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Mushrooms - Experienced - Incredible loudness / insanity

toadrush

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Weight: 120lbs
Pre-Trip(-5:00):
-2 cups of coffee
-3 bowls of marijuana
-small meal
Dose:
-10:00-10:07pm 1.5g Psilocybin Mushrooms
-10:30 2 more bowls of marijuana
-10:34pm 2.0g Psilocybin Mushrooms

First off, I've never heard of anything like what I experienced during this 'trip' and as well I have tripped on mushrooms numerous times, LSD once, DOx sold on blotter once, DXM plenty of times. I went into this trip in a very good mindset, not many problems in my life and nothing repressed - I was expecting a decent trip where I could accomplish some things creatively and just enjoy myself, hardly what I received :|.


Trip:
10:48pm
visuals beginning - wavyness in the text
fluorescent colors seen in the white spaces
everything has that 'aura'
body high is definitely there, warm fuzzy feeling
cold sweats
minor jaw tension

somewhere around 11:20pm or so (not entirely sure):
laying in bed listening to Do Make Say Think - & yet & yet (an album I have not listened to before but I have heard other albums by them) enjoying the flowing patterns all over my walls and the creeping body high.

All of the sudden everything gets really loud, ambient noise is incredibly distorted and so unbearably loud. The music I had on was so loud that I freaked out and nearly knocked over my stereo trying to turn it off. I had no idea whether I was just hearing this or if something happened to my stereo that caused it to become really loud. However, I calmed myself down and figured that the shrooms were probably just causing this. Though because even the faintest of sounds (like the furnace) was unbearable and I had to go around and turn it all off.

At this point, I started to panic because even ambient sound was unbearable and my head was throbbing and I could have sworn my heart was racing. I tried to force myself to puke, but nothing happened. Figuring there was no way to abort what had just manifested I called my friend James in order to have reassurance that I wasn't going to die (cardiac arrest, suicide, and numerous other scenarios flooding through my mind). He arrived about 8 minutes later and I had him measure my heart rate, and we determined that I was at an almost normal heart rate and my breathing was only slightly elevated.

Apart from this incredible loudness that came in waves, which would begin quietly and then start speeding up and getting really louder and then stretching out and slowing down all the while of getting louder, I was also experiencing incredible feelings of 'ego destruction'?, for instance I was seeing parts of my body and my room simply vanish before me and then they'd return and I felt as if nothing was real and that this was simply going to be the way I was from now on. It's incredibly hard to explain this, but those feelings persisted for about 2 hours all the while the incredible loudness was nearly killing me, it sounded as if every molecule was exploding.

Around 2:00am the loudness had finally subsided, and so did everything else. I didn't even feel like I was tripping at this point - almost completely back to baseline except slightly stoned.

The weirdest part however was that none of this trip was associated with emotions or problems in my life like any previous bad trips I have had, as well I did not have much of a 'mind high' during the entire peak because I was able to communicate with James and rationalize perfectly to the point that when he first saw me he thought I was sober, and also there was no nausea/bodyload or any other feelings normally associated with mushrooms.
 
Mushroom trips are really random. Did you think you'd be that way forever, or that was how it always was?
 
b parrish: i feel for you then :(

vertex: I felt like it was going to be that way forever, I was able to understand who I was, where I was, what was happening to me and that the mushrooms were causing it - but at the same time I was convinced that something had snapped in my brain because it didnt' feel like a trip, it just felt as if my brain was broken and everything would be loud and painful forever.
 
toadrush said:
b parrish: i feel for you then :(

vertex: I felt like it was going to be that way forever, I was able to understand who I was, where I was, what was happening to me and that the mushrooms were causing it - but at the same time I was convinced that something had snapped in my brain because it didnt' feel like a trip, it just felt as if my brain was broken and everything would be loud and painful forever.

I've had bad LSA trips (MG seeds really fuck me up). The first time I tripped on them I thought I was going to be 'tripping' forever, then I thought I was going to die. Glad you're okay now though.
 
some interesting new developments

Mods if you see this, you may want to move this over to 'The Dark Side'.

In the past week or so i've had multiple 'flashbacks' to the aforementioned trip. That same loudness (significantly decreased magnitude) and anxiety that was there before comes over me.

Some important information regarding this:
-i've had a lot of anxiety/stress in my life lately (prob. a major contributing factor)
-only happens when i smoke marijuana (more than 2-3 small bowls) (so far)
-only happens when i'm alone and at night (so far)
-comes almost randomly, for instance:

It happened last night after i had smoked 3 small bowls and i was laying in bed watching That 70's show for a good hour, and then all of the sudden everything started getting that familiar loudness and my heart rate jumped up atleast triple the normal speed and my body began to shiver uncontrollably. I then started inhaling and exhaling and concentrating solely on that which removed the shivering but not the loudness (which came and went). I was able to control the loudness to a degree, I could convince myself that some of the noises i was hearing were loud but there was this also uncontrollable aspect; I would sit up or move my head suddenly and all of the sudden my brain would 'freeze', i would see a flash of white light (behind closed eyes, not open eyes) and sound would be frozen incredibly loud (this all took place in a bout a half second at most).

Needless to say i'm kind of worried, is this marijuana triggering anxiety attacks (prior to this marijuana has always worked as an anxiolytic for me)?. Or am i actually having 'flashbacks'? It doesn't seem to happen when i don't smoke but i'm still trying to establish that.

Any theories/questions are most welcome :)
 
this is still a trip report, i can copy it over to TDS if you'd like the feedback from there as well :) (rather than just move it)
 
Well you were alone when you starting bad tripping, so that would explain why this only happens when you're alone, and the fact that bud triggers it says to me thats its just a flashback. I'd say you were just flashin back, and (like i would too) started to panic because you thought it was damage, just an idea. I dont know, im not you, but thats my 2 cents.
 
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