TDS *Need Help* Lopermide Abuse *Repost*

[Tevlok]

Hello, I am 25 years old served in the US Army and made it back home. I went through alot of things and addictions but im at a point in my life where I don't want to go through another moment of this torture.

I started off with pain pills, went from 1 pill a day to 20-30 7.5 MGs daily. After I couldn't get pills anymore I went to Poppy seeds and actual Poppy's where I would order off the internet. About a year and a half ago I had enough of it all so I read about Imodium AKA Lopermide. So I took 14 pills 2mg each pill and it completely took away all my w/d and I felt normal again. Being a addict and having 0 willpower since this all started I now sit at taking 3 bottles each with 72 pills in a bottle daily!!!! I am dying, my body is dying. I have spent the past month trying to get off and I can't. I went 4 days without them and by that time I felt my liver shutting down every possible withdraw effect I had while going through withdraw from Poppy's and pain pills I not only had but it was tripled. The mental withdraw is out of control and I often consider doing off with myself. I can't tell any of this to my family because they don't understand. I went to them for help, I was told it's all in my head that I just need to suck it up and be over with it. ANYONE who has gone through this with any Opiate will say easier said then done. I will steal, I will lie, Does not matter from who but I will do whatever I need just for that fix for the day. My life is a living hell, I have been homeless. I have been divorced. I have seen shit in the army that fucked me up for the rest of my life. So I come here today to ask for help. I don't know where else to go or turn to but im at my limit and these few days coming up could be my very last.
Today I thought it was all going to be over. That I finally found a way to fight this. I went to the Suboxone doctor.. I told him the complete truth And how much and how long I have taken Lopermide AKA Anti Diarrhea pills. I told him of my addictive personality and if I can't go on something that will help the craving I wont be able to get off them. I just don't have the willpower anymore. The doctor says this.. I have good new and bad news. The good new is im not going to charge you for your visit. The bad news is I called around and it's not supposed to pass the BBB and if I give you Suboxone it wont do anything for you since it doesn't attach to the same receptors. This is complete BULLSHIT. I don't care how much study you do on this drug Its a Opiate. I go through ALL the withdraws but it's much more intense. Back to the doctor. He said he can't give me it and he asked well what if I just give it to him? What if I preform my own study about the drug because we have never seen this before? The other doctor says the DA will have his ass.. I respect this doctor and Im not pissed off at him. I pissed off at the people who said this drug was ok, That it's impossible to get addicted to, that it's all in my head. What im feeling isn't in my head. I made it through war and back With PTSD but I came out ok. I didn't break when I see people killed in combat or had to do some brutal things myself. But this.. this fucking drug broke me down to my very core. I don't have money, I can't hold a job because the withdraws are so bad. I am a nobody in this life and it's something I came to understand is my fault. If you ever plan on taking this drug to help you.. Don't fucking take it for more then you need it. Fuck what people say about it not being able to be abused to addictive because it doesn't pass the BBB God made everyone diffrent.. Could it be possible that it get's through to some people? Especially when taking the amount I am? Hell YES it is.

Once again I say.. I need help. I need to know what to do You guys are the last group of people I have to turn to..
Thank you all for even reading this, And I hope everyone can get through the hell that has been given to them in the form of drugs.

 

[bukweat]

Welcome home man. Been there, done that. Do you think you could do a slow-taper? Try reducing your dose by 2 or 3 pills a week until you can jump off. Get to a V A hsptl.(they have clinics in rural areas too).Call the V F W or American Legion or the D A V..Some or all of them will help you. Dis a V A rep talk with you when you got back in country. They damn well should have. There are Vets who care but you will have to get the ball rolling.
I'm just now tapering off of my suboxone after 20 months It will help Don.t give up and don't self isolate. Someone will help but you got to reach out

 

[Tevlok]

Lopermide addiction.

Yeah, it's what I have been trying to do. My first time reaching out to a doctor WHich was a Suboxone doc didn't turn out to well for me. So my next step is I have a family Doc appt Thursday and I hope there is more they can do for me.
As for a slow taper, It's def possible. But I would need to do it quicker. I don't have the funds to keep this habit up and I think even if decreasing it 3 pills daily It would still be effective. I don't get high off these things. I take them to feel normal. It's such a crazy addiction it's hard to actually reach out to anyone for it.

 

[bukweat]

:DHang in there. If you can get ahold of the V A try online at myhealthyvet or the VA website . Don't give up theres help somewhere I've been on subs and am tapering off. I've taken lope for stomach be. Not to your extent but thats ok too. Hang in there don'give up.ro

 

[ArtVandalay]

My suboxone doc didn't know about poppy pod tea. I just told them the equivalant dose of methadone I needed to stay well. That worked. Go to a different sub doc and tell them your addicted to opiates, not specifically loperamide.

 

[T. Calderone]

Tevlok are you still taking three bottles of 72 tablets every day? No wonder you feel so sick, that's a ton of loperamide. I started to post in your other thread but noticed it was moved here. I was prescribed suboxone coming off oxys a few years back. Truthfully, it didn't help my cravings but did prevent me from being sick.

I know you must be terrified, especially you mentioned you felt your liver hurting. I would go to a hospital, it doesn't have to be a V.A. hospital but I'm concerned for your physical health and mental well-being. There has got to be a way for them to detox you off these pills safely. Also they may want to do bloodwork or an ultrasound.

I didn't catch this sorry, how long have you been taking this dosage? Did your doctor perform any labs? I really don't see suboxone as a cure for this because you will eventually want to come off that as well putting you back to square one. You deserve to get your life back! Please get help.

 

[dseptshun]

Wow thats kind of scary to hear, 3 72ct bottles a day, crazy, i was on 103mg/metdne daily and could no longer pay so they wouldnt dose me, my last dose was last thursday, 6 days, last friday i made the mistake of trying to eat a piece of sub and was thrown into intense wds, i crawled to the pharm and got some lope, ate 60mg rite away and an hour later felt fine, im tapering off the lope now still taking about 60mg total daily, but so far has curbed 90% of wds, OP y dont u get a few percs or oxys or somethomg so youll piss dirty for the sub dr and tell them your addicted to them instead of lope

 

[Tommyboy]

Have you considered going into a detox facility? I know you said your family doesn't know but if you are suicidal then it's better to be alive and them know than be dead and then have them likely find out then.

Whether you try a detox facility or another doctor, I agree that you should take some other opiate for a few days and tell them you were on that all this time instead of loperamide. You should also get some bloodwork done since you may have damaged your liver if you were taking 20-30 Vicodin pills a day without performing a cold water extraction on them.

 

[oxide249]

I could have written that story myself. just like you I was addicted to three bottles of 72 also. i know the withdrawls are very very hard. your dr. is wrong. i used suboxone to break my addiction. i used the v.a. let me know how to get in touch with you.

 

[cj]

My suboxone doc didn't know about poppy pod tea. I just told them the equivalant dose of methadone I needed to stay well. That worked. Go to a different sub doc and tell them your addicted to opiates, not specifically loperamide.

This just lie and say your hooked on hydrocodone. Most these docs just want money and wont ask more questions than they have too.