l started using crack 1 year ago.. I suffer from depression and stopped my meds and discovered crack. I hid it from my lover who is married and has 20 years clean.. long story short.. when he finally made me confess I was using I was met with understanding and told I will stop in hrn in ready.. then he asked if he could smoke with me for his birthday.. I was scared and confused and said yes.. that's another story.. I'm not sure how to feel..I feel so guilty for saying yes.. I feel used for an excuse to get high.. does have really love me..?
