Don Luigi
Bluelight Crew
Prior to this experience I had done mushrooms a few times and it had went smoothly everytime.
Mushie season was not yeilding very well this year. We had tried all of our usual spots but they had either been picked or not yeilding at all. We had pretty much given up on finding some. But then my friend 'R' moved house and low and behold his neighbours gardens were a Liberty Cap goldmine!
The exact number of mushrooms he picked is unknown but they were all medium - large sized libery caps and it looked like it was just less than 2x my last picking of around 160.
My friend R arrived at my house accompanied by my other friend D. We smoked a joint whilst I prepared the tea. I emptied the bag of mushrooms into my kettle, poured in three cups of water and pressed the button. The kettle soon began to foam up and I would turn off the heat just before it overflowed. I did this a few time and let it sit for 15minutes whilst we smoked another joint. I then heated the mushroom mixture again and we poured it into cups with a tea bag and then added milk.
The previous times I had made tea, the colour looked almost like normal tea but this time it was a dirty grey colour and tasted and smelt much more foul.
T+0:00
We began drinking our tea and played some guitar. I finished the tea in about 5minutes and then I lay back and listened to music whilst waiting for the effects to happen.
T+0:10
I went into the kitchen to grab a little more milk for R as he was having trouble finishing the tea. On my way into the kitchen I felt the familar 'floaty' sensation and I was becoming slightly unbalanced. I knew they were kicking in which worried me slightly because with my previous trips it had taken me 40mins-1hr to come up. I lay back down and waited for it to kick into full swing.
T+0:18
At this point I noticed my first visual distortions. When looking at my friend R, my vision began to shake violently, something I had experienced before. The next thing I noticed was that my wooden door had a kind of red fuzzy outline to the panels.
T+0:25
By this time my body was reacting in a way it never had before. I could not control my shaking from my hips down so I thought I was just cold considering I was laying on a wooden floor and I began to get quite tired. The posters in my rooms were begining to move and fold on themselves, something that happens everytime I take mushrooms in my room.
We were listening to muse and I began to appreciate the classical side of the music. Everything seemed so cosmic and there were sparkles floating in the air, it felt so euphoric and beautiful. My walls had taken on a much brighter shade of blue and it seemed to eminate from the walls.
T+0:40
The music coming from the speakers would send waves/ripples across my walls and it was almost as if I could see the music. At this point I took a good look around my room and noticed how much bigger the room seemed. R and D were enjoying themselves but R said he was getting no visuals without concentrating. This was D's first time and he was already saying it was the best experience of his life. The music no longer seemed like it was coming from the speakers but that it was actually playing inside my head, coming out to engulf the room, it was brilliant. By now I was no longer shaking which made me happy and this trip had given me the least body load I'd ever had from mushrooms. Around this time, my friend D said 'Man, I feel like such a dingus'. This seemed like the most hillarious thing in the world at the time and we all began laughing uncontrollably and it was infectious, it reminded me of my slavia experiences.
I soon closed my eyes to enjoy the closed eye aspect of the trip and this I found to be the most englightening. When I closed my eyes I was in another world. I was moving through a virtual room and everything I saw was like in a computer format without the textures, just the mesh.
Similar to these but much more complex and intricate:
I was traveling through this mesh world and there was a woman infront of me handing me objects which I thought to be fruit. I got the feeling of motion as I travelled all directions through this world.
T+1:00
By this time I was nearing my peak so I went outside with D and R to smoke a joint as we wanted to explore a bit. Everything was alive, the roofs of the houses were bending. It is a typical visual but the grass did seem to be a green sea blowing in the wind. It was a clear night and the stars were dancing and moving in all directions and more stars had appeared, more stars than I have ever seen. It was overwhelming.
T+1:20
We were now safely back inside my room. As nice as the outside world was, it was simply too cold outside. I was definatley peaking by this point and we began to jam on guitar and bass and I looked at the design on my plectrum. I found it very interesting and the design soon transfered to my arm and it was basically everywhere I looked. I then began talking about my last mushroom experience where my cat had gotten into a fight and was bleeding and how I seen so many more drops of blood appear on the floor but it wasn't frightening.
I was looking at my friend D's face. He was sweating and his long hair was stuck to his forehead. His hair was alive but not in an intimidating way, it was just flailing about, it was quite nice.
I then noticed an odd bit of hair that looked rather like a cut. I thought this to myself and sure enough, something which looked like blood appeared. It looked as though he had been stabbed through the head and I saw his gaping wound. Suddenly the mood of the room turned to a dark blood red and I had a sharp sense of terror. This was a terror I had not experienced since I went a bit crazy on solvents one night. Everything I seen at the corners of my eyes was blood red and it stayed this way, I was terrified but I did not say anything to them because I did not want them to suffer the terror or make anymore frightening visuals appear.
I looked at the floor to get away from the visual and seen lots of little drops of what looked like blood. This however didn't scare me. I thought to myself 'Don't fight it, go with the flow and it will be alright'. But then I thought 'Don't be so stupid, if you don't fight it it will engulf you and the terror will multiply'. I just kept my eyes fixed on the floor and dared not look at anyones face.
T+1:40
By this point I had been staring at the floor, worried about looking at my friends face for about 10 minutes when I decided to lift my head. My friends didn't seem to notice that I had been silent for 10minutes so eveything was fine. I picked up a playstation controller that was sitting on my floor and mindlessley tapped the buttons when I realised I could control the room with the controller. When holding the controller I could make things move and change colour according to what I wanted, I felt like the mack daddy!
T+2:05
My friends D and R were playing the playstation. I did not want to partake in the videogame so I lay on my bed and listened to music with my earphones. I listened to alot of radiohead and I was getting a bit annoyed that it was making me reflect too much. I was feeling very guilty about the worlds suffering and such but came to the conclusion that it is not up to me to stop it. I had recently quit my Tech media course and had decided to join the army. I then thought about the killing and how it really wasn't for me. I'm not a macho
guy. I realised how joining the army would be wasting my life and my potential. I am a smart guy and I began thinking about my future and past. In particular my ecstasy use and how I had hurt people with it and I felt remorse.
Whilst laying reflecting I decided I should go back to school to do my A levels and thats what I am going to do. With my eyes closed I contiued getting the 'mesh visuals'. I was traveling through a massive tomb as if I were on a conveyor belt watching things as they passed. I remember seeing a very large sphynx like creature near the end.
It came up close to me and opened its mouth as if angry at me. This was acompanied by Thom Yorke piercing me with his voice during 2+2=5. It all seemed to make sense as he screamed 'pay attention'. At the end of this conveyor belt, I began to fall and I could actually feel myself falling. This startled me so I opened my eyes and there was burst of activity in my field of vision as if all the OEV's I had missed were happening in the space of 3seconds whenever I oepned my eyes, it was utter chaos.
T+3:20
I realised I had been traveling through the closed eye tomb for over and hour. I went to the toilet because I needed to piss. I've never had such bad aim without being drunk. The toilet bowl was bending and expanding. Before leaving the bathroom I looked in the mirror, something I should have avoided. My pupils were even bigger than they get on MDMA and I looked like a different person. I began to see myself change into what I really was - a child. I looked so much younger and like someone I really wasn't, I felt so fake. I stoped staring at myself and looked back to find that different segments of my face were becoming highlighted and I began to see what was beneath my skin which wasn't blood and tissue, it was empty space.
I hastily left the bathroom and told myself never to look in a mirror whilst on mushrooms again.
I began to roll a joint when I left the bathroom. I have never had such difficulty rolling a joint in my life. My brain was telling my hands what to do but they just did not comply. It felt as though the rolling paper was a part of me but at the same time it felt as though I had no arms, I was wieghtless, I must say it was a rather odd but pleasant sensation.
T+3:40
I finished rolling the joint and waited for D and R to finish their game of Pro Evolution Soccer. I was observing the pitch and the crowd. The colour of the crowd and pitch was changing in steady waves, they changed through all the colours of the electro magnetic spectrum, it was a sight to behold.
When R and D had finished their game they realised that for almost two hours they had been wasting their mushroom experience playing videogames and that they had forgotten they were on mushrooms.
We smoked the big joint and I tried to tell them what I had learned and we discussed 'deep' issues. To be honest they weren't very good at contributing to it so I decided to keep most of the lessons I had learned to myself. I began to think that my friends did not deserve the mushroom experience. That they did not take it to gain from it but they took it just to simply get fucked up on drugs. R expressed his disatisfaction with the effect of the mushrooms as it did not match up to his previous experience. D on the other hand said he was swept away by the experience.
T+4:25
By this time I was steadily coming down. There were patterns when I closed my eyes but nothing anywhere near as complex as before. I had to stare at objects to see any sign of life. It was a pleasant come down and I felt humbled that I had taken something out of the experience. I had sorted out some issues that had been tangled in my mind for quite some time.
We smoked more joints as R and D awaited their taxi home. However we could not get stoned. They both said how they were pissed off that the trip did not last very long. Although I would have liked it to have lasted longer I felt like it had lasted long enough.
In my previous mushroom experiences I had never really taken anything with me after the trip, even with larger doses. After them I felt the need to do mushrooms again however after this trip I felt I had gained what I needed from mushrooms and I did not need ti take them again. I do believe however that I will take them again if I need to find answers to my problems otherwise I would feel guilty about entering the mushroom realm simply for recreational purposes.
I narowly avoided having a bad trip. Had I been less experienced with drugs I could easily have thought irrationaly and those few minutes of terror could have been a whole trip of terror. It made me realise more than ever that pshycedelics are not to be taken lightly and that if you do not respect them you shall face the consequences eventually.
Thank you for taking the time to read this
Mushie season was not yeilding very well this year. We had tried all of our usual spots but they had either been picked or not yeilding at all. We had pretty much given up on finding some. But then my friend 'R' moved house and low and behold his neighbours gardens were a Liberty Cap goldmine!
The exact number of mushrooms he picked is unknown but they were all medium - large sized libery caps and it looked like it was just less than 2x my last picking of around 160.
My friend R arrived at my house accompanied by my other friend D. We smoked a joint whilst I prepared the tea. I emptied the bag of mushrooms into my kettle, poured in three cups of water and pressed the button. The kettle soon began to foam up and I would turn off the heat just before it overflowed. I did this a few time and let it sit for 15minutes whilst we smoked another joint. I then heated the mushroom mixture again and we poured it into cups with a tea bag and then added milk.
The previous times I had made tea, the colour looked almost like normal tea but this time it was a dirty grey colour and tasted and smelt much more foul.
T+0:00
We began drinking our tea and played some guitar. I finished the tea in about 5minutes and then I lay back and listened to music whilst waiting for the effects to happen.
T+0:10
I went into the kitchen to grab a little more milk for R as he was having trouble finishing the tea. On my way into the kitchen I felt the familar 'floaty' sensation and I was becoming slightly unbalanced. I knew they were kicking in which worried me slightly because with my previous trips it had taken me 40mins-1hr to come up. I lay back down and waited for it to kick into full swing.
T+0:18
At this point I noticed my first visual distortions. When looking at my friend R, my vision began to shake violently, something I had experienced before. The next thing I noticed was that my wooden door had a kind of red fuzzy outline to the panels.
T+0:25
By this time my body was reacting in a way it never had before. I could not control my shaking from my hips down so I thought I was just cold considering I was laying on a wooden floor and I began to get quite tired. The posters in my rooms were begining to move and fold on themselves, something that happens everytime I take mushrooms in my room.
We were listening to muse and I began to appreciate the classical side of the music. Everything seemed so cosmic and there were sparkles floating in the air, it felt so euphoric and beautiful. My walls had taken on a much brighter shade of blue and it seemed to eminate from the walls.
T+0:40
The music coming from the speakers would send waves/ripples across my walls and it was almost as if I could see the music. At this point I took a good look around my room and noticed how much bigger the room seemed. R and D were enjoying themselves but R said he was getting no visuals without concentrating. This was D's first time and he was already saying it was the best experience of his life. The music no longer seemed like it was coming from the speakers but that it was actually playing inside my head, coming out to engulf the room, it was brilliant. By now I was no longer shaking which made me happy and this trip had given me the least body load I'd ever had from mushrooms. Around this time, my friend D said 'Man, I feel like such a dingus'. This seemed like the most hillarious thing in the world at the time and we all began laughing uncontrollably and it was infectious, it reminded me of my slavia experiences.
I soon closed my eyes to enjoy the closed eye aspect of the trip and this I found to be the most englightening. When I closed my eyes I was in another world. I was moving through a virtual room and everything I saw was like in a computer format without the textures, just the mesh.
Similar to these but much more complex and intricate:
I was traveling through this mesh world and there was a woman infront of me handing me objects which I thought to be fruit. I got the feeling of motion as I travelled all directions through this world.
T+1:00
By this time I was nearing my peak so I went outside with D and R to smoke a joint as we wanted to explore a bit. Everything was alive, the roofs of the houses were bending. It is a typical visual but the grass did seem to be a green sea blowing in the wind. It was a clear night and the stars were dancing and moving in all directions and more stars had appeared, more stars than I have ever seen. It was overwhelming.
T+1:20
We were now safely back inside my room. As nice as the outside world was, it was simply too cold outside. I was definatley peaking by this point and we began to jam on guitar and bass and I looked at the design on my plectrum. I found it very interesting and the design soon transfered to my arm and it was basically everywhere I looked. I then began talking about my last mushroom experience where my cat had gotten into a fight and was bleeding and how I seen so many more drops of blood appear on the floor but it wasn't frightening.
I was looking at my friend D's face. He was sweating and his long hair was stuck to his forehead. His hair was alive but not in an intimidating way, it was just flailing about, it was quite nice.
I then noticed an odd bit of hair that looked rather like a cut. I thought this to myself and sure enough, something which looked like blood appeared. It looked as though he had been stabbed through the head and I saw his gaping wound. Suddenly the mood of the room turned to a dark blood red and I had a sharp sense of terror. This was a terror I had not experienced since I went a bit crazy on solvents one night. Everything I seen at the corners of my eyes was blood red and it stayed this way, I was terrified but I did not say anything to them because I did not want them to suffer the terror or make anymore frightening visuals appear.
I looked at the floor to get away from the visual and seen lots of little drops of what looked like blood. This however didn't scare me. I thought to myself 'Don't fight it, go with the flow and it will be alright'. But then I thought 'Don't be so stupid, if you don't fight it it will engulf you and the terror will multiply'. I just kept my eyes fixed on the floor and dared not look at anyones face.
T+1:40
By this point I had been staring at the floor, worried about looking at my friends face for about 10 minutes when I decided to lift my head. My friends didn't seem to notice that I had been silent for 10minutes so eveything was fine. I picked up a playstation controller that was sitting on my floor and mindlessley tapped the buttons when I realised I could control the room with the controller. When holding the controller I could make things move and change colour according to what I wanted, I felt like the mack daddy!
T+2:05
My friends D and R were playing the playstation. I did not want to partake in the videogame so I lay on my bed and listened to music with my earphones. I listened to alot of radiohead and I was getting a bit annoyed that it was making me reflect too much. I was feeling very guilty about the worlds suffering and such but came to the conclusion that it is not up to me to stop it. I had recently quit my Tech media course and had decided to join the army. I then thought about the killing and how it really wasn't for me. I'm not a macho
guy. I realised how joining the army would be wasting my life and my potential. I am a smart guy and I began thinking about my future and past. In particular my ecstasy use and how I had hurt people with it and I felt remorse.
Whilst laying reflecting I decided I should go back to school to do my A levels and thats what I am going to do. With my eyes closed I contiued getting the 'mesh visuals'. I was traveling through a massive tomb as if I were on a conveyor belt watching things as they passed. I remember seeing a very large sphynx like creature near the end.
It came up close to me and opened its mouth as if angry at me. This was acompanied by Thom Yorke piercing me with his voice during 2+2=5. It all seemed to make sense as he screamed 'pay attention'. At the end of this conveyor belt, I began to fall and I could actually feel myself falling. This startled me so I opened my eyes and there was burst of activity in my field of vision as if all the OEV's I had missed were happening in the space of 3seconds whenever I oepned my eyes, it was utter chaos.
T+3:20
I realised I had been traveling through the closed eye tomb for over and hour. I went to the toilet because I needed to piss. I've never had such bad aim without being drunk. The toilet bowl was bending and expanding. Before leaving the bathroom I looked in the mirror, something I should have avoided. My pupils were even bigger than they get on MDMA and I looked like a different person. I began to see myself change into what I really was - a child. I looked so much younger and like someone I really wasn't, I felt so fake. I stoped staring at myself and looked back to find that different segments of my face were becoming highlighted and I began to see what was beneath my skin which wasn't blood and tissue, it was empty space.
I hastily left the bathroom and told myself never to look in a mirror whilst on mushrooms again.
I began to roll a joint when I left the bathroom. I have never had such difficulty rolling a joint in my life. My brain was telling my hands what to do but they just did not comply. It felt as though the rolling paper was a part of me but at the same time it felt as though I had no arms, I was wieghtless, I must say it was a rather odd but pleasant sensation.
T+3:40
I finished rolling the joint and waited for D and R to finish their game of Pro Evolution Soccer. I was observing the pitch and the crowd. The colour of the crowd and pitch was changing in steady waves, they changed through all the colours of the electro magnetic spectrum, it was a sight to behold.
When R and D had finished their game they realised that for almost two hours they had been wasting their mushroom experience playing videogames and that they had forgotten they were on mushrooms.
We smoked the big joint and I tried to tell them what I had learned and we discussed 'deep' issues. To be honest they weren't very good at contributing to it so I decided to keep most of the lessons I had learned to myself. I began to think that my friends did not deserve the mushroom experience. That they did not take it to gain from it but they took it just to simply get fucked up on drugs. R expressed his disatisfaction with the effect of the mushrooms as it did not match up to his previous experience. D on the other hand said he was swept away by the experience.
T+4:25
By this time I was steadily coming down. There were patterns when I closed my eyes but nothing anywhere near as complex as before. I had to stare at objects to see any sign of life. It was a pleasant come down and I felt humbled that I had taken something out of the experience. I had sorted out some issues that had been tangled in my mind for quite some time.
We smoked more joints as R and D awaited their taxi home. However we could not get stoned. They both said how they were pissed off that the trip did not last very long. Although I would have liked it to have lasted longer I felt like it had lasted long enough.
In my previous mushroom experiences I had never really taken anything with me after the trip, even with larger doses. After them I felt the need to do mushrooms again however after this trip I felt I had gained what I needed from mushrooms and I did not need ti take them again. I do believe however that I will take them again if I need to find answers to my problems otherwise I would feel guilty about entering the mushroom realm simply for recreational purposes.
I narowly avoided having a bad trip. Had I been less experienced with drugs I could easily have thought irrationaly and those few minutes of terror could have been a whole trip of terror. It made me realise more than ever that pshycedelics are not to be taken lightly and that if you do not respect them you shall face the consequences eventually.
Thank you for taking the time to read this
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