Mental Health My worst experience of all

[AnnDarrow]

It was the night I've took 200-400 mg of Benadryl while coming down of Crystal Meth.

I've smoked the meth during almost 2-3 days, and I would try a very specific experience, at the level of the hallucinations actually.

I've had the effects of my expectations, all the night until dawn.
I was at the edge of hell, I saw hordes of giants spiders everywhere in the room, seen ghosts, and at a point of night, I had some extremes sleep paralysis or I saw the Death himseft, Charon if you prefer, he touch my with his long bony fingers preceded by his succubi and demons, I have always been convinced that our dreams and visions reveal the state of our psyche, it remains to be seen how to interpret them, however implicit they may be.

All the night, I've had hard cardiac arythmia, I thought I was going to die at any moment, It was stange, because somewhere I wanted to die, but at the same time I was fighting to stay alive, because yes even with a desire for death, the brain programs itself in survival mode once it is at the wall. Absolutely no death drive can triumph over the instinct for preservation anchored in the reptilian brain.
It was a very hard experience, my heart rate took forever to recover, I had a form of derealization/depersonalization, I perceived myself and the world in a very strange way for a long time, and this lasted for several months.

I hope my sharing will inform et will inform and warn those who always like to push the limits even further.
Exploring the depths of the negative side of our psyche can be very interesting, but don't do it if you value your mental and physical health.

Take care of yourself

 

[SotPoker1012]

DPH/Benadryl is rarely a pleasant trip. You'll probably keep getting better, I've heard of people taking 500-700mg and recovering eventually.

To anyone that reads this, it's really not worth it to get into. If you absolutely must try it, stick to doses between 100-200mg and don't do it with any frequency. Any pleasant effects start between that level, and you're less likely to do immediate damage. Even then, it's a very harsh drug on both your body and mind. Among other things, regular use is directly correlated with earlier onset of dementia. This stuff is toxic, far more so than any other "recreational drug" at these doses.

Ideally, don't use it at all except occasionally as an allergy reliever or sedative, but if you must, please do not fry your brain. It is not worth it. You are not going to have a spiritual experience, I'm sorry.

 

[AnnDarrow]

DPH/Benadryl is rarely a pleasant trip. You'll probably keep getting better, I've heard of people taking 500-700mg and recovering eventually.

To anyone that reads this, it's really not worth it to get into. If you absolutely must try it, stick to doses between 100-200mg and don't do it with any frequency. Any pleasant effects start between that level, and you're less likely to do immediate damage. Even then, it's a very harsh drug on both your body and mind. Among other things, regular use is directly correlated with earlier onset of dementia. This stuff is toxic, far more so than any other "recreational drug" at these doses.

Ideally, don't use it at all except occasionally as an allergy reliever or sedative, but if you must, please do not fry your brain. It is not worth it. You are not going to have a spiritual experience, I'm sorry.

It was not the dosage but the interaction with the crystal, I have good experience with the Benadryl, first time I experienced, I took 800 mg and and the trip went very well, with very few side effects.

 

[SotPoker1012]

It was not the dosage but the interaction with the crystal, I have good experience with the Benadryl, first time I experienced, I took 800 mg and and the trip went very well, with very few side effects.

You're lucky then. Perhaps good genetics or something. While many reports are exaggerated or fake, plenty of people do run into serious problems at 500+mg

 

[AnnDarrow]

You're lucky then. Perhaps good genetics or something. While many reports are exaggerated or fake, plenty of people do run into serious problems at 500+mg

Maybe, you know i'm... very impulsive when I take drugs, I did dozen of crazy experiences, I could tell you all sorts of stories.

I've had good trips and some other terribles, especially for my mental health, but I regret nothing, I learned a lot about myself somewhere through my madness.