cj
Bluelight Crew
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- Nov 18, 2008
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Thanks so much TPD for your encourangement! The pain, just the fucking unbearable pain, pain. No cravings or anything but Im really tired of being in pain 24/7 since 7 years ago do to medical malpractice...It sucks really and the only meds that works, even tough sometimes it does'nt, are the opiates. When I went under the knife for cancer, they touched nerves they shouln't never never have touched, they left me paralised and in so much pain, not just to say that I almost bleeded to death after the second surgery...Ive tried so hard to help myself with my recovery without any help from the medical fields, until I gave in and 2 years ago I started with opiates. I was ok for a few months and then I started to used it not as prescribed...I know I have to stop cause I cant control myself. Maybe I just have to accept that the pain will be "my friend" forever and thats it. Dont know what to do really... I use to be in top shape, running marathons and doing triatlons and surfing and loads of power yoga. Im so fed up. Cant even pick up my kids or play with them...Life sucks
There is no shame in needing opiates when your in chronic pain. Are you abusing the opiates because your not getting relief from the prescribed dose? Or do you just want to get high? If you just want to get high then hopefully you live in a medical pot state that way you can have your opiates for pain and your pot for getting high. Just a thought. No one should live in unbearable pain.