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My clinic is so fuckin lax with urine tests. If youre good to them and earn their trust theyll be cool with you, like one time there was a long line for the bathroom and i was gunna be late for school so i was like ive had cleans since july please i cant wait i will comenin tomorrow or after class if need be and the nurse told me just test when i come back in. Or you can request to test whenever you want, if its before the computer picks your name. Like id always like to test the first week of the month and so id ask "hey i have tine today mind if i test to get it outta the way?" And theyre cool w that, but like i said not everyone can pull that.

Tests are also lax too. Go in the bathroom, pee, and come out and put it in box ready for the lab to pick up in the afternoon. Easy for people to cheat the system because they dont check the temp. Also, benzos and weed arent considered a dirty.

I didnt even had any idea i was getting fourteen. Last week my counselor was like hey we need your spring school schedule can you bring in next week? I was like sure, just thought was routine paperwork. So i brought in today and shes like so now i have this we can start you on 14 starting next week, its too late to put in order today. Im like nah you got me confused w someone else. And she said no thats why i asked you to bring me your updated school schedule (they need to provide the state w a reason why you should be granted takehomes: school/work look really good. If youre unemployed they think well why cant they just come in everyday/week??)

So it was a pleasant surprise. Ive been there since Feb 2013, only been givin cleans since july 13 though. I hate getting stuck behind the people in line at the window who have a million take homes though. Muahah now Im that person.
 
I use the term hater to describe anyone who is not in the position he or she thinks they should be in life and constantly belittles anyone they consider to be in a better position than them out of jealousy.

since I have been on methadone I have grown into someone who takes great pride in my appearance. I get a haircut every week. I refuse to leave the house without ironing my shirt first. I always want to look my best because quite honestly I fucking love the attention I get. Negative and positive alike. Anyway there is a manager at work he is 38 and lives with his fucking mother. This guy is on salary and probably makes 3x what I do and loved with his mother. Not only that but he had been hitting on the chick I am now talking to. Every time I go into work to get my check or get some food . This man always has to make a comment. He either has to make a comment about the color (I have a real nice pink polo shit that I fucking love) or design. Imts always SOMETHING. That's when I use the term hater. Just a negative person really. Anyone who sees someone doing good and reacts in a negative manner. I don't mind them at all. Means I'm doing something right
 
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the difference is your not calling people out as being haters as a way to get attention to yourself. In your case it sounds like this dude genuinely has some kind of hang up and he tries to point out your flaws to make him feel better about his situation. Maybe I'm splitting hairs.. haha
 
I'd rock the pink polo..... I have a pink/baby blue/navy blue Levis flannel pattern shirt I rock w/o Pause or hesitation. Just gotta walk like you own it.... Anyways,I fuggered off and did dope all weekend into Monday. Now my month of sobriety means almost shit all and I am worse for wares tonight. I am actually not that sick but when you haven't been sick in a while and it hits it feels exponentially worse. Not to mention the guilt and rekindling of that psychological dragon. Fuck this shit..... I don't want to be a life time addict.

It was so easy to stay clean when I was on methadone. I never even thought about dope. I would hit all the meetings. I thought I was making progress. I got my life in order.... Great job, hot mamasita, the house, flat screen T.V, golf, matching leisure wear and all that trainspotting live life monologue bullshit. I even thought I had worked out all the reasons I used and had all the tools to stay clean. Then I got off methadone and once those opiates were cleaned from my receptors everything went out the window. I was almost immediately at square one. The cravings hit harder than ever and after being secure for so long I was ill equipped to deal with it. It's almost as if everything I did while on methadone didn't mean a thing.

Now it is once again a daily struggle and I'll be damned if I am going to go down the junkie road again. I am not a methadone hater (although I will say that even with tapering methadone withdrawal is not fun) but I want to give a warning to those on methadone....... when your opiate receptors are saturated it is easy to stay sober but be prepared for when the chord is ripped because that is when the real challenge starts. I love all my fellow junkies and I only wish the best. Much love to all my fellow addicts....... Somni, on the kick again for the umptienth time.
 
^ I have come to realize that I will probably be on methadone for life because I have done the dance you speak of too many times only to be right back to square one again.
 
Me too bro..... This is getting ridiculous. On/off, on/off, it is like a never ending merry go round. I wasn't happy on methadone because after being on it for so long I started to get the methadone bends but now that I am off the problems start again. It's like methadone made me depressed after being on it for so long but now that I am off I have more anxiety which leads to a depression of a different kind.
 
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Me too bro..... This is getting ridiculous. On/off, on/off, it is like a never ending merry go round. I wasn't happy on methadone because after being on it for so long I started to get the methadone bends but now that I am off the problems start again. It's like methadone made me depressed after being on it for so long but now that I am off I have more anxiety which leads to a depression of a different kind.
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I think people like us are just destined to be fucked up no matter what we do.

Of course I'm posting this while sitting in the parking lot waiting for the clinic to open.
 
T. Calderone said:
Good news, the barbeque birds reached fledgling status! Yesterday, three of them flew off but I was worried because the smaller one was left behind. But the mother came back and showed it what to do today. I sort of enjoyed watching them but it's good they're gone. :)
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They must have sensed that you wanted to grill something and they didn't want to be the main course with baby birdies as desert.
 
meh, i guess some people are still caught up on dudes wearing pink. doesnt bother me at all. i actually have 3 shirts with pink in them. one all pink polo, and two others (one brookes brother and one JCpenny shirt) with pink included in the plaid. i love all 3 of them and wear them all the time. could give a fuck what other people think. i love those shirts. in related news i found 3 nice shirts at the salvation army yesterday (2 polo and 1 brookes brothers) you would be surprised the number of nice mens shirts people throw away. 3 shirts that were probably northward of $70 brand new and no holes or anything i got for $12 all together. fun stuff.
 
RecklessWOT said:
You wear a pink polo?

Homo.




(does that make me a hater?)
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Johnny blue said:
Haha
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TERRIBLY sorry i now take pride in my appearance and happen to feel comfortable wearing a color you clowns deem not manly enough for your wardrobe.


recky, im willing to bet the majority of your wardrobe is fucking carhartt clothing and stained denim. dressing up for you is puting on a frayed and torn up snap back hat that has a "I SUCK DICK FOR CHEAP BEER" patch on it.
 
somnilicious said:
Now it is once again a daily struggle and I'll be damned if I am going to go down the junkie road again. I am not a methadone hater (although I will say that even with tapering methadone withdrawal is not fun) but I want to give a warning to those on methadone....... when your opiate receptors are saturated it is easy to stay sober but be prepared for when the chord is ripped because that is when the real challenge starts. I love all my fellow junkies and I only wish the best. Much love to all my fellow addicts....... Somni, on the kick again for the umptienth time.
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yeah, this may sound sad, or fucked up or whatever but i honestly never plan on having my opiate receptors empty...not really for the fact that my brain is hardwired to be a junky but because i refuse to let anyone for any reason stop me from getting the pain relief i believe every human is entitled to. i know i have told yall this before but as soon as i get comfortable enough to take my methadone without having to walk into a clinic daily i plan on going to my family doctor with a years worth of clean screens and seeing if he will write me for methadone. i understand to a certain degree where they would be frightened to give me methadone when i was a mainlining H and dilaudid but i would be dumb founded if i prove to them i can stay away from dope and my doctor would still rather me pay $400 a month for something i should be able to get with no problems from any doctor with the ability to write narcotics. with my health problems ON RECORD FOR YEARS the DEA couldnt say a god damn thing about a doctor prescribing me 50mg of methadone a day.
 
MemphisX3 said:
TERRIBLY sorry i now take pride in my appearance and happen to feel comfortable wearing a color you clowns deem not manly enough for your wardrobe.


recky, im willing to bet the majority of your wardrobe is fucking carhartt clothing and stained denim. dressing up for you is puting on a frayed and torn up snap back hat that has a "I SUCK DICK FOR CHEAP BEER" patch on it.
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lulz
 
MemphisX3 said:
yeah, this may sound sad, or fucked up or whatever but i honestly never plan on having my opiate receptors empty...not really for the fact that my brain is hardwired to be a junky but because i refuse to let anyone for any reason stop me from getting the pain relief i believe every human is entitled to. i know i have told yall this before but as soon as i get comfortable enough to take my methadone without having to walk into a clinic daily i plan on going to my family doctor with a years worth of clean screens and seeing if he will write me for methadone. i understand to a certain degree where they would be frightened to give me methadone when i was a mainlining H and dilaudid but i would be dumb founded if i prove to them i can stay away from dope and my doctor would still rather me pay $400 a month for something i should be able to get with no problems from any doctor with the ability to write narcotics. with my health problems ON RECORD FOR YEARS the DEA couldnt say a god damn thing about a doctor prescribing me 50mg of methadone a day.
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Good luck memph and I am not being sarcastic.. I hope your doc will write the script. I was on the clinic for four years paying over $400 when a friend turned me on to a doctor that would write me a script with nothing but my clinic transcripts. I went from paying $400 a month to only paying $140. The savings really helped my pocket and current situation.
 
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