Im not a doctor but it looks like to me like your thoughts seem to be a big chaotic and disorganized.
Everything you said is loosely related to sex and drugs but your statements seem to not really have any point with your questions of pussy or drugs.
Have you considered maybe they need try new meds i believe they put you on a inject. Maybe something could help you think more organized and structured to help you go get that pussy. Meds really helped me go from suicide and drug abuse to actually being involved with females and I can touch them and its not a dream they are really there interested in me something i couldnt do without psych meds