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That's good management really to bring you in and have that talk. You had brought that up and it was some time ago. One manager busting your balls when it happened and maybe bringing it up in your review is to be expected. Harping on you constantly and still giving you shit is just bad managing and unprofessional.
 
MemphisX3 said:
i dont know if i told yall, and if i didnt im not going to get deep into it, but bottom line is i took some xanax and went to work (the restaurant) and got sent home. well they didnt let me work for like 5 days and even when i came back they were giving me a hard time about it. its been a month now and i havent had one fuck up minor or major since but one manager still gives me shit but yesterday i worked a double and i was at my whit's end and just went the fuck off on him and told him you know i got problems with demons like everybody else and its a constant every day battle and you know what? sometimes i lose and when that happens the only thing i can do is pray i didnt create consequences i cant deal with and move the fuck on but when i have assholes like you in my life that feel the need to constantly bring up my short comings it makes it extremely difficult....didnt know it but the GM was standing right behind me and the other manager just started laughing, GM called me into the office. i was pretty certain that was my job because by that time i was raising my voice and pretty much cursing him. to my surprise my GM just told me he knew what i was going thru and he knows that I am trying and that he didnt want me to get frustrated at people that were giving me shit and just keep doing what im doing and that he would say something to anyone he heard commenting about it. it made me feel really good that someone actually notices the progress im making and that im actually trying to better myself instead of the usual of people just trying to belittle you about it. also that i am that kind of worker, that i can go off on a manager and my GM will tell me good job and that he has my back
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Man memph thats the type of story that gives me some hope sometimes. I've done the same type of shit and it never ended that well for me. But it sounds like you got into the problem and really said what you were feeling. I usually didnt take it that well lol.
 
MMT said:
^ Sounds like someone's paying attention in counseling. And that's a good thing. Question tho. How does this board help/hurt those goals?
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BL can be a positive or a negative in recovery.. it all depends on how you use it and where you are at a given point. For me, it helps with my recovery, as helping other people makes me feel good and makes me feel like I'm making a difference. Plenty of people have had to take breaks from BL though, me included, if it starts to become more of a trigger and a negative than a positive.. which it can. Sometimes it's hard to read about people getting high and shit all the time, etc, but like I said it all depends on your outlook.

I'm at the point where I want to be clean with every fiber of my being. I'm just over it, man. So reading about people doing dope and shit doesn't bother me. The people I help on this board, in OD and all across BL, are a motivation and something that helps me stay clean. It may not be that way for others, and that's fine. It hasn't always been that way for me here either. I've taken many breaks from BL over the years. But for right now, it is a positive aspect in my life.
 
Welderman said:
I have been a junkie so long I never thought I would live this long. I had someone ask me the other day where I want to be in 5years and 10 years. I have been in a dead end relationship and broke for so long now that I'm clean I don't know what I want out of life. For some reason it's is bothering me. Does anyone else have this dilemma?
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I feel the same way as I did back when I was a teenager & somebody asked me that question.... ; "I don't fuckin' know. Probably dead, or famous. Whichever comes first.."
Some guy in the movie industry gave me his business card not too long ago, apparently he's a talent evaluator.. Asked if I had a job, told him no.. said to give him a call.. I never did give him a call.. Maybe I should..
Alls I know, if I had money like a rockstar, I wouldn't be here much more than a weeks time. I think that's probably why I never went forward with it..
 
MemphisX3 said:
i dont know if i told yall, and if i didnt im not going to get deep into it, but bottom line is i took some xanax and went to work (the restaurant) and got sent home. well they didnt let me work for like 5 days and even when i came back they were giving me a hard time about it. its been a month now and i havent had one fuck up minor or major since but one manager still gives me shit but yesterday i worked a double and i was at my whit's end and just went the fuck off on him and told him you know i got problems with demons like everybody else and its a constant every day battle and you know what? sometimes i lose and when that happens the only thing i can do is pray i didnt create consequences i cant deal with and move the fuck on but when i have assholes like you in my life that feel the need to constantly bring up my short comings it makes it extremely difficult....didnt know it but the GM was standing right behind me and the other manager just started laughing, GM called me into the office. i was pretty certain that was my job because by that time i was raising my voice and pretty much cursing him. to my surprise my GM just told me he knew what i was going thru and he knows that I am trying and that he didnt want me to get frustrated at people that were giving me shit and just keep doing what im doing and that he would say something to anyone he heard commenting about it. it made me feel really good that someone actually notices the progress im making and that im actually trying to better myself instead of the usual of people just trying to belittle you about it. also that i am that kind of worker, that i can go off on a manager and my GM will tell me good job and that he has my back
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Just keep up the good fight man. Hopefully that guy will get what's coming to him.
 
Morning ladies and gents.

NASADD SoD Joy Division - digital

[video=youtube_share;wCGBPiN9BTE]http://youtu.be/wCGBPiN9BTE[/video]

Words
NSFW:
Feel it closing in,
Feel it closing in,
The fear of whom I call,
Every time I call
I feel it closing in,
I feel it closing in,
Day in, day out,
Day in, day out...

I feel it closing in,
As patterns seem to form.
I feel it cold and warm.
The shadows start to fall.
I feel it closing in,
I feel it closing in,
Day in, day out,
Day in, day out...

I'd have the world around,
To see just whatever happens,
Stood by the door alone,
And then it's fade away,
I see you fade away.
Don't ever fade away.
I need you here today.
Don't ever fade away.
Don't ever fade away...
 
Eveleivibe said:
Hiya everyone.

Is this the main thread. Like Gibberings is in EADD? I need some fun.

Talk people! 'Tis Evey - good to meet you all.

Evey
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Good to meet you too. Watch out around here there are some real dangerous folk up in here. They totally disregard the directions on their orange juice container and throw the straw out and drink right from the carton. There is also a bunch of heathen junkies too. There is one guy in the jersey thread who is the greatest internet poster of all time. I think he said he won awards for his greatness on the internet.
 
You guys DRINK the orange juice? I back load it into a 3cc syringe and shoot it into my jugular. Never knew i was associating with a bunch of pussies.
 
Mr.Scagnattie said:
BL can be a positive or a negative in recovery.. it all depends on how you use it and where you are at a given point. For me, it helps with my recovery, as helping other people makes me feel good and makes me feel like I'm making a difference. Plenty of people have had to take breaks from BL though, me included, if it starts to become more of a trigger and a negative than a positive.. which it can. Sometimes it's hard to read about people getting high and shit all the time, etc, but like I said it all depends on your outlook.

I'm at the point where I want to be clean with every fiber of my being. I'm just over it, man. So reading about people doing dope and shit doesn't bother me. The people I help on this board, in OD and all across BL, are a motivation and something that helps me stay clean. It may not be that way for others, and that's fine. It hasn't always been that way for me here either. I've taken many breaks from BL over the years. But for right now, it is a positive aspect in my life.
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Qft

Everyone in this thread woukd probably agree.



At times i couldnt come on BL because i knew it was a trigger, but then at times its the quickest way to get your rocks off when you enjoy helping peiple and giving them worth while advice.
 
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Exactly. I've had to take many breaks over the years. But for the past 2 years or so, It's been a pretty steady positive force for me. However, if it ever starts to become negative again, then I'll just have to step away. That's just how it goes, ya know? Many a long time members have been in and out over the years, as you know having been here as long as we have.
 
Welderman said:
Good to meet you too. Watch out around here there are some real dangerous folk up in here. They totally disregard the directions on their orange juice container and throw the straw out and drink right from the carton. There is also a bunch of heathen junkies too. There is one guy in the jersey thread who is the greatest internet poster of all time. I think he said he won awards for his greatness on the internet.
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OooooooooooKayyyyyy lol

Evey
 
i dont care what you guys think about the music i post


NSADSADSADA SOTD: Don Trip-Lawyer
NSFW:

Say we got bows in the living room, white on the stove
A couple thousand beans, no rice for 'em though
Got a house full of straps and niggas runnin patrol
We got one on the porch, got one at the door
Got kids in the back room, about 3 or 4
They mama ain't here, we sent the bitch to the store
We needed bags for the green, and razor blades for the blow
And rubber bands for the money, oh and tissue and soap
Trap house jumpin off the hinges for the dope
And the nigga on the porch is on the phone (oh shit...)
So he ain't catch the narcs pullin up like he was 'posed (OH SHIT)
'Fore he could send the word they already in the door (DAMN)
Boy it's pure chaos, runnin the back doors
Tryin to flush a whole sack of soft down the commode
And that's a no-no, they laid us all face down on the floor
And half these niggas ain't even old enough to vote
Let me speak to my lawyer

[Hook]
Let me speak to my lawyer (4x)

Back seat of the squad car
Gettin read all the shit I'm being charged for
They just shut a nigga down like garage doors
They found enough firepower to start a small war
We can't blame society, it's all our fault
This is where niggas start snitchin to cut they time off
They keep searching the house and finding more and more
They taking the girl kids away, we can't do nothing for her
They busting walls open, cutting up sofas and mattresses
Just to find out where all the cash is hid
I don't know shit about shit, so don't ask me shit
We knew the risks yet we still couldn't imagine this
Every nigga in the house pumpin packages
And now we all gettin' charged like batteries
You think I'm giving niggas up, it ain't happening
Be grateful I even let you niggas capture me
Let me speak to my lawyer
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just got my haircut. i have the whole day to myself, off at both jobs. gonna go to the mall and cop a new outfit and then im going to take a nap and then wake up and begin smoking, might start drinking and eventually i plan to make my way downtown....Memphis In May starts tomorrow so it should be pretty busy downtown tonight.
 
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