He claimed that during the time he was gone he missed me and looked for me and all this other stuff and he is upset that I did not wait even though when he left he said he no longer wanted us to be a part of each others lives. He said he wanted for me to be his first everything yet he gave up and left and and made some one else his first everything and got upset because i decided to move on in life rather than selfishly chase some one that made it clear they did not want me there. I mean I don't get it if you want me to be your first why leave and then get upset that I move on in life. Not to say I never tried to get in contact with him but when he left he went off the charts. He knew where I was, it was easy for him to come back to me at any point if he really wanted me in his life
