago. Don't get me wrong, I feel great from the speed, oh and I took roughly 125mgs of codeine from a CWE on OTC pills (Canada for you) so feeling that too.
But I think I'm developing a Benzo habit from using them to come down from my stim sessions....I always seem to get jittery, shaky, a little foggy in the brain around 4 or 5 in the afternoon and have to take a benzo to relieve this.
I first thought it was just a panic attack, which is why I am prescribed Lorazepam. But I have been taking a lot of Etizolam after sessions and Zopiclone also to sleep. It's only been a couple of weeks when I\ve taken it every day though, before then I would take 3-4 day breaks without feeling a thing.
Thing is I can take half of my 2mg Lorazepam and it'll make me feel OK for 8 hours or so so it's not like I have a giant tolerance, or at least not from what I read on here.
Question is, what do you reckon is better for me tonight? Either stay up because of the speed and if I fall asleep, great, but if not I may need to have a small line to work in the morning and then sleep it off tomorrow night, OR, do my thing now then when it's bedtime take an Etiz and Zopiclone and get my sleep in that way and then abstain from the speed for a while again?
Access to drugs isn't a problem I have lots of Lorazepam, Etiz and Zopiclone and lot of speed, just trying to be sensible about it before I get sucked too far in, which feels like it may well be happening....
Any help would be appreciated,
cheers,
Howard
I had a line of strong (strongest I've ever had, I'm getting at the moment) speed today (about 10mgs) despite trying to abstain for a while then compounded the mistake by taking anorther 10 or so mgs orally about an hour and a half ago. Don't get me wrong, I feel great from the speed, oh and I took roughly 125mgs of codeine from a CWE on OTC pills (Canada for you) so feeling that too.
But I think I'm developing a Benzo habit from using them to come down from my stim sessions....I always seem to get jittery, shaky, a little foggy in the brain around 4 or 5 in the afternoon and have to take a benzo to relieve this.
I first thought it was just a panic attack, which is why I am prescribed Lorazepam. But I have been taking a lot of Etizolam after sessions and Zopiclone also to sleep. It's only been a couple of weeks when I\ve taken it every day though, before then I would take 3-4 day breaks without feeling a thing.
Thing is I can take half of my 2mg Lorazepam and it'll make me feel OK for 8 hours or so so it's not like I have a giant tolerance, or at least not from what I read on here.
Question is, what do you reckon is better for me tonight? Either stay up because of the speed and if I fall asleep, great, but if not I may need to have a small line to work in the morning and then sleep it off tomorrow night, OR, do my thing now then when it's bedtime take an Etiz and Zopiclone and get my sleep in that way and then abstain from the speed for a while again?
Access to drugs isn't a problem I have lots of Lorazepam, Etiz and Zopiclone and lot of speed, just trying to be sensible about it before I get sucked too far in, which feels like it may well be happening....
Any help would be appreciated,
cheers,
Howard
