Well that's a good point.
And wow... I this is something that seems to happen on strong psychedelics occasionally. It happened to you on shrooms. Ive heard of high doses of 4-aco-dmt doing it to people.
And: Once me and 2 other friends did 2 hits of what turned out to be some STRONG blotter LSD. Started listening to tunes (well and fooling around... all of us gay) and "whatnot" and all was bliss. But at some point, I recall "whiting out", and my memory is then a TOTAL black hole for about like 4 hours. Didn't pee in the bed, but after being catatonic for a spell, totally ruined their trip and fun by them not knowing what the hell happened to me, I "came to", was walking around the house naked, grabbing my crotch, acting extremely creepily lewd and rude and gross. etc., apparently totally unable to understand or speak English, Terry finally forced me to eat a bunch of Niacin which really did snap me out of it after it hit my stomach. No bed-peeing, but the blacking out and reverting to some still "awake" but like totally "reptilian" robotic behavior circuitry sounds very very similar. It was totally like my human mind was removed from my body and my brain stem alone was in some nasty, primitive mode of control.
I had ONE very deep and very frightening psychedelic experience, which consisted of ONE image that apparently took up the entire 4 hour-blackout, or maybe it took the entire 4 hours to "reach" it... and it was VERY VERY scary... hold onto your hats people... NEVER told this to anyone online... during this "White-Blackout", here is where "I" was:
It was some indeterminable time in the future.... only 3 minds still existed... mine (wondering if I had died), and what I can ONLY describe as some great powerful Native American "Grandmother Earth Goddess" consciousness, perhaps "Gaia"... we were both in orbit in space... there was the Sun off in the distance, looking normal, who was the 3rd consciousness (but like a giant silent eye, observing from from some very lofty deep billion-year old great-great-great-great-grandfather perspective, totally without any thought or emotion), in the distance, stars... and below us was The Earth, but it was not the lovely shimmering blue/white/brown/green living water paradise we know. INSTEAD IT WAS AN EMPTY SMOLDERING BLACK CINDER... "Gaia" or "Grandmother Earth Goddess" was VERY VERY VERY ANGRY with ME, as a representative of the entire Human race who had somehow caused this horrible catastrophe to happen to her beautiful precious pearl she had take so long and such care to grow. The mood was one of baleful, eternal mourning and sadness. She was as angry as it is possible to be. I was as sad as it is possible to be.. and just crying, crying for all of eternity, trying to say to Her "I'm so sorry.... I'm so sorry... I'm so sorry...."
I would have to call this under any definition a "Vision" more than a hallucination... it was like "She" had deliberately stolen my mind, seeing it was made vulnerable by the LSD, and whisked me to some distant possible future to confront me about the disaster she showed me. I don't have any other way of understanding what happened to me that night.
I didn't remember this until a couple days later... it was buried under alot of embarrassment about my brainstem's shameful lizard behaviour... then suddenly all at once the image/feelings came back to me like a recovered memory all at once, and I was utterly devastated for a LONG time till I could tell anyone else.
Not to hijack the tread... but what you you all think of that? If it's best to open a new thread, fine. Anyone ever have anything like this, either the "blackout" effect, or the "Earth-Cinder-Angry-Sad-Earth-Mother-Goddess-Spirit" vision happen to them?
The thing about my trip was, I only remember 30-1 hr of it. It consisted of a
bunch of laughing afterwards, me saying "what the fuck" laughing my ass off.
The four of us were chillin', then P goes to the restroom and gets lost, she
tells us the story and we laugh. We were all wondering where we were
although we knew very well where we were. My friend tries to throw up, I go
next to him, I'm like "crazy shit huh?" he then proceeds to say "yeah man,
just don't do anything crazy you know?" I laugh and say of course. (little did
he know what was to come.)
30 minutes from that me and my gf go to her brothers room, chilling, looking at
the bob marley posters and redlike walls, swirling. The feeling was like a body
ecstasy, felt great but then nausious at the same time. I then look at my
hand and it was melting to the music, was weird shit.
After that it had been an hour since we'd eaten the shrooms, at this point me
and my gf go back to join our two friends, they were looking at the floor. We
chill with them, I'm unsually hyper, I say "Man, I want to get naked" and
that's the last thing I remember until 6 hours later I wake up naked inside my
gfs bed cold, wet, and hands smell like shit.
As I "wake up"(I had been AWAKE the entire time). I try and grasp reality,
when I go outside I doubt that what had happened was real, there was no
way I did those things. As I walk into the other room everyone is looking at
me, with scared eyes, I then turn around and tell myself I'm dreaming, the
room is a mess, and shit is broken. I then lay down in the wet bed saying, I'll
just go to back to sleep, I'm dreaming, I then realize that I was awake.
Scared, I walk back out the room and see the three, my gf looking scared as
hell running away. my bestfriend then takes me out to talk about
whathappend I asked "is this reality" he goes "yeah man this is the real deal".
He offers me a cigarette, I say yes because I'm still doubting if I'm awake,
when I get back inside my gf runs to me with tears in her eyes saying "are
you back?" I say "yeah, I'm back", she hugs me the tightest I've ever been
hugged as I have some tears in my eyes also. There's lots more to the story,
but I feel you guys have had enough to read lmao.
I wanted to see what the time frame for this experience would be, and also note that I am on Wellbutrin and DH is on Seroquel. What kind of experience can I expect, generally? Will taking them at 8-9am be enough time to come down by 4pm? Also, how much should I take? I've asked the darling husband all of these questions, but I'd like others' opinions and experiences on the subject. Thank you for any input.
![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
I'm sure you will find plenty of good advice here. You might also want to look into a forum called The Shroomery, which as you may guess by the name specializes in the topic.
