So I specifically joined blue light because I needed peoples opions on this subject. It happened August of 2010, but still to this day is bother me on wtf happened that night..or night(s).
I had done MDMA approx. 4 times before this evening. Only ever doing 1 capsule, I was told always containing .2
Before I start I am not a tiny girl, about 140 5'6.
Anyways, the night started out great my good friend lets call her Mindy, her boyfriend Mike, and her other friend Ned where all in the same boat as me and looking forward to a good night filled with house music, weed, some booze, and of course some mdma. I hadnt thought nothing of it as I had great m buzzes previously and all which were spaced out.
We picked up the "molly" and arrived at Mindys house. We had popped before we arrived, and it hit all of us before we got home. It was great, the buzz, the music everything. I was having a great time until 2 when Mindy and Mike offered me another m capsue containning .2 I had never pushed it to the next level, I was always satisfied to do .2 but because of such I wanted to try and hold on to my buzz. So i toke the other capsue and continued dancing on and enjoying my night.
I was sitting around her bar table when all of a sudden my head was pounding. The music hurt my head, and I ran upstairs, I felt extremely sick to my stomache and so I choose to stay in the bathroom for a bit. I told myself to relax and to not ruin the buzz so I went back downstairs with my friends. But the headache got worse and I felt awful.
Now I wish i had posted this immidetely after my trip, or had my journal where I am currently because I feel I explained it more explained but Ill try to express what I remember.
I remember going upstairs into her bathroom and puking my life out. Then I remember getting so hot that I was sweating to extremes. Mindy had industrials sized fans on me while I was in the bathroom because I was so hot. I apparently would not speak, and just lied there. I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT HAPPENED THAT NIGHT. I was unconsious it felt like and when I would wake up I felt like I wanted to die I was in so much pain (or possibly just on the wost fucking trip). I then "apparently" lied in Mindys bed, unconsiouse til the next morning, but the trip didnt end there. I would go from Mindys bed, to spare bedroom, to her moms bed. I would wake up and look at myself at the mirror and still be in hell. My head was spinning, I couldnt function and looking at myself was the scariest thing of my life. My eyes to me, (Mindy and Mike told me they werent) felt like the were bulging out of my head. I would constantly bed hop all Saturday(trip had started 2am Friday), lie on her ceramic floor in the bathrooom, lie on carpet, had no understanding of what was going on. I at one point had gotten off Mindys moms bed and unfortunatley peed myself (which they cleaned up.. amazing friends). It was now Saturday afternoon and I still had no reconizlation of what was going on , who i was, where I was, and the fact that it was no longer Friday. This is when my trip got even scariest, I at the time was 17 (now 18), had unfortunate parents and boyfriend who were freaking out on where I was. I had not texted anyone since Friday at 5 and it was now Saturday late afternoon. I dont remember anything.
Then at 8 Saturday, Mindy and Mike who had been sober since 4am Saturday morning where beginning to think I had gone retartded from the M (to this day I know I should have been hospitilzed, or my parents should have been contacted, they both apologized about this)
The one moment I do remember from the trp is Mindy screaming in my face to call my mom. I couldnt speak, I couldnt say anything. I was so scared, and this was 8pm SATURDAY NIGHT, I HAD POPPED AT 2am FRIDAY. I thought she was the devil, I wanted her to leave me alone. During this trip all I wanted was darkness, to not be so hot (hense the enourmous fan, ceramic floors), and to be left alone to fall asleep and not be in the scary world. Was passed out all night and no one had still got hold of me. Mindy had apparenly been shaking me, screaming, and beginning me to call my parents or to say something but instead I would (told by Mike) stare at her with no emotions like I was lost, or close my eyes and curl into a ball. They had thought they would let me sleep on last night and if I was still mentally retartded they would have to tell someone. Imagine that stress... I couldnt even imagne it.
My phone which had been in Mindys bed the entire trip and was still there when I had one point during Sunday morning hopped into (after laying in the spare bedroom for a couple hours, I literally changed beds every three hours). I woke up to a buzzing sound. It was my phone ringing, dazzed but somehow aware I answered it. "hello" ..."Layla are you not coming into work today?"...."What day is it"...
These are the first couple words I had said in two days, and they were to my boss. It was Sunday and I literally woke up going W T F . I got up still off my ass got ready and demanded Mike to drive me to work. There expressions were priceless. I was still tripping, the days that had just passed werent on my mind WORK was. Fortunatley my dazzed and confused worked in my benefit, and my boss thought she had scheudule me wrong, but on the phone I had managed o say Id still come in. Not showered, had peed myself the previous day, I still managed to work a 6 hour shift at my part time job.
I just re-read what I said and I just want to sum this up
-popped Friday 9pm .2
-popped again .2 at 2am
- was gone,lost,un-able to speak,over heated, puking 2am Saturday til 11am Sunday
- did not drink or smoke weed
Someone please tell me what could have been in that capsule, someone explained to me that it sounds like k.. or I could have k holed.
I have done .5 since then actually just recently and have been fine ! I know thats ballzy after what happened to me, but I was in again another safe enviorement which Im so thankful I was in a house with people I knew in August
Any input would be appricated, I really think this post does no justice on how FUCKED I was but hopefully you all get the picture... waking up Sunday after having no relization of what happened the day before with your bosses voice is not fun !!!!
I had done MDMA approx. 4 times before this evening. Only ever doing 1 capsule, I was told always containing .2
Before I start I am not a tiny girl, about 140 5'6.
Anyways, the night started out great my good friend lets call her Mindy, her boyfriend Mike, and her other friend Ned where all in the same boat as me and looking forward to a good night filled with house music, weed, some booze, and of course some mdma. I hadnt thought nothing of it as I had great m buzzes previously and all which were spaced out.
We picked up the "molly" and arrived at Mindys house. We had popped before we arrived, and it hit all of us before we got home. It was great, the buzz, the music everything. I was having a great time until 2 when Mindy and Mike offered me another m capsue containning .2 I had never pushed it to the next level, I was always satisfied to do .2 but because of such I wanted to try and hold on to my buzz. So i toke the other capsue and continued dancing on and enjoying my night.
I was sitting around her bar table when all of a sudden my head was pounding. The music hurt my head, and I ran upstairs, I felt extremely sick to my stomache and so I choose to stay in the bathroom for a bit. I told myself to relax and to not ruin the buzz so I went back downstairs with my friends. But the headache got worse and I felt awful.
Now I wish i had posted this immidetely after my trip, or had my journal where I am currently because I feel I explained it more explained but Ill try to express what I remember.
I remember going upstairs into her bathroom and puking my life out. Then I remember getting so hot that I was sweating to extremes. Mindy had industrials sized fans on me while I was in the bathroom because I was so hot. I apparently would not speak, and just lied there. I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT HAPPENED THAT NIGHT. I was unconsious it felt like and when I would wake up I felt like I wanted to die I was in so much pain (or possibly just on the wost fucking trip). I then "apparently" lied in Mindys bed, unconsiouse til the next morning, but the trip didnt end there. I would go from Mindys bed, to spare bedroom, to her moms bed. I would wake up and look at myself at the mirror and still be in hell. My head was spinning, I couldnt function and looking at myself was the scariest thing of my life. My eyes to me, (Mindy and Mike told me they werent) felt like the were bulging out of my head. I would constantly bed hop all Saturday(trip had started 2am Friday), lie on her ceramic floor in the bathrooom, lie on carpet, had no understanding of what was going on. I at one point had gotten off Mindys moms bed and unfortunatley peed myself (which they cleaned up.. amazing friends). It was now Saturday afternoon and I still had no reconizlation of what was going on , who i was, where I was, and the fact that it was no longer Friday. This is when my trip got even scariest, I at the time was 17 (now 18), had unfortunate parents and boyfriend who were freaking out on where I was. I had not texted anyone since Friday at 5 and it was now Saturday late afternoon. I dont remember anything.
Then at 8 Saturday, Mindy and Mike who had been sober since 4am Saturday morning where beginning to think I had gone retartded from the M (to this day I know I should have been hospitilzed, or my parents should have been contacted, they both apologized about this)
The one moment I do remember from the trp is Mindy screaming in my face to call my mom. I couldnt speak, I couldnt say anything. I was so scared, and this was 8pm SATURDAY NIGHT, I HAD POPPED AT 2am FRIDAY. I thought she was the devil, I wanted her to leave me alone. During this trip all I wanted was darkness, to not be so hot (hense the enourmous fan, ceramic floors), and to be left alone to fall asleep and not be in the scary world. Was passed out all night and no one had still got hold of me. Mindy had apparenly been shaking me, screaming, and beginning me to call my parents or to say something but instead I would (told by Mike) stare at her with no emotions like I was lost, or close my eyes and curl into a ball. They had thought they would let me sleep on last night and if I was still mentally retartded they would have to tell someone. Imagine that stress... I couldnt even imagne it.
My phone which had been in Mindys bed the entire trip and was still there when I had one point during Sunday morning hopped into (after laying in the spare bedroom for a couple hours, I literally changed beds every three hours). I woke up to a buzzing sound. It was my phone ringing, dazzed but somehow aware I answered it. "hello" ..."Layla are you not coming into work today?"...."What day is it"...
These are the first couple words I had said in two days, and they were to my boss. It was Sunday and I literally woke up going W T F . I got up still off my ass got ready and demanded Mike to drive me to work. There expressions were priceless. I was still tripping, the days that had just passed werent on my mind WORK was. Fortunatley my dazzed and confused worked in my benefit, and my boss thought she had scheudule me wrong, but on the phone I had managed o say Id still come in. Not showered, had peed myself the previous day, I still managed to work a 6 hour shift at my part time job.
I just re-read what I said and I just want to sum this up
-popped Friday 9pm .2
-popped again .2 at 2am
- was gone,lost,un-able to speak,over heated, puking 2am Saturday til 11am Sunday
- did not drink or smoke weed
Someone please tell me what could have been in that capsule, someone explained to me that it sounds like k.. or I could have k holed.
I have done .5 since then actually just recently and have been fine ! I know thats ballzy after what happened to me, but I was in again another safe enviorement which Im so thankful I was in a house with people I knew in August
Any input would be appricated, I really think this post does no justice on how FUCKED I was but hopefully you all get the picture... waking up Sunday after having no relization of what happened the day before with your bosses voice is not fun !!!!
