S0SickofThesePills
Bluelighter
Hey all-
I have visited this site and others like it for quite awhile now through my many WD's and attempts at getting clean. I've never bothered to register and/or tell my story...Until now. (theme music plays)
My journey with this awful drug began about four years ago. I was in my early 20's and up to this point had never experimented with drugs other than smoking a little weed in H.S. and weed never really did it for me. My first experience with Opiates was a Vicodin prescription I got from my dentist. That bottle of 15 pills probably lasted 6 months with me taking one here and there. Never thought about em, never craved em I just liked to take one here and there when having some beers etc etc... What changed it for me was a co-worker who had knee surgery and got a large prescription of Oxycodone. Unfortunately, our desks were right next to each other and after him telling me he hates them and me telling him I like them, he gives me the entire bottle; 90 of these little beautiful pills. Well like all addicts once in awhile turned into every night, then every morning and then 3, 4, 5, 6, times a day. Most opiate addicts probably followed a similar cycle when their addiction started, nothing unique about it.
After that it was six months of solid use, like all early users it was anything I could get my hands on, anything that would keep the WD's at bay. I stopped after that 6 months and was actually clean for about 5 months, without ever really thinking about them. Then my mother got sick and needed surgery and was getting bottle after bottle of pills and never taking any. So what happened? Yup. I had myself a dandy old time. 6 months later and clean again, only to use a month or so later; which is the pattern my life as followed pretty much the last 3 years. In that time I've never been clean longer than a month or so, though there have been a handful of those 1 month milestones.
I am married to a wonderful woman and have been blessed with two absolutely gorgeous, healthy children. I am sick and tired of being a slave to these pills, I want to be a better father, husband and person in general. I was finally done this past June, June 2nd to be exact. I went to my wife, told her how bad it had become and detoxed. I made it 24 days, I was even attending NA meetings. However, I started back up with 'just a couple days' and 'once I'm through this project' well that turned into another month. So, before it turns into another 6 months here I am. Three days clean and absolutely miserable.
I won't get into all the tips and tricks I've acquired, it's all been discussed hundreds of times on these boards before. The only thing I'll mention (and only because I've never seen it mentioned anywhere else) is a foot massager. Has anyone else tried this? It works wonders for the RLS. I spend hours with my feet just shaking and vibrating away and I truly think this thing is my best tool when facing WD.
Anyway, that's pretty much my journey. Sorry if anyone finds this long, I just wanted to finally jump in and contribute. NA just didn't didn't do it for me, I'm hoping maybe this will. No more promises, no more guarantees, just me waking up everyday and trying my damnedest to be sure TODAY is not a day I use.
Thanks for reading and good luck with your own journey.
I have visited this site and others like it for quite awhile now through my many WD's and attempts at getting clean. I've never bothered to register and/or tell my story...Until now. (theme music plays)
My journey with this awful drug began about four years ago. I was in my early 20's and up to this point had never experimented with drugs other than smoking a little weed in H.S. and weed never really did it for me. My first experience with Opiates was a Vicodin prescription I got from my dentist. That bottle of 15 pills probably lasted 6 months with me taking one here and there. Never thought about em, never craved em I just liked to take one here and there when having some beers etc etc... What changed it for me was a co-worker who had knee surgery and got a large prescription of Oxycodone. Unfortunately, our desks were right next to each other and after him telling me he hates them and me telling him I like them, he gives me the entire bottle; 90 of these little beautiful pills. Well like all addicts once in awhile turned into every night, then every morning and then 3, 4, 5, 6, times a day. Most opiate addicts probably followed a similar cycle when their addiction started, nothing unique about it.
After that it was six months of solid use, like all early users it was anything I could get my hands on, anything that would keep the WD's at bay. I stopped after that 6 months and was actually clean for about 5 months, without ever really thinking about them. Then my mother got sick and needed surgery and was getting bottle after bottle of pills and never taking any. So what happened? Yup. I had myself a dandy old time. 6 months later and clean again, only to use a month or so later; which is the pattern my life as followed pretty much the last 3 years. In that time I've never been clean longer than a month or so, though there have been a handful of those 1 month milestones.
I am married to a wonderful woman and have been blessed with two absolutely gorgeous, healthy children. I am sick and tired of being a slave to these pills, I want to be a better father, husband and person in general. I was finally done this past June, June 2nd to be exact. I went to my wife, told her how bad it had become and detoxed. I made it 24 days, I was even attending NA meetings. However, I started back up with 'just a couple days' and 'once I'm through this project' well that turned into another month. So, before it turns into another 6 months here I am. Three days clean and absolutely miserable.
I won't get into all the tips and tricks I've acquired, it's all been discussed hundreds of times on these boards before. The only thing I'll mention (and only because I've never seen it mentioned anywhere else) is a foot massager. Has anyone else tried this? It works wonders for the RLS. I spend hours with my feet just shaking and vibrating away and I truly think this thing is my best tool when facing WD.
Anyway, that's pretty much my journey. Sorry if anyone finds this long, I just wanted to finally jump in and contribute. NA just didn't didn't do it for me, I'm hoping maybe this will. No more promises, no more guarantees, just me waking up everyday and trying my damnedest to be sure TODAY is not a day I use.
Thanks for reading and good luck with your own journey.
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But I must stress please see your Dr in the UK we have a new 5 day opiate detox called naltrexone (google it) it may have a different name there but..again don't go it alone...envelope yourself in as much professional care as you can afford.