I started off the year great. I got about 4 months of sobriety under my belt. No complaints, either. It felt nice, although a piece of me was missing... Anyways, the passed month I have dabbled with oxy, fent, and methadone a handful of times. Nothing crazy, more of a "chipping" ordeal. But within the passed 5 days I have spent a little over $500 on dones. Basically, I spent all the hard earned money I saved while i was sober. I don't feel bad about it, either. I am more so bummed because I can't spend anymore of my money bc I only have enough for rent/bills/etc. So, I have about 2days worth of pills and I most likely am going to take them all tonight. Typical, right? I do have two 8mg strips of sub, too. I will probably take 1mg -3mg a day until I run out, in hopes of seeking a small high too.. and then i'll hop back on the Kratom Train from here on out, until i can save more money and splurge again. hehe. This seems to be how my routine has been going for a while now. I honestly love it. I love everything about it.
If anyone reading this is going through any similar "issues" or can relate, feel free to PM me. Support is vital to this lifestyle.
I just felt like ranting while at work, right now. Feel free to holler.
Much love and cheers,
LS
If anyone reading this is going through any similar "issues" or can relate, feel free to PM me. Support is vital to this lifestyle.
I just felt like ranting while at work, right now. Feel free to holler.
Much love and cheers,
LS