Start time: 7pm
I have severe anxiety and panic attacks and have just been prescribed alot of the following meds, this was my first time taking them and have absolutely no tolerance to any meds that were taken below, though i did expect the experience to be slightly more entertaining, it was still more than expected.
Consumed:
THREE 1mg lorazepam
ONE 3mg bromazepam
ONE 25mg hydroxyzine
ONE 50mg diphenhydramine tablet(nytol)
THREE 30/325 Tylenol 3
7:30: Stomach feels pretty nauseous, though i believe it's just an anxious reaction as i have felt this while not on anything as well.
7:40: Head feels pretty heavy, My body is getting heavier.. Must be the dph trying to put me to sleep.
8:00: I walked outside to smoke a cigarette and noticed a little warmth in my hands and arms, the tingling made me drop my smoke, twice.
8:10: I thought these were suppose to relieve anxiety at the least? My back is aching, i'm grinding my shoulders and my heart feels like it's taking triple beats.
9:20: I sat in my backyard with my friend, I had closed my eyes unknowningly and had pretty vivid flash hallucinations which lasted for only 5 seconds at most. The first one i remember was a bush i had seem in the front of my house except it was completely dried out and brown and dead. Another was something i was to do the day after and i pictured my aunts house and for a minute thought i was walking towards it before it blew away.
I woke up and my friend tried convincing me i was sleeping but i knew i only had my eyes closed.
9:30-10:00: I walked to the store with my friend and nothing really happened during this time other than feeling extremely lazy but i can say that even though i felt that way and probably would have told him NO straight up i still went, almost like i had no emotions and even when people were rude i continued to stay in my same inner happy/outside plain state of mind. I figured that you need to be relaxed to experienced anything at such a low dose of benzo's. ??
10:20: I was again sitting in my backyard when the good part truely started, the shadow of my house on the ground was forming a thick black smog that morphed in to a black robbed person, His hand slowly progressed towards me and i reached out, slightly confused and jumped for a minute when i thought i had seen a scyth. My friend shined his cellphone light and it disappeared, which kind of angered me but i did not have any anger to give.
Enough with the times though, from here it got a quite bit more interesting where i was projecting shadows with just a thought in my mind, I even dressed myself in a mirror and made myself look like i had a mustache, bunny ears, sunglasses and a beard. I got very bored of doing that though it was definitely amusing for 10 minutes or so. I started to figure that if i could use my mind for that i could play out whole scenarios but i probably wasn't high enough and did not want to waste the meds that were meant to help me.
So all in all, I find benzo's to be a pretty amazing type of drug, as i was still in a kind of right mind other than the chillness that many friends had noticed and questioned me about, I would definitely recommend it for someone who may have a panic reaction to many other psychedelic experiences, and i may not be correct but the only time i had tripped out was in the dark with very little lightning, Would a higher dose remove that barrier?
Thanks for reading. =)
I have severe anxiety and panic attacks and have just been prescribed alot of the following meds, this was my first time taking them and have absolutely no tolerance to any meds that were taken below, though i did expect the experience to be slightly more entertaining, it was still more than expected.
Consumed:
THREE 1mg lorazepam
ONE 3mg bromazepam
ONE 25mg hydroxyzine
ONE 50mg diphenhydramine tablet(nytol)
THREE 30/325 Tylenol 3
7:30: Stomach feels pretty nauseous, though i believe it's just an anxious reaction as i have felt this while not on anything as well.
7:40: Head feels pretty heavy, My body is getting heavier.. Must be the dph trying to put me to sleep.
8:00: I walked outside to smoke a cigarette and noticed a little warmth in my hands and arms, the tingling made me drop my smoke, twice.
8:10: I thought these were suppose to relieve anxiety at the least? My back is aching, i'm grinding my shoulders and my heart feels like it's taking triple beats.
9:20: I sat in my backyard with my friend, I had closed my eyes unknowningly and had pretty vivid flash hallucinations which lasted for only 5 seconds at most. The first one i remember was a bush i had seem in the front of my house except it was completely dried out and brown and dead. Another was something i was to do the day after and i pictured my aunts house and for a minute thought i was walking towards it before it blew away.
I woke up and my friend tried convincing me i was sleeping but i knew i only had my eyes closed.
9:30-10:00: I walked to the store with my friend and nothing really happened during this time other than feeling extremely lazy but i can say that even though i felt that way and probably would have told him NO straight up i still went, almost like i had no emotions and even when people were rude i continued to stay in my same inner happy/outside plain state of mind. I figured that you need to be relaxed to experienced anything at such a low dose of benzo's. ??
10:20: I was again sitting in my backyard when the good part truely started, the shadow of my house on the ground was forming a thick black smog that morphed in to a black robbed person, His hand slowly progressed towards me and i reached out, slightly confused and jumped for a minute when i thought i had seen a scyth. My friend shined his cellphone light and it disappeared, which kind of angered me but i did not have any anger to give.
Enough with the times though, from here it got a quite bit more interesting where i was projecting shadows with just a thought in my mind, I even dressed myself in a mirror and made myself look like i had a mustache, bunny ears, sunglasses and a beard. I got very bored of doing that though it was definitely amusing for 10 minutes or so. I started to figure that if i could use my mind for that i could play out whole scenarios but i probably wasn't high enough and did not want to waste the meds that were meant to help me.
So all in all, I find benzo's to be a pretty amazing type of drug, as i was still in a kind of right mind other than the chillness that many friends had noticed and questioned me about, I would definitely recommend it for someone who may have a panic reaction to many other psychedelic experiences, and i may not be correct but the only time i had tripped out was in the dark with very little lightning, Would a higher dose remove that barrier?
Thanks for reading. =)
