godzillamonster
Greenlighter
- Joined
- May 5, 2015
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I'm sick of drinking and being miserable. I've dabbled in some of the harder drugs. I've never really been a bad addict.. I don't really think it's in me. Although I've had a bad drinking problem for awhile now but it's got to the point where it's completely unenjoyable so I'm taking Antabuse. Anyhow I'm drawn to this site because most people seem to be intelligent, very knowledgeable and careful about their drug use, and from what I can tell responsible enough so they get the benefits out of drug use without all the negatives. That's what I aspire to anyways. I like drugs. Sobriety isn't for me.. but I also don't want to be some junky stealing from family or getting carried away and in rehabs. I like uppers. Unfortunately I've came to the point where adderall gives me no rush. I recently took 210 mg in a night and got no rush feeling. Really it only makes me focus real hard on usually something stupid or pointless or I just want to watch porn and jerk off for 12 hours. Not even a desire to get organized or clean from it anymore. It's disappointing. I've used meth quite a few times. I enjoy the high but ive had some bad experiences of using more than I can handle staying up for days getting super paranoid and hallucinating acting crazy and embarrassing myself with my roomates. Recently I've got into injecting although I suck horribly at it. I've had 2 good IV meth hits. The first was amazing. Except the stupid paranoia afterwards. The second I should've used all my dope instead of 3/4 but it was still a great feeling. Other times the dope sucked or I just didn't shoot enough. Opiates.. i enjoy Vicodin.. I really don't care for other painkillers much. I've shot heroine a few times. Never got much out of it except extremely itchy. I like benzos but I don't care to abuse them because I'd rather not do really stupid shit and not remember.. Learned that lesson the hard way. Marijuana is cool once in a while. I've never got into the hallucinogens although I'm definitely interested.. Except for salvia years ago... I enjoyed it until one bad trip.. And a tab and half of LSD I ruined the trip by drinking too much.
