diver
Bluelighter
I've been on pills for several years, probably eight.
At the peak, I was doing about 120 - 16mg of oxy or the equivalent. For a while I switched to fent.
I decided that I needed to stop using or switch to Heroin, cause the cost of pharms was getting too high.
So I heard about Kratom and that was working pretty well for me, but now finding Kratom is ridiculous, so I've gone back to pills again... Not a good thing.
I finally admitted to myself that I'm depressed, and I was using pills as an antidepressant. I feel energetic and motivated when I'm on pills, even in small doses.
Sometimes I'll be clean for a few days and it's bad. Even though I'm only doing about 30mg/day, coming off completely sucks. My concentration is very poor and all the usual symptoms of going clean. It isn't as bad as going cold turkey from a big habit, obviously.
Anyhow, my doc wants to put me on antidepressants. I've tried a few, and nothing does for me what opioids do, so I kep going back to opioids just so I can function.
I don't want to tell my doc that I'm hooked on pills cause it could screw things up for me to have that on my record, otherwise I'd love to be taking methadone.
The thing I'm mainly wondering is if there's an antidepressant that works ok on the same receptors in the brain that would as opioids?
I'm more interested in remaining functional and motivated. I can't seem to find that motivation anywhere within myself without the help of some chemicals.
BTW so far i've tried Lexapro. Currently I'm on mirtazipine, which helps me sleep, and that's a good thing, but that's all it does for me. The doc is also trying out Welbutrin on me now too.
Any ideas - Thanks
Maybe i should find out how much it would screw things up for me if I just told the doc I'm a junkie and I want methadone.
At the peak, I was doing about 120 - 16mg of oxy or the equivalent. For a while I switched to fent.
I decided that I needed to stop using or switch to Heroin, cause the cost of pharms was getting too high.
So I heard about Kratom and that was working pretty well for me, but now finding Kratom is ridiculous, so I've gone back to pills again... Not a good thing.
I finally admitted to myself that I'm depressed, and I was using pills as an antidepressant. I feel energetic and motivated when I'm on pills, even in small doses.
Sometimes I'll be clean for a few days and it's bad. Even though I'm only doing about 30mg/day, coming off completely sucks. My concentration is very poor and all the usual symptoms of going clean. It isn't as bad as going cold turkey from a big habit, obviously.
Anyhow, my doc wants to put me on antidepressants. I've tried a few, and nothing does for me what opioids do, so I kep going back to opioids just so I can function.
I don't want to tell my doc that I'm hooked on pills cause it could screw things up for me to have that on my record, otherwise I'd love to be taking methadone.
The thing I'm mainly wondering is if there's an antidepressant that works ok on the same receptors in the brain that would as opioids?
I'm more interested in remaining functional and motivated. I can't seem to find that motivation anywhere within myself without the help of some chemicals.
BTW so far i've tried Lexapro. Currently I'm on mirtazipine, which helps me sleep, and that's a good thing, but that's all it does for me. The doc is also trying out Welbutrin on me now too.
Any ideas - Thanks
Maybe i should find out how much it would screw things up for me if I just told the doc I'm a junkie and I want methadone.