I've debated ever writing my shit, but 29yrs of not what has it done for me? Make me such a fuck up that I screw everything up, have no friends and end up emo alot. Maybe if I write it all out, it could help to move on. Though, I know certian people really wouldn't want to know my shit, and I hesitate cause I don't want no fucking pitty or I'm sorry's. Its been 5 years since the bad shit has been gone so I need no pitty or sorry's. I am gonna write it for ME and no one else. Though I guess it would help some of my friends who don't understand me, understand why I am the way I am and my mind set. I will write it in my next entry, cause I need to TRY and eat.... I haven't really eaten much since those 3-4 pickles last weekend and milk each day. I must eat..... next entry I write.
