TDS My Addiction To Synthetic Marijuana (K2/spice)

Elisheba Ruth

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I am including here an excerpt from my blog recounting my experiences with spice addiction. I'm not including the whole thing because a) it's really long, and b) I may go in an add more detail as I remember it. I'm not selling anything or trying to convert anyone, just sharing my "dark side" story for anyone that may need to know that he or she is not the only one who has ever gone nuts on this stuff.

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I overdosed the first time during this period. I smoked some stuff that I hadn't tried before and went to lay down. Within a few minutes I was paralyzed. I could swallow and blink my eyes, but I couldn't so much as move a finger. I could feel my heart beat once or twice "thump thump", then stop. I would gasp and my heart would start again. If I weren't such a healthy and strong woman I have no doubt that I would have died right there. After perhaps an hour and a half I was able to move again. I loaded another bowl, albeit with less than before.

When I lost my job I loaded my car (which I hadn't made payments on in about three months) with some clothes, dropped off some photo albums off at a friends, and headed to Las Vegas where I theorized that I would make a living gambling. I ran out of money and gas on a long stretch of New Mexico highway and tried to beg for some money. I found that I had become invisible. People treated me like I had the plague. I prostituted myself for the first time at that truck stop. There is always a man around that will give you a twenty to give him oral sex.
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Peace,

Elisheba Ruth
http://elishebaruth.blogspot.com/2013/11/my-addiction-to-synthetic-marijuana.html

"When you look directly at an insane woman all you see is a reflection of your own knowledge that she is insane, which is not to see her at all. To see her you must see what she saw and when you are trying to see the vision of an insane woman, an oblique route is the only way to come at it. - Robert M. Pirsig
 
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Hi, didn't read your blog yet. I know of some people that smoked that stuff when they were on probation. Did you ever get to Vegas?
 
Hi Elisheba Ruth welcome to BL. I have taken the time to read your post and I am truly amazed at how you have survived the overdoses and what have you. I hope you continue with the fight off the urge to the addiction and help others on TDS who will be posting regarding their addiction to this type of drug. I have never tried spice before but with you sharing your experience to us have given us information as to how dangerous this drug is.
 
Hi, didn't read your blog yet. I know of some people that smoked that stuff when they were on probation. Did you ever get to Vegas?

Yes I did. I mention that in a couple of places in my blog. I was there almost eight months. Not something I'd like to do again though considering the circumstances!
 
You can get addicted to K2/Spice? Whenever I've smoked that crap all I've gotten was a sore throat...
 
You can get addicted to K2/Spice? Whenever I've smoked that crap all I've gotten was a sore throat...

Yes you can. Google it and you'll find lots of addiction and withdrawal issues. Also, addiction is apparently like an allergy. The more you are exposed to the substance for which you have an allergy, the stronger the reaction becomes. That's why many people don't have problems with pollen allergies when they are young. It's not until they've been exposed to it for years does their allergic reaction become strong enough to be a problem. With alcohol and other mind altering drugs you may be able to use them with none of the compulsive and obsessive affects of addiction for a long time, or not so long.

Unfortunately there's no way of telling if you will become an addict until you actually have. It's kind of like being out hiking on a trail where you've heard there's a cliff with a lake below. You see a drop in the trail ahead and run full speed towards it and throw yourself off the edge, without even checking to see if this is the correct cliff. By the time you realize if there is water below it will be too late to change your mind!


All this is just my understanding of how addiction works, but I think it's pretty close. My suggestion is stay away from the stuff! Read my blog. I didn't write all that stuff for my health. I wrote it so people could see that spice is dangerous, just as dangerous (in my opinion) as meth/crack/H. Perhaps not quite as addictive as those, and maybe the withdrawal is not quite as bad, but you can't get just a little pregnant right?

Peace out,
Elisheba Ruth
http://elishebaruth.blogspot.com/
 
Wow hun, I read your story in your blog. That's a truly powerful account of your life. Thanks for sharing so much personal information.

How are you doing now?
 
Wow hun, I read your story in your blog. That's a truly powerful account of your life. Thanks for sharing so much personal information. How are you doing now?

You're welcome... you did notice I shared it under a pseudonym of course! I think and hope that there is something in there to help others in many areas. It was therapeutic to write it all out. I'm doing outstanding now! I haven't found a job yet, but I'm a software developer; something always turns up. I think I've found a church that isn't evil; the pastor actually quoted Glennon Melton's blog post 'A Mountain I'm Willing To Die On' in his sermon Sunday (links below). I'm going to two separate Celebrate recovery meetings and one womens NA group, so three groups per week. I'm studying my bible and trying to remember to pray!

It's all good!

Peace out,

Elisheba Ruth
 
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I too had a horrible spice addiction lasting for almost a year. The effects were scary and strange to me at first, but being on probation made it impossible for me to smoke marijuana, and my comfort grew with tolerance. I did zero research before this just went off of other peoples advice around me. Everything was all well and good until I ran out of the stuff. Had no clue the withdrawal symptoms that came with this territory. I came to enjoy almost more then weed but in a much more obsessive addictive way. I would wake up in the middle of the night multiple times just to get high and fall back asleep. Really affected my life in every way it could negatively. Cold sweats, irritability, cravings like I never could have imagined. What a nightmare
 
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