meesa
Bluelighter
more rambles from a breaking heart...
I really hurt you today. All the feelings and tears you shed seem not to touch me. Eventhough I feel more pain than you might imagine, I can not seem to express them. You know I close off when my emotins start flowing. I am ashamed of how I feel.... I don't know how to deal with your kind of pain. I only see one side to this - and It hurts you. Never did I want to hurt you...only I should feel this kind of despair. You say I don't smile anymore... I fear I have forgotten how. I don't know how to feel...and I can't find a way out. I am not good enough for you. I wish you could see this..because I don't know how to tell you. I don't know how to talk to you anymore.
Everything I say, or do just ends in us (me) feeling worse.
worse.
all of it.
One day something happened and I changed. I cant see it, or feel it, I cant do anything. I just wish you could understand....no pain, just understand... how I have fallen..and I am no longer somehting you need to try to love. no one should feel this....only me. I cant even tell you if I love you... it hurts..please understand......don't feel sad...
I really hurt you today. All the feelings and tears you shed seem not to touch me. Eventhough I feel more pain than you might imagine, I can not seem to express them. You know I close off when my emotins start flowing. I am ashamed of how I feel.... I don't know how to deal with your kind of pain. I only see one side to this - and It hurts you. Never did I want to hurt you...only I should feel this kind of despair. You say I don't smile anymore... I fear I have forgotten how. I don't know how to feel...and I can't find a way out. I am not good enough for you. I wish you could see this..because I don't know how to tell you. I don't know how to talk to you anymore.
Everything I say, or do just ends in us (me) feeling worse.
worse.
all of it.
One day something happened and I changed. I cant see it, or feel it, I cant do anything. I just wish you could understand....no pain, just understand... how I have fallen..and I am no longer somehting you need to try to love. no one should feel this....only me. I cant even tell you if I love you... it hurts..please understand......don't feel sad...
