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My Battle Begins on Thursday at 9:00am

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brokensoul

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Yo! Check it. I have been playing with the devil, thinking I am smarter, what a fool am I? My Lovely is Norco, and I love him so, his dick is so big and it does me right. But Hydrocodone has done nothing for me. I'm a chronic pain patient, and I'll be in pain after I quit, but you know, I would rather be in pain than wake up one more fucking day feeling like shit.

Do you remember the days you used to sleep late, and not have WDs wake you up for a pill? I remember days when I would get up ready to face the world, excited, instead of looking for my pill bottle. I'm ready to go celibate, and I am ready to give this demon up.

Honey please, I tried so many times to taper, CT, you name it I did it. I tried all the withdrawal ease stuff, and vitamins, and everything and nothing helps and I am too weak to make it past day 2. So this time, I have called for help. I will be going to Short term OP detox and will be doing a suboxone taper. I have no fucking clue what to expect and I am scared to death. I've heard lots of awful things, but hell, it beats this right?

So I will use my post here to post my progress, kind of like my diary, and maybe it can help other people kick the shit out of this bitch. I have a dream. A dream that I won't be a hypocrite, preaching to others about what they should do while I cram 3 norcos in my mouth.

Your support is needed, while I face the biggest demon fight I have ever fought. I am scared yall, but somewhere deep in me, this feels right. If I have to pay 500.00 to get this monkey off me, I will.

More to come. I love you all.

BrokenSoul
 
I will trade your norco pain , for this bitch ass mmt shit. I am thinking about telling them everyday drop it 5mgs every other week but don't bother telling me I'm just afraid of getting sick again and fucking up in school.I don't really know any way out even with your norcos though....:|
 
You're on Methodone Maintenance? Any way to change over to suboxone, like fucking yesterday? Those clinics give two shits about you. Come on now! The goal is to be free right? Do what works for you, but I heard some good about short term and a fucking lot of bad about long term. I'm here for you baby. Let's stop making excuses, you change to suboxone and start a 4 week taper and so will I. I'm in school too so I don't want to hear it. Let's get rid of this together!
 
good luck ! Keep your head up your not he only one who couldnt make it past 2 days its common shit. The subs should do you well keep that shit short term and u should all good. I remember trying to quit some opiates 2 years ago with no luck repeatedly couldn't even get the first 24 hours past till i tried a small sub taper.
 
I would refer you to the great advice you gave me. Isn't it hard to remember what it felt like to not be a prisoner? To not wake up every single day worried you won't get your fix? To not have to plan your entire life around the addiction? It's slowly coming back to me, and It's definitely worth it. Best of luck to you!
 
you shouldn't have ever been taking norcos to begin with. your doctor is a fucking dipshit, that gave into your complaints of pain, rather then say No. it's obvious that you don't have the kind of pain that req. you to go to a specialist, or you wouldn't have much an option, But to take your meds how your prescribed.. pain like that will fuck your life over in so many more ways then some medication TAKEN right would ever fucking do to your days. you think waking up feeling like you need to pop a few norcos is tough*? ... *Crys a little*....

lol..

i'm just saying it could be 100x worse for you, AND that your doctor is a douche bag for real. hes one of those weak fools, that i never understood untill starting pain management.. this shit is not for people that don't SUFFER in horrible agony day in day out, that has them on there knees psychologically ARRRRR...

well thats enough of my rantings.. just thought i awt to add my shitty little 2cents into the pot,

I admire you for ending the charade that passes for good health care. also i think you should find a doctor with some bigger balls, and a higher regard for medicine in general. i wouldn't trust that guy/gal , they are only monkeying around

OH YEAH... and ***** GOOD LUCK ***** your a hero :D
 
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Good luck, I know it is hard to quit, especially if you are emotionally/psychologically addicted to them as well. It was fun while it lasted, but in the end, quitting is the only logical option. That, or continue with your addiction until you die many many years before your time.
 
MAJPain how do you know my medical background? You don't, you also don't know that I am CHOOSING to live in pain. With my condition I could get Norcos and Oxy for the rest of my life, no problem, by ANY doctor. So you're right that Docs give this out without thinking of the consequences, but wrong to discount peeps like me for getting them. I am making the choice to live with pain instead of being a prisoner. I am starting a non narcotic plan on Thursday too. But thanks for your 2 cents.
 
Broken your opening paragraph was a bit euphoric for someone in pain. Not discounting your pain as I also am tapering off pain meds which I have only taken as directed and never been stoned off of. I'm not sure how I will cope my my pain level once I detox off the meds. You never did answer my question though...subs for norco addiction? Isn't that overkill? Why isn't your dr just tapering you down?

You said: Honey please, I tried so many times to taper, CT, you name it I did it. I tried all the withdrawal ease stuff, and vitamins, and everything and nothing helps and I am too weak to make it past day 2. So this time, I have called for help. I will be going to Short term OP detox and will be doing a suboxone taper. I have no fucking clue what to expect and I am scared to death. I've heard lots of awful things, but hell, it beats this right?


That stuff is all info found on the net and not likely told to you by your doctor. They do tapers not vitamins and withdrawal-ease packages. Have you asked your doctor for a taper plan? Were you using more than he/she prescribed? Did you get terminated by your dr? Did your dr have you try clonidine patches for WD?
 
BrokenSoul: "I am making the choice to live with pain instead of being a prisoner"

all i'm saying is... oh forget it, you don't see the bigger picture.

Some conditions are far worse.. look at it that way, and you might come to understand that maybe there is a point where you really don't have an option.. if you want any kind of social life, with some levels of pain that is not an option without a high degree of management that comes with .. like you said x y or z meds..

but seriously i commend you for your strength, it takes a lot of sand to stop a treatment that works well.. and go with something else maybe not as blocking.. but as you said aspects of the treatment out weighed the positives, sooooooooo... LOL i can talk this is a circle again :)))

good choice ^_^
 
Help Me Please:

"You never did answer my question though...subs for norco addiction? Isn't that overkill? Why isn't your dr just tapering you down?"

"That stuff is all info found on the net and not likely told to you by your doctor. They do tapers not vitamins and withdrawal-ease packages. Have you asked your doctor for a taper plan? Were you using more than he/she prescribed? Did you get terminated by your dr? Did your dr have you try clonidine patches for WD?"


you see now that post revealed more of the line I was coming from, You must be honest in many ways.. down to the core of yourself in order to do this type of thing right wise..

your doctor that prescribes your hydrocodone APAP, should be the one to tapper you off of this, you really need to explain all of this to him/her, OR what i believe to be a better idea, i think you should see a real pain management doctor, that is strong and adheres to a much more strict code.. must have much greater *****integrity*****, find a really good doctor, and not an addiction specialist ( THEY DO NOT TREAT PAIN PATIENTS ONLY SERIOUS DRUG ADDICTS ) in fact i think they are required to make you sign something that says your NOT in pain!... which will mean that on your RECORD and it WILL BE IN YOUR RECORD , that you do not HAVE PAIN, which would mean that you were just screwing around in the first place....... which you sort of are, if you went to the extreem of narcodics so soon.. when you obviously shouldn't have taken them right away...........................

bottom line is.. if you go to get treatment from an addiction stand point, it will mean that you ARE in FACT a *********malingerer**********.... take this into serious consideration.

malingerer definition:

ma·lin·ger

Definition of MALINGER
: *** to pretend or exaggerate incapacity or illness (as to avoid duty or work) ***
— ma·lin·ger·er\-gər-ər\ noun
Examples of MALINGER

1. His boss suspected him of malingering because of his frequent absences from work.

GOOD LUCK TO YOU please be more serious when it comes to such powerful medication, even hydrocodone is a potent analgesic


I'm VERY seriously when i say all this, it's all for your good, and for the good of all who read this, for the sakes of integrity to what is, in reality a widespread problem of understanding...

I only wish the best for you "BrokenSoul" please don't hold this conversation in a negative light, i only post for your best interest, and others.

take that into account, and good luck with the rest of your treatments , seriously ONE LOVE!
 
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I have DT so many times...... I would rather DT at home than anyplace else.... but i have will power not to go out and get it....

At home you can smoke a blunt, take a benzo, take some sleeping meds... be left alone to chill out.....
 
Suboxone will keep you from feeling the physical aspects of withdrawal, and some of the psychological, too. If a five-day detox is not enough for you, then asked to be place on suboxone maintenance therapy or referred to a doctor who can until you deal with the behavioural part of your addiction.

Chronic pain is no joke, and if you're giving up the Norco, you'll have to find another way to deal with it, as suboxone, despite the fact that it is an opiate, it is not indicated for chronic pain.

You may have already said so, but what is your chronic pain consequent to?
 
"Iboga" or "Ibogaine"? You do realize iboga is nothing like ibogaine, or at least the iboga you can get online? You do not get the same alkaloids at all, in fact you get more alkaloids that are dangerous for your heart.

I'm also not a fan of ibogaine because it has some pretty serious sideeffects. Ataxia which can basically take away your ability to walk or standup. It also will raise your blood pressure more than significantly and place a ton of stress on your heart. I've seen people take iboga and shake like they were having a seizure for hours and hours on end. Its a very unresearched/new drug and untill some proper studies are done on it I wouldn't really recommend it unless you're read to commit suicide because of your addiction.

Ibogaine also has 12 documented fatalities, and has been banned/prohibited in many countries due to this. It DOES show some promise in terms of the stories I've read about its effectiveness, but it just seems too risky unless you've exhausted ALL your other resources, which the OP hasn't done yet. I hope one day scientists will make a more effective analog with less sideeffects, but as of now its ridiculously expensive to make, and not safe by any means.
 
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