my worst nightmare.

[iLoveYouWithaKnife]

And staring at the fire,
You realized that it all happened over again.
You made yourself stray away,
thinking tonight, driving.
That maybe, perhaps, he was just fucked up.
And hanging out.
But when you see him,
and realize they are drinking
the same exact thing,
the same malt liquor
piece of shit forty,
just like the two of them,
that they are together.
History just proved
that it repeats itself.

And staring at the fire,
you don't want to move.
You are too numb.
From it all.
You can't bare to see him.
You can't believe that even though,
you knew it would lead to nothing but bad,
you're worst nightmare was coming true.

You fell asleep those nights,
with the closet lights
because you wouldn't kid yourself.
You wouldn't scare yourself.
You wouldn't wake up in the dark,
pretending him to be there.
You just knew
that fucking instant
when you opened your eyes
he really was never there at all.

You're worst fucking nightmare
just came true.

And she'll laugh and ignore you
right in front of you
because she is a fucking cunt.
It's that
HA fucking HA laugh that protrudes
that says
I just won again you dumb bitch.
He'll always come back to me.

She keeps fucking him up
more and more.
And it kills you,
everytime.
Just thinking what you had
and how you knew he could never be yours.
Even though you tried to pretend.

It kills your best friend,
who is also his best friend.
Too watch all of this unfold.
When all you want is for
your fucking nightmare,
to come to an end.

 

[Cosmic Mist]

I don't know what to say. I really like this, and i think you and i may be in similar situations, because i am relating a lot to your works recently. I hope everything will sort itself out eventually.

*hugs*

 

[cherub]

like i said in the last post of your other poem,, this just tore me apart and made me cry,, not that i am in the situation that you are but still it ,,,, i think i have been at one time,,, i love the way you write girl,,,hugs