RecklessWOT
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Is this the same Baybe just a new username? Or is this just another one of the extremely bored memphis alt accounts?
If it is you, what's up? Been a long time, how are you?
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Is this the same Baybe just a new username? Or is this just another one of the extremely bored memphis alt accounts?
If it is you, what's up? Been a long time, how are you? 
sarcophagus.heels
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I wonder how the writers of the show are gonna handle it when they catch up with the books. I know George R R Martin is involved with writing the show as well, but I wonder if they'll just have to make up their own ending. There's no way that guy's getting the last two books out in time.Fuck you bitch. I don't have time to use my real much less an alt
One day I'm going to become a mod just so I can get my name to bill brasky then I'm going to resign
Been fucking up big time. Benzo binge, nearly lost my job. They didn't let me work for like 5 days just leaving me guessing but I came in there FUCKED UP one of the managers actually kept me from coming in and I thanked him for it when I came back. My GM had to get a letter from my counselor with a clean test and stating I'm cooperating just for corporate and then had to fucking talk to corporate. Meanwhile I'm the fuck up in the methadone clinichaving 1:had to confess to my counselor that I'm pissing hot for benzos not only that but hey by the way mind calling corporate and putting in a good word. I'm so lucky. But they are still punishing me cutting me early and giving me shitty tables. I figured they would start to wean me down after burning for benzos they haven't said a word since the phone call which us super cool. I also burned hit for opiates this week and they haven't said anything. I think they are lining their ducks up to wean me downand get me out. II'm going to directly ask my counselor tomorrow.
I'm still doing great. I went out again last night and tonight. Got the key to my new apartment. Still have my job. Have a mini stash of cash steadily gaining height. New clothes. I stay working. I'm about me these days could give a fuck what anyone thinks about it. If they do wean me down etc I'll just deal with it. Good news is I work every day and night this week and I have a guaranteed 50mgs a day til Monday unless my counselor megicaly let's me slide. And I'm paid up until may 1st at the clinic so I could give a fuck.
Was that a word week? Doubt it was and I'm sure the last one day was in a benzo daze.
I bid you all A'DEUUUUU and I'll holla some time.
ohshea
Bluelighter
^too much of "oh poor me im a worthless junkie who sucks dick for dope when its not paid for by my rich friends feel sorry for me." Anthony Keidis' memoir was much more entertaining and didnt have that whiny bitch aspect to it. That, and I didnt find his junkie adventures that interesting or crazy. Half of us on here experience worse shit in a week. I guess to a square it would be a good read but i was sorely disappointed. And he only spent like three weeks in rehab and that ended up being what the second half was about, and it was dull.
I used to kind of like the guy but hes so butthurt about giving up his skating career and does nothing about it, he probably couldve made a comeback but just whined instead and wrote a shitty memoir. It was one of the few books that i was left thinking what a waste of a read when i finished it. Plus the way he lets that bam margera guy treat him is disgusting hell do anything for the guy and lets himself be abused for their amusement. You can tell he has no self esteem or self worth. Its sad.
He has a hot gf tho, dont know what the hell she sees in him maybe just trying to piggy back off his "fame" to get more leverage for her modeling career
Yes, it is the OG Baybe.
I'm good man. Been clean for 14 months, cant complain. How bout you?
After watching some video clips the dude does seem to dramatize his dope days. He did literally let some dude suck his dick and that's why he got clean. Plus instead of bag or balloon he calls it, and maybe this is a Baltimore thing, a "heroin pill". Ahh, the thought of some dude sucking my dick gives me the heebee jeebees, fuck
I usually hate when people profit from their addiction, but then I think its some type of jealousy. Who here hasn't had the day dream where you write the novel, become famous, blah blah blah...talked to my counselor today and they are not going to start weaning down. but im on my last straw and he made that pretty clear. had to sign some paper work from the state and we went thru how much money i spend a week on drugs and what else i could spend it on and these people really do think im like popping xanax everyday and slamming dope while on methadone because he said ok weed and i said "$100 a week probably at most" OK....pill? "$0 a week" well, you keep failing for benzos.... "yeah and i tell you everytime i fucked up 3 times and nearly lost my job, those were the only three times, half of those were free"....OK....dope.."$35 every three weeks" No, cant be right because you have failed this many times for opiates "Again, dude whatever program you use to 'randomize' your tests is completely fucked because almost every time i have fucked up its been on a saturday, at work, on my 30 minute break between shifts on the days i double but i have only been tested on a monday only one of my whats....12 tests now have been on a day other than a monday and that was a thursday because i refused one that monday because i wasnt going to sit and wait to pee i was tired and wanted to go back to bed" Well im just going by what your screens tells me "i understand that but the only thing i do daily now is weed and methadone" and i gave him my whole spiel on how my life is actually really good right now regardless of how they may see it.
anyway im out of here got some dro to burn and im skipping the day job to hang out with this chick from the restaurant before i go in tonight. i got a hair cut and one of those vaporizer things today too. trying to quit cigs. its so nasty. i hate smelling like smoke.
edit: hi Baybe. glad to see you doing well
stfu RWOT you useless junky that doesnt know how to use a cell.
Mr.Scagnattie
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I hear it's not even that bad.. at least that's what Blue Hues always says..
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ohshea
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My health professor is so gullible. We were discussing addiction and she said one of her students past semester almost killed her neighbors kid while on drugs because she thought it was a leprachaun and tied it up w string and put it in the cupboard for a few hours. I said you know thats an urban myth thats circulated through the Internet and isnt true? And that its either a midget or kid that gets tied up. My professor was like she was my student why would she lie? I said I dont know why shed lie but I know its not true because shed be charged with kidnapping, cmon you really believe that?
I thought that urban myth died already, guess its still making its rounds. Made me lose a wee bit of respect for her. That and she also thinks the florida face eater was on bath salts..
Bob Loblaw
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lol some people make themselves such easy targets in this thread. I digress.
On the subject of books have any of y'all read anything by Hubert Selby Jr?
RecklessWOT
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14 months? Congrats that's huge. What else have you been doing with yourself?
I'm alright I suppose. I kicked my habit about 10 months ago and have been relatively "clean" since then. I won't say I have been full-on clean because I still play around with pills occasionally and smoke weed and whatnot, but no more being junkie scum and being dopesick and broke. I haven't touched heroin since new years and I am not even a drunkard anymore. All I do is work these days, lots of overtime for little money but it's something normal people do I guess, right? Nothing real exciting here, I am in the process of buying a home up in New Hampshire with my girlfriend though so that's the big thing going on in my life at this point. Also finally getting to the bottom of some latent medical problems I've been having for a while now but was too lazy to do anything about it.
TL;DR Recky has grown up quite a bit without realizing or asking to do so.
RecklessWOT
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In other news, having a major chest cold sucks ass unless your roommate gives you her large bottle of cough syrup to help you out. %)^ what is this world coming to??? Recky is growing up and being responsible and shit. Dude it's because no one is riding your ass to clean your act up and do what normal boring people do. I know because I've been there. I would be careful buying a house with a girlfriend. Either it's mine or it's hers unless you are married. But this is coming from a guy whom just hired a divorce lawyer so take my advice with a grain of salt. Remember to always take care of number one first because no one else will do it better then you.
Is that the one where Jennifer Connelly goes ass to ass for cash money?
Urban legend wise it was always the dude who took acid and thought he was a glass of orange juice. Professor wise, once had one tell me Ireland wasn't and island.
Mr.Scagnattie
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Yeah man, I'm a big Selby fan. Last Exit To Brooklyn is the shit. His writing is so raw and visceral. If you like Selby you would dig Bukowski and Bret Easton Ellis too.
I love that style of gritty fiction.
RecklessWOT
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My name's actually not going on the mortgage so if I need to I can just hit that eject button. All of the utilities are going to be through me though so she can't just decide to kick me out, I'll have proof that it's my house too.
And I know, i am worried; She already kind of drives me crazy in some aspects, I'm really banking on her calming down once she's settled in the house.
I do have a few things going for me though, I know it would take a lot to get her to kick me out. She may get bitchy at times but she puts up with a lot and she's never going to be the one to end the relationship unless I were to do something crazy like hit her or something which I would never do. She already seems to have made up her mind about settling for me. Worst case scenario I'll have the in-law apartment above the detached garage I can chill in till she chills out. She also doesn't really know anyone else up there either so she'll kind of be stuck with me because what else is she gonna do, live up there all by herself? If anything happens like that it's gonna be me who's just gonna get sick of her shit and leave myself. I think it will be alright though. She's pretty reasonable in most areas, she's a positive influence on my life. She doesn't try to control me but her being there and just being the way she is helps kind of keep me in line. In reality, I'm pretty bad at taking care of myself. It actually does me some good having her help me out in that sense.
Sorry to hear that you're getting a divorce though. Or maybe it's a situation to congratulate you? I don't know the whole story. Still, it sucks to hear when things don't work out. Is she aware that it's done or is she just going to get served one day?
As of now she's still putting out so I don't have to worry about jacking off quite yet. But I agree, that's why I hate it when girls try to give me a handjob. Like "bitch that's the one thing I can do myself and I know for a fact I can do a better job than you. Put it somewhere inside you."MMT
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Listen to the W-Man re: any joint property thoughts. No-fault divorce has created a 50%+ divorce rate in this country and it's almost always the husband that gets fucked,so to speak. I thought I was happily married for 20+ years till one morning,out of the blue,my darling wife informed me that she wants her freedom and had filed for divorce.Just like that.Looking back I should of seen it coming when she dropped 50 pounds and started hitting the bars(I was never the controlling type,you either want to be with me or you don't was always my mantra). My advice would be to look at her family.In my case,the mother had already left 2 husbands by the time we were married and her 2 sisters followed suit, also repeatedly I might add. It almost seems there is a genetic and/or cultural factor involved as most of her extended family is a divorce trainwreck while my side of a large extended family has seen only one divorce and that was due to abuse. So look,listen and factor in what you find before you take that serious plunge. Good Luck.- Status
