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dont let it get you down HOL. just go out and get yourself a sleezy a few nights in a row and im sure your mind will begin to think past her. i know what you're talking about when you say all this "savior" shit but im here to tell you that mentality is dangerous. if you keep thinking that she is your savior, in turn, you will then begin to believe that she was the strength that kept you off dope, which may be true to some degree but in the end it was YOUR decision for YOU regardless of what brought about the change. YOU needed to change in order to keep something you had strong feelings for. YOU put yourself thru the bullshit of getting off dope for something YOU wanted. it may have been HER that you wanted but you did it for YOU and YOU is all you need

required listening:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=63JhxstZMfg

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yq3N9I7Zy7o

keep your head up and ON TO THE NEXT ONE.


edit: also empy your PM box and hit me back with your cell number. i lost it again.
 
^^^ funny i figured you were gonna post this one

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AHs6zrgg1b0


but yea All by myself was something we would listen to together actually, and i always liked the song cuz at the end he says i couldN'T have dont it all by myself i needed everybody else. i think thats powerful cuz bein independent and sulf sufficient is important but its also important not to overlook/take for granted/or shun help that is given to us by others and the potential for help from others that always surrounds us

i appreciate all yalls support and despite that post where i couldnt spell anything properly ( i know im not usually a good speller anyways cuz i dont care about any of that shit when on BL, tho i have noticed when writing papers that my Bl'in makes me have to work harder/think more bout writing properly) im not just turnin to drugs to cope, sure the other night it happened i think i popped somewhere between 3-5mg of xanax (dunno how much cuz its just powder) n got drunk n took a bump or so of K that first post i hadnt even felt it n then within a short amount of time i couldnt even type but yea im not goin back to dope, i had 2 beers last night n that was it, no xanax , thought bout some K but refrained so i think ill be ok with not slippin back into drugs anymore then i already am. i feel im being pretty responisble i only usually take xanax 1-2x a week at most typically, only drink 1-3x a week at most n the K has been a recent thing tho im not gonna lie aside from last night i think ive done some everyday since last wed or so not really sure whn i got it

but yea im not looking to slip back down the slope n it was actually really good to be home with the folks n air everything out, they were super kool n all

im still takin time to think bout things and i know i know i know what some of yall might be thinkin but i do still wanna be with her so im just takin things day by day, there is alot of stuff that will have to be talked about n worked on if things do go forward but either way im glad we were able to talk alot yesterday cuz despite the circumstances it wasnt a bitter break up, it was refreshing to talk about stuff and even if things dont work out i wanna b her friend

no lie she IS my best friend, relatinship or no relationship

shits fucked up no doubt but also feels ok at the same time, i was in the moment the other night n i didnt mean to sound the alarm or anything but i really really am grateful for all yalls support and the fact that you care, i dont wanna sound wierd or pathetic but yall do mean alot to me and i appreciate yall





oh and Memph i txt'd you, stop loosing my number n shit man, but i also cleared out my PM too
 
i dont wanna sound wierd or pathetic but yall do mean alot to me and i appreciate yall

it's weird and pathetic and gross and you should knock it the fuck off. take that PLUR shit somewhere else.









but seriously, i'm glad to hear you don't really want to go back to dope. just take it easy on the K and reach out to your family and friends when you feel like you need to.. my brother has been the one constant in my life that never judges and always makes me forget about shit. i take for granted the fact that he's there a lot of the time. plus you have a good amount of us dumbasses here to talk to if you need to.
 
u so funny

jajajajajajajajaJA! i know i am. it comes so naturally as well.

what are you jackasses up to today?

HoL said:
im not just turnin to drugs to cope, sure the other night it happened i think i popped somewhere between 3-5mg of xanax (dunno how much cuz its just powder)

this scares me a little bit, having it as pure powder form. if you're going to start using it more please, please, PLEASE! capsule that shit up in no more than 2mg doses. things can and will get very messy otherwise!

remember tobala? one of the funniest, smartest and wisest BL mods/admins we had? yeah, well that's how he died, overdosing on xanax powder. we don't need you leaving us, brother<3 you're too great of a guy! please, for me, keep the xanax under lock and key, capsule it and use as sparingly as possible. you best have yourself some quality scales as well:)

you seem in bit better spirits which is a good start, mayne! live/love life,yo.

wiggi said:
Since none of yall lazy bastards can read stickies. Go here to find out how to submit your favorite songs of all time.

NO! you're not the boss of me! screw you hippy!

HoL said:
i dont wanna sound wierd or pathetic but yall do mean alot to me and i appreciate yall

don't be such a memphis. nah kidding, mate. we love you too. we're all here for each other and clearly have each others best interests in our hearts. we lub you bro<3 now lub me back!
 
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they better be televising it on the telly here so i can check the tigers out. i don't know whether you guys are pulling my leg about the tigers or not.

who do you support, welderman?
 
NSADASSD poll v. SLR: so I got new lingerie that I won't be able to debut until friday night. should I leave it a complete surprise that I even got it, or give a sneak peek sext to build suspense?
 
they better be televising it on the telly here so i can check the tigers out. i don't know whether you guys are pulling my leg about the tigers or not.

who do you support, welderman?
The Tigers.
NSADASSD poll v. SLR: so I got new lingerie that I won't be able to debut until friday night. should I leave it a complete surprise that I even got it, or give a sneak peek sext to build suspense?
I say complete surprise. ;)
 
you're just bad at keeping your clothes on, fullstop. not that i complain.

do you intend on giving the social a sneak peak or your bf? that's a highly contributing factor to my response.

edit - oh i see the word "sext". hmmm, yeah give him a sneak peek to get him all riled up:D
 
Damn, HoL, that sucks. That really sucks how that played out. Something I've learned is that breaks are trouble and couples shouldn't use this idea to try and handle problems. Don't take a "break," just agree that as a couple, you guys just need a bit more personal time. Breaks seem to enable people to want to sleep with new people. Some people get this mentality that the only real difference between being together and being on a break is that during the latter you can sleep around. So they feel like the have to in order for it to be a real break. Gotta take advantage of this break!! She also sounds very needy, to the point where it gets in the way of her loyalty and morals.

Dude, it's for the best, though. I was in a similar situation in the past with a relationship starting out weird like that, and things kept sticking in my mind. Trust me, you could convince yourself all day and night that you forgive her, but it's still going to be in your head. Every time you guys have any tension, it will come creeping back. It sucks, especially when you don't want to think about it anymore and you theoretically understand that you should not be mad at her over it. Emotions trump logic often, though, and starting fresh with a new girl is often the best choice.

Just move on. Or at least if you go back to sleeping with her again, go at it with a nothing-to-lose mentality. Anything and everything you've always wanted to do with a girl but were afraid to do with her because you didn't want to creep her out and lose her as your girlfriend, well that's all fair game now. If you can turn your emotions off, at least maybe you two will have some great sex before you seriously part ways.
 
NSADASSD poll v. SLR: so I got new lingerie that I won't be able to debut until friday night. should I leave it a complete surprise that I even got it, or give a sneak peek sext to build suspense?

i would say keep it a surprise but i think you should give the social a sample just to be sure.
 
jajajajajajajajaJA! i know i am. it comes so naturally as well.

what are you jackasses up to today?



this scares me a little bit, having it as pure powder form. if you're going to start using it more please, please, PLEASE! capsule that shit up in no more than 2mg doses. things can and will get very messy otherwise!

remember tobala? one of the funniest, smartest and wisest BL mods/admins we had? yeah, well that's how he died, overdosing on xanax powder. we don't need you leaving us, brother<3 you're too great of a guy! please, for me, keep the xanax under lock and key, capsule it and use as sparingly as possible. you best have yourself some quality scales as well:)

you seem in bit better spirits which is a good start, mayne! live/love life,yo.



NO! you're not the boss of me! screw you hippy!



don't be such a memphis. nah kidding, mate. we love you too. we're all here for each other and clearly have each others best interests in our hearts. we lub you bro<3 now lub me back!

course i lub you

and the dude i was getting the molly the k n the xanny powder doesnt wanna sell me the xannies anymore right now cuz i called him up n said i needed more cuz we broke up n he said he wasnt gonna just supply me with xanax to cope with my break up



NSADASSD poll v. SLR: so I got new lingerie that I won't be able to debut until friday night. should I leave it a complete surprise that I even got it, or give a sneak peek sext to build suspense?

i hate surpirses but only whne i know there is a surprise coming so if you dont know it coming then surprises are awesome, so ill echo everyone else n say save it for friday

Damn, HoL, that sucks. That really sucks how that played out. Something I've learned is that breaks are trouble and couples shouldn't use this idea to try and handle problems. Don't take a "break," just agree that as a couple, you guys just need a bit more personal time. Breaks seem to enable people to want to sleep with new people. Some people get this mentality that the only real difference between being together and being on a break is that during the latter you can sleep around. So they feel like the have to in order for it to be a real break. Gotta take advantage of this break!! She also sounds very needy, to the point where it gets in the way of her loyalty and morals.

Dude, it's for the best, though. I was in a similar situation in the past with a relationship starting out weird like that, and things kept sticking in my mind. Trust me, you could convince yourself all day and night that you forgive her, but it's still going to be in your head. Every time you guys have any tension, it will come creeping back. It sucks, especially when you don't want to think about it anymore and you theoretically understand that you should not be mad at her over it. Emotions trump logic often, though, and starting fresh with a new girl is often the best choice.

Just move on. Or at least if you go back to sleeping with her again, go at it with a nothing-to-lose mentality. Anything and everything you've always wanted to do with a girl but were afraid to do with her because you didn't want to creep her out and lose her as your girlfriend, well that's all fair game now. If you can turn your emotions off, at least maybe you two will have some great sex before you seriously part ways.

well i really wanna work things out with her, if we do get back together we wont be engaged n i think that changes things a bit, we would possibly get back together under the notions that we are close friends who love eachother n wanna be with eachother n take it from there

you're right its easy to think youve forgiven but as i saw this past year i never truly had forgiven, but this time its about goin forward

JB PM'd me n gave me some advice ill try n adhear to, "whatever you choose just go with it and dont look back" i wanna choose to be with her n i feel the only way that will work out is to focus on the present n future, not the past

we'll see how things go tho
 
not much, mayne. just woke up and had a super fix. and just took some valium with the morning coffee and cig; should be a relatively smooth and calm start to the morning and i don't doubt i'll probably go back to sleep for a bit. i was struggling to get up, coulda slept the day away, but forced myself to.

and the dude i was getting the molly the k n the xanny powder doesnt wanna sell me the xannies anymore right now cuz i called him up n said i needed more cuz we broke up n he said he wasnt gonna just supply me with xanax to cope with my break up

that's what's up. i'm glad you've got a, somewhat, responsible dealer. i'm sure he's heard some of the horror stories from his customers and has your best interest in mind. god bless him.

bankai- intraveneous morphine and some diazepam washed down the hatch with coffee and a memphis,
 
you people are too addicting for your own good...and my own good too ;)



In other news, I'm sicker than a dog and sore as fuck from working out. Yay me :(

i swear it's like once one person i know gets sick, they all get sick.

if it makes you feel any better i have THE WORST CASE OF HICCUPS RIGHT NOW.


hope you feel better, doll.
 
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