Jabberwocky
Frumious Bandersnatch
I'll make this so i can ramble myself and i don't have to spam other forums.
Okay, so last 2-3 years have been i have been opioid dependant. Did lots of opioids, different ones - mostly subutex IV use, since it's cheapest.
I'm 6th day in rehab, i'll be posting my feelings and thoughts here.
Now it's morning, 8.55 - just got my morning medication. They put me on too much olanzapin (30mg) a day and it caused terrible side effects.
I get 100mg ketiapin and 15mg of mirtazapin on evening for sleep. I don't take the mirtazapin because of it causes these tick moves when used with olanzapin.
I get benzos too, but the fuckers are dropping my doses. I see people here starting their opioid treatment, they get fucking methadone and subuxone while i suffer..
Every single time somebody tries to have just a little bit of fun... slap on the back of the head. Hhahaha, what did you think? Fun? No - boy, life is suffering and you have to eat shit to adjust.
Fucking giving me jail medication. I got my sleeping rythm OK so i go sleep around 24.00 and wake up around 7.00-8.00 but now they say that it's weekend so everything happens later.
I'm being punished for self-discipline.
Okay, so last 2-3 years have been i have been opioid dependant. Did lots of opioids, different ones - mostly subutex IV use, since it's cheapest.
I'm 6th day in rehab, i'll be posting my feelings and thoughts here.
Now it's morning, 8.55 - just got my morning medication. They put me on too much olanzapin (30mg) a day and it caused terrible side effects.
I get 100mg ketiapin and 15mg of mirtazapin on evening for sleep. I don't take the mirtazapin because of it causes these tick moves when used with olanzapin.
I get benzos too, but the fuckers are dropping my doses. I see people here starting their opioid treatment, they get fucking methadone and subuxone while i suffer..
Every single time somebody tries to have just a little bit of fun... slap on the back of the head. Hhahaha, what did you think? Fun? No - boy, life is suffering and you have to eat shit to adjust.
Fucking giving me jail medication. I got my sleeping rythm OK so i go sleep around 24.00 and wake up around 7.00-8.00 but now they say that it's weekend so everything happens later.
I'm being punished for self-discipline.
