BlueEyesAL
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- Aug 19, 2013
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Hi all, I have been to this site often but have only posted a few times ever. Anyways I'm going to tell my story in as short of a way as possible and then tell you what I want to do and what I need help or advice with.
I was in a very bad car wreck 3 yrs ago which broke almost every bone from my neck down. After being on the pain pump (dilaudid) for 4 months in a hospital bed and then having to go to pain management and being given more Dilaudid, Fentanyl, Oxy, even Methadone, I ended up addicted without ever taking it for anything other than severe pain. Well once I realized that snorting it could numb my emotions and life situations that became the daily habit. My tolerance grew so high that I was spending thousands of dollars a month to supplement my RX. Dose was up around 350mg total on the higher days. Well I finally said enough is enough and got ahold of a few suboxone strips and I took them for 4 days. I didn't like how I felt on them but I'm sure that's due to the huge change. I ran out of the subs and went back to oxy but this time was able to take much much less (like 50mg a day) and feel fine everyday without the need to take more. Well, my dad has always been my rock and support and he had to go out of the state for business for over a month and during that time I hung out with a "friend" almost daily,who had started injecting his meds,I had never done that before. I gave in once because I had a horrid day and was so stressed I was just desparate to feel good. That was a BAD mistake. It led to daily shots, and my tolerance sky rocketed again quickly and I'm now back up to about 150mg yet the nasal route doesn't even give me relief anymore, and I can't do my own shots so I am dependent on him to do them for me. I am so mad and disgusted i let this happen. Anyways, I want to go the sub route again and got ahold of about 4 8mg and 2 16mg. I only want to take them a week or less. My questions are: 1) do you think 20 hrs is long enough to wait since the last dose before taking the first dose of sub? Last time 24 hrs was just almost unbearable. 3 people I know don't even wait the whole 24 hr deal,they just take the sub in the morning when they start feeling WDs. Of course with my luck taking it that soon would make me sick. My other question is,should I split up my dose into a few tiny ones throughout the day? I have been told to take 4mg the first day but then have read otherwise. My goal here is to lower tolerance but NOT have withdrawals or feel like crap everyday. I understand I might have RLS or insomnia while adjusting, but I don't sleep anyways without huge amounts of sleeping meds and benzos. Thanks in advance for any response to my questions
I was in a very bad car wreck 3 yrs ago which broke almost every bone from my neck down. After being on the pain pump (dilaudid) for 4 months in a hospital bed and then having to go to pain management and being given more Dilaudid, Fentanyl, Oxy, even Methadone, I ended up addicted without ever taking it for anything other than severe pain. Well once I realized that snorting it could numb my emotions and life situations that became the daily habit. My tolerance grew so high that I was spending thousands of dollars a month to supplement my RX. Dose was up around 350mg total on the higher days. Well I finally said enough is enough and got ahold of a few suboxone strips and I took them for 4 days. I didn't like how I felt on them but I'm sure that's due to the huge change. I ran out of the subs and went back to oxy but this time was able to take much much less (like 50mg a day) and feel fine everyday without the need to take more. Well, my dad has always been my rock and support and he had to go out of the state for business for over a month and during that time I hung out with a "friend" almost daily,who had started injecting his meds,I had never done that before. I gave in once because I had a horrid day and was so stressed I was just desparate to feel good. That was a BAD mistake. It led to daily shots, and my tolerance sky rocketed again quickly and I'm now back up to about 150mg yet the nasal route doesn't even give me relief anymore, and I can't do my own shots so I am dependent on him to do them for me. I am so mad and disgusted i let this happen. Anyways, I want to go the sub route again and got ahold of about 4 8mg and 2 16mg. I only want to take them a week or less. My questions are: 1) do you think 20 hrs is long enough to wait since the last dose before taking the first dose of sub? Last time 24 hrs was just almost unbearable. 3 people I know don't even wait the whole 24 hr deal,they just take the sub in the morning when they start feeling WDs. Of course with my luck taking it that soon would make me sick. My other question is,should I split up my dose into a few tiny ones throughout the day? I have been told to take 4mg the first day but then have read otherwise. My goal here is to lower tolerance but NOT have withdrawals or feel like crap everyday. I understand I might have RLS or insomnia while adjusting, but I don't sleep anyways without huge amounts of sleeping meds and benzos. Thanks in advance for any response to my questions
