Hey im going through the same thing ..its ruining my life! Im 28 and i lost my job too bc of it..but quick question..are you self medicating because maybe you are depressed or have anxiety of some kind? I have major depression and anxiety ..Have you been able to see any GOOD psychistrists? Not the ones that you go in for 5min they write a script nd thats it..maybe a psychiatrist/therapist together? You gotta figure out the underlying problem for the drug use and you seem like you truly want to get clean so thats the #1 important thing! DONT GIVE UP you can get threw this..maybe see if there are any doctors in your area? Just a thought..good luck hang in there!